The Untouched Heart

Chapter 241 - Cowardice

I don't understand what he's saying. What lawyer? I only know Oscar and I haven't contacted him at all. Is this Mama's? What's wrong with my mom? My marriage to Za is no one's business. It's purely our business.

Papa is the same. I can take care of myself, why would he invite this woman into the house? My head hurt this morning because I remembered some very painful things. I don't want to remember it anymore. Everything that has to do with this woman is just a wound.

And my head ached more and more to hear the screams of fear accompanied by the rumbling sound of the television. I took the remote and turned off the volume of the television. The room was suddenly quiet so I could think clearly.

“I didn't send anyone home. Every legal thing I'm gonna leave to Oscar. Maybe Mama who hastily wants us to split up who sent a lawyer to see you.” I sighed softly. “And I'm not a coward.”

“A husband and father who ran away from home died his wife and children are cowards. You would rather run away from problems than discuss and talk about them with me. Do you think we've never experienced this before?” said annoyed.

“Listen to me carefully. I don't want to do this with you anymore. I don't care if you lose your memory or not, but I don't want to get hurt anymore. I don't want my kids to suffer anymore. You only have two days. If you don't return home on Saturday, I assume you decide to leave our lives forever.”

“What do you mean?”

“Our previous divorce can still be fixed. I realized I was wrong. But if you divorce me a second time, I will not return to you. Even if you beg me, there will be no more opportunity to be with him.

“I love you, Hendra, doesn't mean I let you play with my feelings like this. So, I came here to fulfill Papa's request on the basis of my responsibilities as a wife. You don't think I came to persuade you back,” he said firmly. He threw away his face and crossed both hands in front of his chest.

Why am I being scolded? The one who made a mistake here was him, why would I feel guilty now? No. gabe. This is not true. The biggest mistake in a marriage is infidelity. I have a right to be angry with him.

Don't punish him twice for the same mistake. Papa's words are back in my head. Is this actually my dad or not? How could he be more in favor of his son-in-law than his own son?

“I don't mean to leave the kids,” I said defend myself. “How are they doing? Are they okay?”

“They lost their papa. Do you think they'll be okay? You've only been home for a few months and live with us. Hadi grew up five years without you, then Dira for two big years without her father. Try telling me, are they okay?”

His words made me feel more guilty. I wasn't with my son for his first five years? What happened to my head? “I'm sorry. I don't know that.”

“I tried to explain what happened, you fell asleep. Do you remember that? When you wake up, you remember the incident. Instead of talking to me, you'd rather go. Really cowardly,” umpatnya again.

“Why do you keep swearing at me like this? Za I know is not like this.”

“Because if I don't keep swearing at you, I will do a foolish act by kneeling down and begging you to go home for my children. But I wouldn't do that. If you don't love them, I won't beg for them. Hadi and Dira are too precious to get the forced love from their own papa. Coward.”

The door was knocked before I could respond. The butler told me my coach had arrived. It's time for therapy, but we'll continue this conversation later.

Za came with us and accompanied me during therapy. But he was busy himself with his cell phone, whether typing what. Just sec. What the hell am I doing? Why am I paying attention to him instead of focusing on my coach's instructions? I immediately turned my attention and continued my physical therapy.

After the therapy, I was forced to ask for her help to help me move from a wheelchair to a bathtub. I closed my eyes as the distinctive aroma of the shampoo and its various other signature fragrances entered my smell.

“You can take off your own clothes, ‘kan?” tanyakanya. I was tempted to answer no, but I immediately hit my own head in my delusion so as not to act shamefully.

He came back when I was done taking a shower. Seeing that I was not wearing anything, she took a bath coat and helped me to put it on. Then he took me to my room. There were already clean clothes that he had placed on the bed.

I wore my own clothes, also moved from bed to wheelchair on my own. She didn't say which room she was going to, but I assumed that she was in the dining room. Before I got to the door, there was a roar of cars in front of the house.

The butler rushed to open the door. Mom and Dad came in with happy faces. I'm sure the results of today's examination were very good. They invited me to lunch, so I asked the butler to call my wife, ah, I mean Za.

“Today's inspection is excellent. No cancer cells were found. And starting this week, the gymnastics that I usually do can be raised the level of difficulty. If in the next two months I'm still cancer free, I can take a special gymnastics class. So, I don't need to be alone at home with a coach,” Mama said with a happy face.

“Congratulations, yes, Aunt. Congratulations, Ma,” said I and Za simultaneously. Papa looked at us alternately, then laughed amusedly.

“How was my son? Did he make you hard?” ask Papa. Za shook her head.

“No, Pa. Can I go home?” tanyanya expectantly.

“This morning he had a great headache, so he could not be allowed to do anything on his own. Naava has a nurse who will accompany him, while Hendra does not. I gotta go to the office, son. Can you stay until I get home?” pinta Papa was half begging.

Za looked at me, then back at Papa. “Good, Pa.”

“And the rules are still the same. If he, or my wife, makes you difficult, call me immediately,” Papa said in a serious tone. Mama and I simultaneously expressed our protest, but Papa asked us not to argue. We had to shut up.

As soon as Papa went to work, Mama went into the room with her nurse, Za and I were alone in the living room. He simply did not want to look at me and was again busy with his phone. What was he working on earlier?

The medicine started working, I felt sleepy. I went out of the room to the room. From the sound of her footsteps behind me, it seemed like she was following me to the room. Since my strength had recovered after lunch, I was able to move myself from wheelchair to bed.

I didn't care if he was still in the room when I closed my eyes, I let sleep take over my consciousness. Half sleepy, I felt someone fix my blanket, then a beep from the air conditioner. I smiled feeling a kiss on my forehead, then I heard a whisper, ‘”Basic stupid man.”

My eyes were too heavy to open, so I allowed whoever it was to mock me. My head feels lighter when I wake up. Za wasn't around me. On the one hand, my heart felt lost, while on the other, I felt relieved.

“Tante, stop. Is Auntie not tired of holding a grudge like this? Please, pay attention to Aunt's health. I won't make things difficult if Hendra wants a divorce with me. So, Auntie can calm down now,” said Za from the direction of the family room. I intend to turn the doorknob, cancel and wait to hear what they are talking about.

“If you have no intention of complicating things, why don't you sign the letter that the lawyer brought to your home?” ask Mama fierce.

“Because I know it wasn't my husband who sent it. I know what it means to whoever sent someone else to my house. If I sign the letter, I will be accused of initiating our divorce,” Za replied.

“Why? Why is it so hard to tell you to leave? I hate you so much and don't want to see you continue to hurt my son. Why aren't you the only one in the accident and lost their memories forever? Why should my son who always suffers and falls ill because of your sin?” mama said with anger.

I opened the door as soon as I heard Za's sobs. “Ma, stop!”