The Untouched Heart

Chapter 10 - Still Angry

~Za~

After dinner alone in the dining room, I returned to the special room for me. But I could only sit for a while and had to turn off the laptop immediately because the sound of the car coming from the front of the house. I won't be able to return to this room again until Hendra has gone to the office again tomorrow morning.

“Hai, darling. You are very beautiful,” said Hendra with a happy face to see me open the door of the house for him. She wrapped her hands around my waist and kissed my lips. “Have you had dinner?”

“Already. You?” I asked back. My husband nodded cheerfully. He gave me a bouquet of red roses. She knew it was my favorite flower.

“Thank you.” I accepted it, then smelled its fragrant aroma.

The bouquet I gave to Yuyun who was standing near me to put in a flower vase and put in our room. Feeling Hendra not pull his hand from my waist, I knew that he wanted me to come with him to the room. We walked up the stairs to the top floor.

“Is there a problem during my leave?” ask her as we climb the stairs.

“No. Everything is under control,” I replied casually.

“Good. I got a two-year contract for Xavier's new project in Indonesia. She's disappointed you can't come with me. Annora looking for you.” He looked at me for a moment.

“You've already conveyed my apology?” I didn't look in his direction.

“Already. And they are not satisfied.” He shook his head.

“You know that I hate to get on a plane and as much as possible avoid traveling far,” I said half lying. I hate planes but I love to travel.

“I know. But you didn't mind before. Therefore Annora protested loudly,” reported while sighing softly. I just kept quiet. “How about a meeting with your friends this afternoon? Darla still be best friend?”

“Iya. Lindsey and Qiana didn't stop teasing me, Darla defended me like always,”. He shook his head.

“Become the youngest, it must be ready to be a material teapot.”

Hendra opened the door and let me in first. He sat on the edge of the bed and I stood between his legs. I helped untie his tie. The man wrapped his hands around my thighs with his head raised so that he could look at my face intently. I smiled as I removed the tie knot.

“You want to shower now? I'll prepare the hot water.” I opened the collar of his shirt after successfully opening the knot of his tie.

“You're still mad at me.” He pulled me closer. I put both my hands on her shoulders. I frowned, not understanding why he said that. “You don't want to come with me to London not because you're afraid to get on a plane.”

“That incident was two years ago, Za. I beg. I knew that I almost slept with another woman and I confessed wrongly. There's no reason I can say to justify my actions,” he said slowly. “Can't you forgive me and stop punishing me by staying away from me? I can't be away from you, baby.”

“We've already discussed this,” cut me fast. I tried to get out of her embrace. The man tightened his hand circle.

“Iya. And it doesn't stop you from getting angry at me. Tell me, what do I have to do to be able to get your apology?” said pleading.

There was a knock on our door. Without letting go of his embrace, Hendra let in. Liando came with his master's suitcase, Hendra asked him to put it near the door. Yuyun also came carrying a crystal vase filled with water and roses, she also asked him to put it near the door.

They are welcome to rest because their work for today is done. Liando and Yuyun parted ways and closed the door of the room back. After we were alone in the room, he looked at me.

“I love you, Za. I love you. I want you to be happy.” He kissed right in the middle of my chest and then put his head there. “I don't like seeing you angry. Stop being angry, baby. Ii'm sorry. I promise I will never repeat it again. And you know for yourself, I'm loyal to you until this second.”

“When you are betrayed, even if only once, it feels equally painful, Hendra,” I said in a serious tone.

Two years ago we had a big fight. Both my parents went to the house and we argued as usual. Papa's angry that I'm still saying Aldo's name. After four years of marriage to Hendra, Papa was angry that I was still thinking about another man who was not my husband. To counter his words, I said something that only the two of them knew but never wanted me to admit.

I didn't love my husband until that day. Papa's guess was wrong when he said that time would foster my love for Hendra because up to that point, I felt nothing but anger, disgust, and hatred for him. That was when my husband came into the room.

We had dinner in an awkward atmosphere. Papa and Mama take turns trying to open the conversation and Hendra serves them well. They talked as if nothing had happened before we ate.

But as soon as my parents came home, Hendra pulled me into the room and asked me to speak honestly. I told him openly that I didn't love him. His face was so hurt, he came out of the house and did not come home that night.

The next night, he came home but would not look at my face at all. I'm not protesting. And for the first time, we lay on the bed with our backs on each other. As soon as she went to sleep, I checked her clothes on the bathroom floor. Nothing is strange. The smell is the smell of my husband.

Not satisfied with that, I met the driver. The man told me where his master had gone, where he had slept the night before, and with whom. My heart almost stopped beating. My husband took another woman to the hotel room. I let the man back into his room and I did the same.

Back in the room, I saw Hendra sitting on the edge of the bed. His face was pale and full of guilt. I just stood leaning against the door of our room after closing it. I closed my eyes not looking at him.

Right, I don't love him. But his betrayal still broke my heart. All the promises and words of love he had spoken up until that day became meaningless. He no longer exclusively gave his body to me. He shared it with another woman.

After the betrayal committed by Aldo, I hope Hendra will never do the same. But again I was wrong. All men are the same.

Without being able to bear it, I cried sobbing. My legs could no longer hold my weight, I slid down on the floor. My chest is tight and painful. I don't know how to reduce the pain. I hugged both of my knees tightly. All who say love to me are liars. In the end, they will betray and choose to live with other women. Aldo has done it. Hendra will do the same.