The Untouched Heart

Chapter 32 - My Greatest Fear

I stood for a while until the car my wife was riding in disappeared among the traffic crowd. Kafin was waiting by standing next to the car door, so I approached him and he helped open the door for me.

She's taking a pregnancy-preventing drug? Since when? Ever since we got married? I went to the doctor because I thought the problem was with me. I don't even care if the problem is with his health. But seeing that the medicine was in the drawer, I could not control the anger that controlled me. My wife has betrayed my trust.

Why isn't he honest with me? If she doesn't want to have a child with me yet, why would she say that she doesn't mind our wedding anniversary? I always try to be honest with him. Then why should he lie to me? I never got mad at him, never raised my tone of voice, what was he afraid of me for?

Yeah, God. I love her so much and my goal is to marry her only one. I want to make her happy. I want her to laugh and smile with me. I'm holding him back not because I want to see him suffer. But because I know, there's no other man out there who can love her like I do. There won't be.

He must hate me so much now. I forced my will on him last night and hurt him. I even forced him to love me and forget about the man. I knew I was digging my own grave. When he came willingly, he didn't love me either. Especially now when I ask with violence.

We can survive for six years. This time, how long will we last? Could it be that the covenant letter could make him stay by my side until we die later? Or will he go first because he is not strong enough to suffer with me?

“Master, we have arrived,” said Kafin disperse my daydreams. I look around me. We got to the front of my office building.

“Thank you, Kafin. Today I came home on time,” I said before getting out of the car. He nodded obediently.

Due to the affair with Za and my lawyer, I was forced to postpone the meeting with the directors. Anyway there was a problem I found on the report of one of the divisions and I wanted to meet with them before attending the meeting.

Sherry was already standing waiting in front of the meeting room door. “Send people to immediately solve my in-laws problem according to my instructions,” my command when we are near.

He opened the door for me. Everyone in the room did not dare to raise their faces to look at me. The view is no longer foreign. I never yelled at anyone but my employees were afraid of me.

I sat down and received a document from Sherry. He left the room I was sure of because he was going to call people to help Papa and Mama. I picked up the document so they could see what I was calling them into this room.

“Why are you doing this?” I asked without showing my emotions at all. The five people who were in the room just lowered their heads deeply. “I can't hear your answers. Why do you manipulate sales achievement data like this?”

“Sorry, Sir. We don't intend to manipulate. We make those numbers as motivation for ourselves. That way, we will try our hardest to reach the target by the end of the month, Pak.” replied one of them with a vibrating voice.

“It's the end of the month and you don't change a single number that's here. You know the difference between the target at the time of planning with the reality on the field, ‘kan? Do I need to train again to make things this trivial?” ask me to look at them one by one. No one dared to raise their head.

“Ka, we will fix it immediately, Sir.” replied the man earlier. It seemed like he was a sales or marketing manager because the others did not dare to answer other than him.

“I'll work on it now, sir,” he replied nervously.

“If you don't finish it on time, what should I do?” my many. He did not immediately reply, only gulping heavily. He raised his head and looked towards me, then quickly lowered his head again.

“Sa, I leave it to you to give me consequences for my negligence, Mr.”

“Do not do this again. If there's a problem, I want us all to discuss it together. Don't try to solve the problem yourself. This is not a team job but a team job. For the fault of one man will not be charged to that one man alone, but the whole team. Do you guys understand?”

“Me, understood, Sir.”

“Back to your job and I wait for the actual report within one hour.”

They immediately rushed out of the room until I finally lived alone. I took a deep breath trying to ease the anger that had reached the crown of my head. I didn't even have to raise my voice intonation, they were all scared. What would have happened if I had yelled angrily at them all?

“Sherry, reschedule all my appointments after business hours. Move all to the next week.” I buttoned my suit back, then walked towards the door.

“Good, Sir.” He opened the door for me.

“Order a bouquet of thirty white lilies to take me home,” I said adding.

The revisions to the reports they gave were not very satisfactory, but I did not extend the matter. The most important thing is that they fix it and give an honest report according to what is happening on the ground.

The board meeting went smoothly and I learned to accept the new planning board performance. He had only been in the post for a few days, it was only natural that he was still slow to do his part. He's still got two more months to show if he's the right person to be there or not. May he not be the type of traitor like the one who was in that position before.

Returning to my study, I received a report that Papa and Mama's problem had settled. Oscar has also handled the case that ensnared Zach. It's not as easy as this to share with me. What can he do to help his parents? He had no savings because he refused all the money I gave him.

What does our marriage really mean to her? Is it just status? He did not love me, did not want the presence of children, nor did he accept any help from me. He is not the only one acting like a stranger. His family also kept their distance from me. I did everything I could to win her heart. What other way should I try?

Usually I am very happy to see him welcoming me home with a cheerful face. But after knowing the truth, I wondered. Did what he was displaying honestly come from his heart? Or is he lying to me by pretending to be happy with me?