The Untouched Heart

Chapter 80 - One Mistake

“A moment, sister,” said Darla when the woman was about to close the door. “This corridor is special for special grade patients, so each room is occupied by only one person. When the door was tightly shut, I was sure no one could hear our voices in this room, except those passing by.”

“We are not partying but comforting the sick.” Darla pointed at Mama. “Please, do not come again if you have problems hearing our laughter. I know there are no patients in the other rooms who complain about what we do in this room.”

The woman was silent. He looked at us then closed the door and the room was silent for a moment. “Wow, Darla. Where's that courage until you're reckless against it?” qiana Goda.

“Our laughter isn't that loud but she just keeps interrupting. I've run out of patience. During the first visit, I chose to be quiet because I did not want to look for a commotion. This time I can't be quiet anymore,” growled. We then hugged him.

My mom could go home the next day. Hendra deliberately came from the office to help take care of the payment. Liando took my parents home, and I was with my husband in his car. His phone did not stop vibrating indicating that there was something important being taken care of. I feel guilty always makes it hard.

Papa helped Mama into the house, while Liando helped carry a bag with my parents' clothes. Hendra didn't want to go to his office first and wanted to go with me. Then I don't force him anymore.

“What's up, Ma?” ask me when Mama looked long enough out the window.

“Adhyana and Naava are mad at you?” ask Mama slowly. I just bow my head. “I guessed it. Never before had they not come to see me at all in the hospital. You just calm down. We'll talk to them.”

“No, Ma,” said Hendra forbid. “Let them be my business. Papa and Mama wouldn't be able to meet them without a big fight. And I'm sure my parents won't be found either. So instead of Mama getting hurt with their attitude later, I'd better just talk to my parents.” Mama shook her head slowly.

“I am a parent, Son. I understand their disappointment. I would feel the same way if I were in their position. You can't talk about this with them. Your parents will hate Ara even more and we for letting you speak on our behalf.” Mama looked at Hendra seriously. “We won't be seeing them anytime soon. We wait until they calm down.”

“Good, Ma.” Hendra lowered his head. I wanted to touch his hand, but I locked my intention. It was I who had put him in this difficult position.

“You're very good, son. I understand you want to protect us. But as parents, we cannot continue to let you play our guard. It's time for us as parents to protect you, our children,” said Papa who just came out of the room.

“I'm sorry, Ma, Pa. I've troubled everyone,” my words are full of regrets.

“You've apologized enough, Ra. No more. Do not repeat your mistake. That's enough,” Mama said firmly. I bow my head. How can I repeat the same mistake? One mistake alone his sentence felt very long and as if there was no way out ahead there.

If only there was no Hendra by my side, I don't know how I could have survived all this. If my family and friends don't support me, I don't know what's happening to me right now.

If I cut off my relationship with Aldo before I found him betraying me, would I still make the foolish decision to marry Hendra immediately? I'm sure Hendra won't stop trying to get to me when he finds out that I'm on my own.

But what if I stay in a relationship with Aldo? I forgive her and we stay married. Are we going to have children together then I have to fight raising them myself when he gets arrested by the police for his crimes?

If I gave Hendra a chance and learned to love him from the beginning we were married, would our lives be happier? If I hadn't taken the pills, would we have had many children and be good parents to them?

I had so many unanswered questions in my head after talking to my parents. A question I never asked myself before making a decision for a stupid decision that ruined my own life. Why don't I study too? Why am I always good friends with problems?

“What are you thinking?” I jumped in surprise as someone hugged me from behind. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to surprise you,” said Hendra who immediately felt guilty. I nodded slowly while smiling.

“It's okay. Sorry, I didn't welcome you under.” I touched one of her hands in front of my chest, brought it closer to my lips, and kissed her. “Welcome back.”

“Is anyone bothering you?” ask again. He's still hugging me.

“Just think about the past and how to improve the present,” I replied honestly. I leaned my head against his chest.

“No need to think about things that can make you difficult. Just love your heart so you and your little one stay healthy.” He kissed the side of my head. “Nothing is more important to me now than the two of you. You understand?”

“Iya. I will take good care of myself,” I said promise. I looked towards him. He looked me in the eyes for a moment before lowering his face and kissing my lips.

“I'll take a shower, then we have dinner together.” He kissed me once more before letting go of his embrace. I'm nodding.

Hendra walked towards the bathroom, I stared at his back. What the hell is he thinking? What is he feeling now? Ever since she went back to sleep with me in this room, I didn't feel like we were getting any closer. We are getting further and further away.

We did discuss a lot of things together, but never discussed our feelings again. She stopped saying love so I wondered, does she still love me or is she still here just to fulfill her duty as a husband?

He also no longer touched me intimately. We stopped making love. Whenever I asked for more than just kissing, she immediately distanced herself and kept her distance. Does he not want me anymore? Or is it just temporary because I'm pregnant?