Dear, Soul!!

Work world..

Time will keep turning. The world will not care about your feelings and will continue as it should. Those of us who have been hurt, sad, laughed and happy in the end will only be part of our own memory, the world will not care about that.

No matter how far we try to survive, there will be a time when we have to feel the name give up. But all back to each other, you want to give up forever or give up just to take a break from your wounds and go back to fighting to continue your life.

All the feelings you feel today are the result of your choices from a while ago. We have a choice, and it will determine your destiny in the future.

I struggled through my teenage years, I was crying, hurt, laughing and happy all had happened to me. Sometimes there are times when I have a deep dilemma, wanting to choose but not being able to sacrifice anything else, that is proof of my greed as a human being.

I am that teenager, who is worried and full of selfishness. I can't say that I'm much better now than I was, just that I'm trying to be better and wish that I was different from what I was.

My teenage years that I passed like most other teenagers, playing with love and feelings that create a melancholy drama that seemed to force the player to behave in accordance with what the world wants. Sacrificing two other people's feelings just to keep my own, which in the end none of them were by my side right now. I am an example of greed and selfishness, it has become a lesson for me so that in the future it can be more assertive to take action.

Time passed, I had transformed from a selfish teenage girl into a half-grown woman who was more able to control emotions, feelings and selfishness. Lessons from experience and lessons from the theories I have realized in my life now. In the world that I was in, I was taught to be more able to control emotions, cover personal feelings and be as professional as possible in showing facial expressions, well because the world of health care needs me who always looks good in front of patients.

I've been through my tough college days, where my body lost weight and made my endurance impaired. I was often sprawled because of the urgency of my task that forced me to finish, often forgetting to eat and sometimes thinking about giving up. But once again I rose up, "I have been through many wounds in this world, I must show him that I am not easily paralyzed by this kind of pressure. Well I was in trouble to enjoy a good life in the future. My hard story today will be a funny one when I succeed". In addition to such motivating thoughts, the spirit of my parents, and closest friends also greatly encouraged my spirit to return to fight also about the future I want with the people I hope to be today.

There was a time when I made Fauzi my motivation, I should be able to do better now because I hope Fauzi will come back to me one day and I shouldn't look bad then. I should be able to balance Fauzi out later.

I completed three years of my diplomatic education and continued my education for one and a half years to earn my bachelor's degree. Like not satisfied or maybe already addicted to my education that I began to feel the pleasure, I continued my education to get my Pharmacist profession degree. Honestly, I still have the intention to continue my education to get a master's degree or at least pursue one of the special fields of Pharmacy but I choose to take a break and start the world of work. I need work experience to make it easier for me to continue my education later.

"Wa, can you please replace me at PIO (Drug Information Service) first? I'm gonna go out for a second.."

"Oh okay.." I who was busy working on the Formularium had to get up from the computer.

I returned to Mamuju and started working at one of the hospitals in my area. I've been working here for about half a year, living my days as a public health worker.

I chose to go back, I can work while accompanying Mom at home. It's enough time that I spent in college to leave Mom at home, I don't want to spend any more time in people's areas and leave Mom alone.

"Is anyone ready?" I asked the TTK brothers who were busy giving etiquette to outpatient medicine.

"It's brother.." He answered while giving me some medicine along with the prescription.

The name is also a service, there are many problems that I face, ranging from patients who feel more understanding of the drug according to their experience than us or patients who are in a hurry to take the drug even though it is not appropriate for their drinking time. But compared to that, I was often troubled when I met a native patient inland where he did not really understand my explanation using Indonesian.

"De'uwissengi nak, ma ogi bawanni" complained patient *Bugis*

I who is not originally from this area do not understand the language of the people around here and also can not provide services using the language of the region as the patient wants. Sometimes I have to find a friend with the same tribe as the patient to help me in providing an explanation of the drug. But no matter how difficult it is, I still enjoy my profession.

"Look, this patient was born in 2001 and his prescription was from poly obgyn, a drug that reinforces the content. His name is already Mrs.. " Izki cried one of the TTK in charge of etiquette on the drug.

"Elah, children now are not surprised if they are a dozen years old but already want to be born" replied Izka ketus.

"Yes, but he's still too easy for a baby.."

"Yes why? if it's time he wants to be born, say if you are the 90s jealous because it has not been married until now, how would you marry if your boyfriend does not have" Sindir Izka is still focused on her work.

The twins I first met while working here often argue only because of trivial problems, but it has also become my entertainment while working at least my fatigue can be slightly resolved. Their faces are really similar but their nature is very different.

"Have you not argued, the recipe is finished yet?" I asked while breaking them up.

I handed the medicine to the patient while explaining in polite language and easy to understand by the patient also did not forget a sweet smile so that the patient could be more comfortable. Some say, the smile of a Pharmacy is also part of the drug that can cure patients.. Eaaa. :D.

"Why ask that?"

"Hehehe no, I just kepo aja kak. Brother have a girlfriend?"

I shook my head while smiling.

"Why? You're beautiful, and work is good too.." Ask Izki.

"I'm sure there must be many who ngekatin brother" Chirap Izka.

"Haha Izka deh.." Answer me while laughing.

"Now, I've been writhing my sister refused a nurse from the ICU.."

"Eh??" I was surprised why this boy saw me at that time.

"So why aren't you dating?" Izki asked repeatedly.

"The soul mate has arranged Izki, even though I am dating now if he is not my soul mate will also break up again, so yes it's better I alone first until the soul mate comes. Different from the same who already has a girlfriend especially who dated for a long time, they no longer wait for his soul mate to come but fight for the person who is with him now"

"Are you waiting for someone?" Izka asked with a deep look in her eyes

"meaning?"

"His brother speaks like someone who is waiting for someone so no longer want to date"

I'm speechless.

"Hehehe ngasal aja.. If there is no prescription enter you see the rest of the stock of gih drugs, ampra whose stock remains a little" I said to divert the discussion.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't waiting for someone, because in reality today I'm still alone and refuse anyone else to come into my life it's because I'm waiting. Waiting for him who I still hope will come pick me up as his rib.

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Like the time that answered my wait, but the one I'm waiting for now seems no longer the one I can have because of him that others have.

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Next.. Fauzi gaess's comeback...