The Untouched Heart

Chapter 151 - The Pain of Losing

I checked the kids' room. He wasn't there. Hadi and Dira also seem to have not slept. I went down the stairs and called out his name. Yuyun came out of a room and approached me. Before I could ask Hendra where he was, he told me that my husband was on his way home.

“Kids?” I looked at the room where he had come.

“They fell asleep while watching the movie, Mistress,” he replied. I'm nodding. I looked towards the door. “What is Madam hungry? Should I get food?”

“I just want my husband.” I can't relax seeing she's not home. Why did he leave and not tell me? What business out there? There were a lot of reporters, wasn't he worried they would follow him where he went? “Ng, pity the kids sleep there. Please, take them to their room.”

“Good, Mistress.” Yuyun looked towards Liando. I didn't realize that Abdi, Fahri, also Sakti was standing near us. They looked at me with worried faces. My face warmed up to realize that I was screaming my husband's name. They must have heard it.

“Do the Madam need anything?” askthem. Maybe I should eat. I don't feel hungry but I just ate one today. Yuyun and Liando came out of the living room with the children in their arms.

“I'll eat.” I walked to the dining room. Fahri and Abdi rushed to the kitchen. It felt so good after I sat down in the chair.

The roar of the car engine sounded a few minutes later. Hendra is home! I thanked Fahri for the food, then walked out of the room. Abdi opened the front door and Hendra entered with a worried face. I immediately ran to him. I could breathe a sigh of relief while in his arms.

“Where are you from?” my many.

“Newly left for a while already missed,” godanya. “I'm just taking care of work for a while. There are some important documents I need to sign. Did you forget that you are now the wife of a chief director?”

“You didn't say that you were going.” I tightened my embrace.

“How much this wife of mine.” I shrieked softly as Hendra suddenly carried me. “Why are you awake? You should just sleep and not think about anything. You need to rest.”

“I woke up because you weren't by my side.” I put my head on his chest.

“You're up hungry.” I laughed hearing that. He's correct.

I slept soundly in his arms. When I woke up, I could not find him by my side. But looking at the numbers on the digital clock, I understand. I'm misfortune. After bathing and changing clothes, I found my family in the pool.

They welcomed me with happy cheers. I just sat down, Yuyun has come to bring me a tray of breakfast. I thank him. Hadi and Dira followed Yuyun towards the house, while Hendra approached me. I refused as she tried to kiss me by giving her a towel.

She knelt beside me and hugged and kissed me. I rebelled wanting to get away from him, he made me wetter. Finally, I just let go. He laughed happily.

“I've taken a shower and this is my clean clothes.” I nodded at her look.

“How are you doing?” He sat by my side and took a loaf of bread from my plate.

“Better.” I smiled to see him eating so well.

“Kids will go to the playground. Zach's gonna pick them up later. You mind if they stay at your sister's tonight?” tanyakanya. I shook my head slowly. Hadi and Dira need to get out of this house for a while. My condition is not good. I can't accompany them to play as they always do.

“You will be mine all day.” I smiled happily.

“I'll be away for a while this afternoon and will be home tonight, I hope you don't mind.” He looked at me with a pincher. I forget. She already reminded me last night that I was the wife of a chief director. He must have a show he must attend.

“Go, darling. I will wait for you patiently.” I blinked one eye. He rewarded me with a kiss on the lips.

“Spend your breakfast. I take a shower and help the kids get ready. Zach is coming soon.” He stood up, I stared at his departure while enjoying his back body with my eyes. Too bad. We can't make love for the next three months.

Zach looked at me sympathetically when he came. The official as well. I received a hug from them and thanked them for the support they gave me. Hadi and Dira say goodbye, then run after their cousins to the car.

Hendra and I were just sitting on the couch watching a movie in the living room. We occasionally discuss what happens in the film. He avoids serious topics and directs conversations on light things.

It seems like I fell asleep because when I opened my eyes, I was lying in our room. He's not by my side, he's gone. I sat down and was silent for a moment. My hand touched my stomach. Before the grief came back to make me cry, I got out of bed.

I headed to the front room and found Mama coming alone without Papa. He wouldn't like it if I sat by his side, so I sat in front of him with the table between us. Looking at his face, I felt like a teenager who would be scolded by his mother for doing bad things.

“If you don't want money, what should I give you to leave Hendra?” ask Mama without further ado. “I beg you, tell me. I could no longer see him fall so deep into the mud. The media and people are now scorning him. Those who once respected us also did not stop insulting our family. Tell. What do you want?”

Mama looks desperate. She was no longer the arrogant woman who came to me with her arrogant attitude and offered me large sums of money like buying crackers. She was a mother who was hurt to see her son suffer.

Not only Mama, I also don't want to see Hendra continue to suffer. If there is a way for him to be free from all the pain I have caused, I will take that path. I would do anything to make him happy again.

“Is Aunt sure that Hendra will be happy after I leave her life? Aunty can guarantee that she will be fine without me?” askaku.

“Of course. I was his mother. I know what is best for my son,” he said with full confidence. “I am the one who gave birth to her, raised her, and only I will be able to protect her beyond you.”

“What is the best Auntie means, Aunt still wants to marry her to the lady of choice Auntie?” ask again.

“I won't live forever. Hendra needs a wife. Our family needs a successor. He is a director now, he will need a child to replace him later. And I'm sure he'll be happy with Nora,” he said seriously.

“Good. Please, hold the words of the aunt. I don't know how to do it, but I'll try to get away from Hendra. If I succeed, please take care of her for me. I knew that I was just giving him hurt and embarrassment. I can no longer do this. I'd rather just die.” I stood up and walked towards the door.

“Everyone hates me.” My feet pointed me towards the back of the house. “I don't even deserve one chance to prove that I've changed. My sins are too big. I'm too dirty. Everyone thinks that I just deserve to be harassed.”

“What do you do?” said Mama followed me. “Zahara.”

I open one by one the cabinet drawer looking for the thing I need. When I found it in one of the drawers, I took the largest one that looked sharp. Fahri always diligently sharpened every knife he used.

“Yuyun! Fahri! Abdi! Where are you guys?!” screeched Mama as she walked over to me and prevented me from splitting my chest with that thing.

“No! Let go of me!” Mama held my hands together so I couldn't do what I had planned.

“Zahara! What are you doing?! You can't do this,” said Mama panicked.

“Release, Auntie! Let me die. Hendra won't let me go if I'm alive. He'll definitely come after me again and bring me back. I beg. It's the only way. Let me die.”

“Are you crazy? Hendra can curse me for life if you die.”

“Mrs!” pekik Abdi's. There were so many hands holding my hand that for a moment, the knife had already changed hands from me. “Mistress, don't do this.”

“Mrs!” Yuyun hugged me while crying loudly. “Strengthen Yourself, Mistress. I beg. Don't do this. Sir will be very sad.”

“I want to see my son. I want to meet him. Poor him alone in the ground. I want to meet him. I'm going to go with him. Maite …! Forgive me, Son. My dear child …. Forgive mama who can't take care of you.” I sat on the floor crying for a child I hadn't even seen. Hopefully, he will come back to me.

How much longer, huh, God? How long will I have to bear the punishment for my sins? I'm not strong anymore.

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...~Author's Note~...

Hi guys. I'm asking for a day off, yes. Happy Christmas to those who celebrate it. Enjoy good food, be careful that cholesterol goes up. Hooho .... Happy holidays too and keep strict health protocols for all of us. ♡♡

Greetings dear, dear,

Meina H's.