The Untouched Heart

Chapter 130 - This is Not Love

I could only calm down for three years while he was in prison. Once he was free, instead of improving himself and focusing on his family and work, he came again to bother me. How could I have loved him with all my heart?

I carried Dira so we could walk faster. I went through it, not returning her greeting or smile. He immediately grabbed my arm so I was forced to stop my steps. He deliberately didn't let me through the wall so Hendra couldn't look at us.

“Hey, hey. Where are you going? Is this how to reply to an old friend?” tanyakanya. I brushed off his hand, but he did not let go of his.

“I don't know you. Let go of me!” I said with a stifled voice.

“You've already returned with Hendra, so now you're acting cocky? Do you feel strong because you have a husband who can give you everything? Listen, yeah. I know that he's the one who got me in jail. You two will regret having ruined my life.” His eyes looked at me with anger.

“You who took a bribe were found out, why was my husband blamed? Will you never learn from your mistakes? Are you always going to blame others for every bad event that happens to you?” manya mock. “Thank God, I didn't marry you.”

“Don't be happy first, Ra. This time I will make sure you come back to me. You'll be begging me to take you back.” He smiled cynically.

“Please, Vivaldo. If you have no more shame and conscience, go ahead. But I will make sure this is also for you. I will never come back to you, no matter what. I'd rather die than fall in your arms again. You know why?” my many.

“Why?” his challenge.

“Because I'm disgusted to see you. I already know what you did to me almost six years ago. You pay people to stalk me and take photos of us together. You want to try to separate me and Hendra again? Please, if you want my disgust for you to turn to hate.” I pulled my arm back, this time he let go.

His eyes looked at me with wounds, I didn't care. What he did was not love. It's insanity. He only thinks about his own feelings and doesn't care about others. I don't intend to go back with him anymore. Why is something so simple difficult to understand?

“You slept with other men until you got pregnant when you parted with Hendra. No need to act holy in front of me.” He watched Dira closely. “You are not happy with that barren man. Must be your first child also from another man, ‘kan?”

“Please think whatever you want about me. But that's all you'll get. Thinking me. You won't be able to get me again.” I smiled to see him being pushed back by my words. Being scared will make him feel like he won. I won't let him intimidate me anymore.

He was at a loss for words, I left immediately. My heart pounded quickly as I got further away from him and got closer to Hendra. Being strong is not easy. It was fortunate that I managed to find a word that could silence his arrogant mouth. And thank God I can be strong and fearless in front of him.

I inhaled a lot of air to fill my chest. “Mama?” Dira looked at me with a worried face. He's a good boy. While in front of the man, he did not say anything that could interrupt us. I kissed her cheek and tightened my embrace.

“Mama is very convenient to Dira.”

He put both his hands on my body. “Say Mama.”

My heartbeats are starting to return to normal thanks to his embrace. I stepped firmly closer to our tent. Hendra and Hadi turned. My son ran up to me, Hendra took a bag of wet clothes from my hand.

“We almost called the police because you guys were so long.” Hendra kissed Dira's cheek. “What is this little girl playing water again? Hm? Dira makes Mama hard, huh, earlier? Hm?” Our daughter laughed and was happy to get a kiss from her father.

“Everything is set up.” He put the bag in the tent. “I just need to boil water, put all the vegetables and meat, then pour the seasoning. It's just about to mature. Please, share the rice, dear.” He pointed towards the food basket. I sat Dira on the mat, then took out a bushel and opened the one containing rice.

We eat with gourmand. The soup is delicious. Moreover, we are hungry, tired, sleepy, and the air around us adds to our appetite. Hadi and Dira to ask for their soup. After eating, the children fell asleep and we laid them in the tent. We keep the doors open so that the fresh breeze can cool them.

“Vivaldo is here,” I said slowly. We sat side by side on the mat. I immediately felt his hand grab my hand.

“He bothers you?” He checked the parts of my body he could see. Then his hand rubbed the reddened part on my right arm. “Why is he doing this?”

“I want to get away from him immediately, he's holding me.” I looked at Hendra expectantly. “Is there nothing we can do so he can't get close to me anymore?”

“Oscar has tried but as long as he does not hurt you to cause serious injury, we cannot ask the court to issue a letter so that he keeps his distance from you. Honey, I have a bodyguard for you, huh?” He hugged my body.

“What Liando just isn't enough?” many wonder.

“He will not be able to accompany you to the toilet,” he said concerned. I lifted my head and looked at his face.

“You mean, female bodyguard?” He nodded his head. “No. If she falls in love with you later like your secretary, I'm the hard one. Liando is enough.”

“Not all the women near us fall in love with me, Za. Yuyun proof,” protest.

“She is married and loves her husband very much.” I rolled my eyeballs. “Already. I don't want to talk about it anymore. There are no female workers in the home. Point.” He put on a pouting face. I smiled and then kissed her lips.

“Say, did he say something that worried you?” His hand caressed my cheek. I knew that I would not be able to hide anything from him.

“He still hasn't given up. He wants me back to him.” Hendra's face immediately turned cold. “He knows that you reported the bribe case so he went to jail. He will reply you and do something to separate us.”

“You're afraid of that threat?” ask Hendra flat.

“I'm worried about you. People who are struggling can do anything without caring about others injured or not. I don't want you to suffer anymore because of me, Hendra.”

“I can take care of myself. As long as you are by my side, nothing will hurt me. Only you can destroy me, Za.” I don't know why, that sentence doesn't make me feel happy and special. I was afraid that his weakness would be exploited by people who did not like him.

Is that why he talks about a strong woman and is not easily fooled by others? Does he know anything? What will happen to us in front of him until he asks me to be a strong woman?