The Untouched Heart

Chapter 254 - My Sorrow

~Vivaldo~

Why my life is like this, I don't know. This is the second time I have embarrassed my family and my children. My daughter was old enough to know something was wrong with her dad. I remember the look in his eyes the last time I visited him and his sisters at my parents' house.

He no longer considers me his father. And I accept all of that. I failed to be a father to all three of them. My parents may not be long anymore, but I let them take care of my young children.

But there's nothing I can do. Only they I can trust to take care of my three children. My late wife's family lives far away, I'm not sure the kids would like to live in a new neighborhood they don't recognize at all.

Seven years. That means my daughter was eighteen when I got out of jail. It's too late for me to fix everything. Ever since I went to prison, no family, friends, or co-workers have visited me.

Fucking coworkers. I protected all of them, but I was cast away like this. Basic two-faced people. Even though they're not behind bars, they're as dirty as I am. Everyone also knew that I couldn't possibly do all this alone. But again I am the victim because I have been imprisoned.

Hendra didn't make things easy for me either. He chased me wherever I went. I was stupid too, lured out of my hiding place. Ara, I didn't mean to hurt him. I just want him to be mine. That'sallthatis.

I raised so much money to live with him. With this job of mine, I will never be able to match the wealth that Hendra has. I have to be richer than him to win Ara's heart. But he preferred to be with that arrogant man.

Now I can only see him from far away. I didn't think he wanted to be a writer. Maybe I don't know much about him. We've been in a relationship since High School, all for the sake of satisfying my ego.

Almost all the boy friends I know want her to be their girlfriend. Conquering the heart of a girl is not difficult for me. The average student in our school fell in love with me. Naturally, I am handsome and smart. Even though I didn't get first place, I always finished in the top five in the class.

Less than six months later, she wanted to be my girlfriend. Damn, she's not an easy girl. He doesn't want me to touch more than a hand. I've never been rejected by any girl if I wanted to kiss their lips.

Even until we graduated, he wouldn't sleep with me. I thought something was wrong with me, but it wasn't. I invited other girls to sleep with me, they didn't refuse. What makes me unable to conquer him?

Even more unfortunate, he just kept inviting me to come home to see his parents. Wh-wh-what for? We're just having fun, still too young to get married. I haven't had a relationship with just one woman in my entire life.

But my pride I have to pay dearly. He caught me kissing an index friend who would become my wife. When I lost her, that's when I realized how much she meant to me.

Unfortunately, I'm too late. She didn't want me to meet at all, didn't want to answer my phone, and the day she came to see me, she gave me a wedding invitation.

The woman who is my wife I consider only a sinner. I have impregnated him, and I cannot abandon my son. Moreover, I have worked as a state civil apparatus. I can't have a scandal.

I lived a loveless married life with him as my mere lustful gratifier. When she was sick and could no longer serve me, there were many women who were always ready to be bedmates with no status or ties.

But I want to live better when I accidentally see him. Ara was having lunch with her husband and father-in-law at the restaurant where I was accompanying my boss. She's getting pretty and I don't like seeing that guy have her.

Therefore I have planned everything in detail to get his heart back. I will never forget the night I finally enjoyed her body. She's much better than any woman and I want her. The obsession that ended up throwing me into this prison again.

My misadventure is not over because I have to settle for being in the same prison as the man who thinks that he can rule the world with his money and his family's big name. Rubbish. I regret working with him and his father.

“At least I've tasted his body.” I grinned satisfied. “Things you will never be able to imagine the pleasure.” I smiled seeing him clutching his hand.

“And you think he likes it?” Dicky laughed out loud. He sat on an empty chair beside me. “He never came back to you, that means you didn't satisfy him at all. And you take that as your extra point to win over me? If he had slept with me once, he would have asked for it again, again, and again. Unfortunately, we won't be able to prove it soon.”

“You will never be able to get close to him. For eight years you are lucky if no one makes you satisfied with his wishes. But if they get you just once, you won't be interested in sleeping with any woman again.”

“You have to take care of yourself. I can take care of myself.” He crossed his arms in front of his chest. “Hendra is very lucky. But that luck won't last long. There is always a good time to get what I want.”

I laughed at the stupid man. “I came out a year sooner than you. When you came out, Ara was already mine,”

...*******...

    Meanwhile in a dark room.

    Gista walked carefully up the stage. He used the flashlight he had on his phone to help illuminate the path he was taking. Someone gave him a microphone, he made sure it worked well.

    He almost jumped when his phone vibrated. Seeing the green-eyed brown-haired man's face smiling at him, he immediately shifted the green-colored phone symbol. Will looked at her with a sleepy face.

    “Hai, baby! What are you doing by contacting me so early there?” asked Gista in a happy tone.

    “I can't sleep. I miss you and want to go home soon,” Will said in a powerful voice.

    “What is stopping you from going home? Come back, I also miss you and Colin,” Gista said in a sad tone.

    “Why should you mention Colin's name as well?” will's protest. Gista rolled his eyeballs.

    “Because he's one package with you. Shouldn't you like it because I love him and think about him?” ask Gista wonder.

    “Gista, what are you doing? Quickly get ready,” said Ibu Qiana from behind me.

    “Ah, I-iya, Bu,” says Gista according. “I have to go. Let's continue when I'm home, yeah. See you later, baby. I love you so much.”

    “Why does Hendra always just interrupt?” will complains before Gista ends their video call.