The Untouched Heart

Chapter 150 - Don't Take My Son

“Don't panic first, baby. Yuyun and Liando had already come. They'll take care of the kids.” He kissed me again. How can I not panic at the sight of blood after a few times of pain in my stomach? “Hold my neck.” I followed and he carried me.

Yuyun had been standing by the door and keeping it open. He looked at me with a worried face. Liando followed us all the way to the car. He put the blanket he brought into the back seat, and Hendra sat me down. I couldn't help but panic on the way to the hospital.

My hands are on my stomach and I hope the little one is okay, while my other hand is in my husband's grasp. Both of us were silent, praying in our hearts. It felt like a long time we were in the car.

Arriving at the hospital, Hendra immediately took me to the emergency room. The nurse greeted us and the doctor came to handle me. They checked my situation and I didn't want to let go of Hendra's hand. I want him to be here. Then the doctor gave me a bomb that I didn't want to hear and believe. I lost my baby.

“My baby is fine. Don't lie, Doctor.” I can't take the news well. It hasn't been two weeks since we first found out she grew up in my womb, she's been fine. He's not going anywhere.

“I'm sorry, Mom. I'm so saddened by the loss you're feeling.” The doctor and nurse in the room looked at me with sympathy.

“I didn't lose my baby. She's still in my womb.” I held my stomach to protect him in my womb.

“Honey,” whispered Hendra. He caressed my cheek.

“No. No, Hendra. This is not true. My baby's fine. Our baby is still in my stomach.” I shook my head.

“She's gone, baby. Strengthen yourselves. Our baby has returned to God.”

No. gabe. This is not true. I just heard the news that she grew up in my womb and now she's gone? It's just a dream. Ja. This must be one of those nightmares that are always present in my sleep. When I wake up, the doctor will say that the little guy is fine.

God will not be this cruel to me. He forgave my mistakes and giving me a child was proof of that. God will not take back the newly given baby. If He had taken it so soon, why would He have given it to me? Why did He give me happiness and take it away in just a few days?

My eyes hurt a lot. But the more pain I felt in my stomach. And I'm hungry. I opened my eyes and saw the white ceiling. Not just the ceiling, the surroundings of this room are all white. I felt a touch on my right hand. I turned my head and met a look with two eyeballs that looked at me worriedly.

“Hendra,” I said slowly. She smiles.

“Iya, darling. It's me.” His hand caressed my cheek. I closed my eyes enjoying it. He gave me peace through his touch. “How are you doing?”

“I'm hungry,” I said honestly. She smiles.

“And I've prepared food for you.” He stands. I nodded as he helped me to sit down. Then I felt pain in my stomach and back, reminding me of my baby who had left. “Sayang?”

“I'm fine.” I sit leaning. Hendra brought a small table closer so I could eat. My hands were shaking, but I wanted to eat by myself. The chicken porridge is good. “Fahri.”

“Iya, darling. It's Fahri.” cuisine He rubbed my back. “Eat. He will also cook lunch for you.”

“I want to go home.” I looked at him with a pity.

“After the doctor checks your condition and you are declared to be outpatient, we will return to the apartment.” She smiles. I shook my head slowly.

“No. I'm going home.” I made clear my point.

When the tears fell, I did not stop my mouth from chewing food. Nor did I stop my hand from spooning the porridge into my mouth. I ignored the pain all over my body especially on my left chest.

“Sayang.” Hendra sat on the edge of the bed and my fortress collapsed. I cried calling a baby I hadn't even had time to name. Oh, dearGod. So hurt.

I managed to finish off that porridge. Hendra helped wipe away the tears on my face. I helped wipe away the tears on her face. I put my head on his chest, then hugged his body tightly. It's not just me who's grieving, he's also.

Friends arrived shortly afterwards. We cry together. I was tired but I couldn't stop the flow of my own tears. The next ones are Mom and Dad. They hugged me in turn. I apologize for giving them bad news. We went back to crying together.

The doctor gave me the only happy news today. I was allowed to go home. I was asked to rest and re-examine myself if there were any complaints. He also gave me a list of things I could do and things I shouldn't do for the next three months. Friends laugh when doctors refer to sex as forbidden.

I was looking for my husband when for a while I only saw my parents and best friends. He rushed over and told her that he was taking care of the hospital administration. I hugged her and didn't let her get away from me.

“Remember age, Ara. You are no longer a child,” seductive Mama. I ignored him and kept hugging my husband. Friends laughing. Lindsey translated Mama's words to Claudia so she could follow our conversation.

“How is he not spoiled, Auntie? Every time we met, Hendra always called just asking if he had eaten or we treated him well.” Qiana looked at me meaningfully. Friends laugh again.

“Already, already. You guys don't keep attacking my wife,” hurt my husband. I stick my tongue out at them all hearing his defense. They laugh back. “Come, we go home.”

Hendra kept his word. We're going home. There were still so many reporters crowding our house, but they did not force their way in when the gate opened. Friends got out of their car first, then they swarmed over me and Hendra so no one could take pictures of us both.

“Mama! Mama!” My little girl ran to welcome me home followed by a puppy's salute. Papa immediately carried her and brought her closer to me. I kissed her cheek half-pinched it with my lips. He laughed amusedly.

“Papa and Mama to the room, Dira playing with Grandpa and Grandma, yes,” said Hendra.

“No. We sit in the family room. I don't want to sleep.” I-i refused. Hendra seemed to want to express his objection, but he chose to comply and we gathered together in the room. Yuyun immediately came to serve us some snacks and warm drinks.

It seemed like my daughter realized something had happened to me, but Hendra refused her request to sit on my lap. After being persuaded, he wanted to sit with his papa with my hands wrapped around his body.

“I've contacted the hotel and the flight to postpone our holiday trip. We'll leave after you're better, Zahara.” Lindsey touched my hand.

“You can go without me. Didn't Claudia already buy a ticket back to America?” my words are not good. We have been planning this trip for a long time.

“Ticket is not a problem. I can reschedule our return. Your health is much more important. For a while, we could take a walk around this city.” Claudia looked towards her husband. Mason agreed.

I felt calm receiving all of their attention. I also felt calm to be back home again. Although both of them are our residences, I am more used to being in this house. For almost twelve years I have only known this house as my refuge.

The atmosphere around me is so calm. The voices of friends who were joking were no longer heard. I opened my eyes and found myself lying in bed. I tried to sit down, but the pain made me complain.

“Hendra,” call me. Silent. “Hendra!” I raised my voice. There is still no lawfulness. There was no water in the bathroom. Where the hell is he? I got out of bed and checked the bathroom, then the clothes room. Blank.

My heart started beating fast. No. gabe. Hendra couldn't have left me. He can't leave me. “Hendraa!!” I immediately ran out of the room.