The Untouched Heart

Chapter 153 - Make Me Your Strength

“Mama? What is Mama doing here?” The first thing I saw when I entered the house was Mama sitting with her head down on the stairs. “Come, Ma. We sit in the family room.”

“Your wife needs you more. I'm it's okay. Go.” Mama gave me a little boost after I helped her up.

“But,” I said who was worried and confused to see the situation. Mama looked so devastated as if something bad had just happened.

“I have to go home. Go.” He pushed me again.

I finally complied and rushed towards the second floor. Abdi, Liando, Sakti, and almost all of our workers were standing at my doorstep. No one opens the door. They're all here. They looked very sad without taking their eyes off the door. I took a deep breath before entering the room.

Yuyun stood by the bed. A doctor sitting on the couch was writing something down on a note. Then my eyes fell on my wife who was sleeping in our bed. What happens until all our houseworkers look so worried?

“Pak Mahendra.” The doctor walked towards me. I looked at her and prepared to hear what had happened to my wife. “For a while, there needs to be someone watching your wife. He can't be left alone. It's a remedy to help him stay calm.”

“What happened, Doc?” manyworry.

“Your wife is showing symptoms of depression. According to the workers who witnessed it, your wife was trying to end her life.” The floor that I was on seemed to sway made me take a step back to maintain balance. “Give him this medicine for three days. If the situation remains the same, please consult the situation with a psychologist or psychiatrist.”

“Ba-good, Doc.” I looked at my sleeping wife. He wants to end his life? I thought we were fine and would face this together, but she wanted to get away from me for good? What happened when I left?

Mamma. Does this have anything to do with my mom? How many times do I have to tell them that they can't see Za if they can't respect her as my wife? Hasn't it been enough to see his life destroyed from multiple directions?

I am thankful that the kids are not home right now. We both can't be good parents to them at this point. We are both rearranging fragments of our hearts that are broken into pieces.

Our greatest happiness was taken for granted. We both want this child. I really hope our baby can be born and meet us. But as soon as he came, he had to leave. I failed to protect my wife and children from them. I failed to take care of my own family.

The money and power I have cannot protect them. If only I had acted faster, all this I could have prevented. I should've taken an offer from Aunt Arum and let him send his team to stop Dicky and Nora. But I was too arrogant to think I could handle everything myself.

“Hendra.” I just finished getting dressed hearing her voice call my name. I rushed to him.

“Iya, darling. I'm here.” I sat on the edge of the bed and held his outstretched hand. She looked at me with teary eyes.

“Will you do something for me?” ask her with a soft tone. I stroked her cheeks, wiping her tears.

“Say, darling. What do I need to do?” I'll give her whatever she asks. I'll go to the end of the world to get it when it's necessary.

“Please, leave me.” That word hurt my broken heart. Tears poured out from his eyes. “I'm no longer of any use to you. Everyone insulted me, they were disgusted at me, and I took you to the abyss with me. Look for another woman who has absolutely no scandal, who is holy, and has no faults in her past.”

“Sayang ..” Did Mama say that to him?

“Please, grant my request. I'm not strong anymore. I can't afford to go through this anymore. Leave me or just kill me,” he said desperately. He covered his face with his free hand.

“But you will never be happy again. I only bring suffering to you.” She came back crying. “I don't even have the price anymore. Me ...” I immediately covered her mouth with my hand, preventing her from cursing herself any further.

“I don't care what people say. I love you and you're the best woman I've ever known. I will not marry you if you are worthless. Just listen to me, baby. Don't listen to them.” He looked at me with his big eyes, looking for something in both of my eyes.

“I can deal with all this because you are with me. When you leave, who else do I share the burden with, baby? You are a strong woman. You manage to face your nightmares, you will manage to deal with these as well. I'm here with you. We're dealing with this together. Yes?”

“Until when? When are we doing this?” tanyakanya.

“No need to think about tomorrow. What will happen tomorrow, we will face it. Let's just think about what we're going to do in this moment. I promise, things will improve. You can walk out of this house again without anyone humbling or insulting you again. I promise.”

“I'm sorry, dear.” She cried again and covered her face with her hands. “I was about to do something that I will regret very much. Ii'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you sad. I didn't mean to leave you and our children.”

“Sstt …. Its alright. You are grieving, I understand.” I kissed her forehead, her cheeks, the back of the hand that covered her eyes, her lips. I gave him all my love.

He took his hand away from his face and put it on my neck. She hugged me and I was careful not to put my entire upper body weight on her. I kissed her neck, then her shoulder, helped her calm down.

“Already. Geli.” She laughs. Loving to hear that voice, I kissed the area just now making her laugh. “Hendra, enough!” I don't care about it. His laughter filled our room, warming my heart. But I stopped when he asked for forgiveness.

I wiped his face from tears, then smiled at him. He looked back at me with his sad eyes after managing to control his laughter. For a moment, none of us spoke. He lay behind me, so I lay down behind him and hugged him. I smelled her hair which gave off the scent of flowers.

“According to you, is our baby happy there? Or is he mad at me for not taking good care of himself?” ask Za slowly.

“He must be happy. He is luckier than us, there is no need to know the cruel world and people who only think of themselves.” I felt him rub the back of my hand that was in front of his chest.

“True too. Then we don't have any more children. We take good care of Hadi and Dira until they can be independent. No need to give them sister.” I didn't have to look at her face to know that her sneaky smile was adorning her lips.

“I agree.” I followed the direction of the game. “After the three-month fast has passed, we do not need to rush to make love again. Your health is more important.”

“My health will not be disturbed because we make love.” He spoke casually, but I could feel him beginning to be alarmed.

“You yourself said that my seed has the same determination as me. What if you get pregnant again? No. gabe. You need to recuperate.”

“But the doctor allowed me to have sex after three months,” his protest. I laughed hearing that. “Hendra!”

Even though we went through the night well and she started laughing again, I remained wary of her drastic emotional changes. I worked from home and didn't leave her side for a while.

On the day we took our regular health check-ups, I was happy to be able to live it with my family and not be alone anymore. I was forced to back off the schedule because a lot of things had happened. Hadi and Dira were confused themselves to see the examination after examination that they had to undergo. Doctors and medics who handle them work so well that they don't cry when dealing with syringes.

The results of the thorough examination we underwent showed good results. My family and I are in good health. There is no disease in our body. But why does my wife seem so preoccupied with her own thoughts? Did she think back to our baby who had left when she was taken to this hospital?