Dear, Soul!!

Explanation or Reason?

"OZII........"

Hoshh hosshh hufft...

My breath gasping, what dream did I just have? why so bad.

I fell asleep after crying earlier, probably due to the fatigue of crying I was unconscious and fell asleep. Maybe also because my condition is not good at this time because of the rain last night plus I had less sleep last night. My eyes feel so swollen, if I were a mermaid maybe I could have bought a whole lot of housing in Meikarta so much money that I have the results of my tears turned into pearls. But because in reality I am just an ordinary woman, the result I get from crying for too long is swollen eyes, a stuffy nose and an unconditioned face.

I rubbed my eyes, once in a while the memory of a dream just crossed my mind. Well, maybe this is the pamali that my mother always called when I fell asleep in the morning, I finally had a nightmare.

"Son.. Salwaa..."

Looks like someone called me downstairs.

I rushed downstairs, from her voice it seemed like Aunt beside the house was calling.

"Salwa's son is home??"

"Iya Bi there is.. Just sec.." My answer.

I sped up my steps, but before I went to the bathroom I used to wipe my face which was no longer because of how it looked.

"What's Bi?" Ask me to open the door.

"That's kid.he's your friend, right? Aunty used to see him sitting on the porch with your father"

I'm turning.

"Pha.. Fauzi... She why Bi?" I said to Fauzi who fell unconscious.

"I don't know son.. Aunty asked him what happened, he said he said he was waiting for you Auntie thought you were no longer at home so he was waiting for you outside. Aunty took her next door saying just wait here.."

"Why is this so Bi?"

"That Aunt didn't know, either, son, just passed out, her aunt planned to call your sister next door to bring her home first, then, but Aunt heard you yell from the inside so Auntie just call you.."

Ah, I must have cried when I dreamt earlier

"So how's this, son? want to be brought in first? Then Auntie call your sister to help lift"

"The song is alone at Bi's house"

"Ah yes.. Aunty forgot that your father and mother were not home.Jasalah take it next time first"

"No need Bi, it looks like she needs to be taken to the hospital as well, afraid there's nothing"

"Well, Auntie call your sister a minute to take you to the hospital"

"Still Bi.. Sorry to be a hassle.."

"Ah Nak Salwa do not hesitate, Aunt is also your parents Nak. yasudah Aunt next time" he said as he passed.

"Fauzii. heyy wake up.."

There was no response from Fauzi.

Is this the result of my nightmare?

***

It had been half an hour since Fauzi arrived at the nearest Hospital Emergency Unit but Fauzi had not yet regained consciousness. Doctors who examined him said that Fauzi fatigue, lack of sleep and a little stress, prescription drugs from the doctor only in the form of several Multivitamins and Minerals and drugs endurance. The doctor said that Fauzi's stress level was not so severe that he did not prescribe any specific medication for it and only suggested that Fauzi reduce his activities even if Fauzi could have a full rest to restore his health also avoid things that can make it stressful. Fauzi got intravenous fluids and some injection drugs to make his condition improve faster.

I sat quietly beside Fauzi while looking at her. To be honest I'm still angry and hurt, I still don't want to see Fauzi let alone sit next to him like this, but I also can't bear to leave him with this condition, on the other hand, my feelings towards him which for 2 years have not been easily lost even though he has hurt my feelings. It's just that I really couldn't cast Fauzi's shadow while being with that woman. I'm kind of haunted by the memory of me seeing Fauzi back then.

"Sa.. Salwaa..."

Whether this is delirious or what the name is that I don't know, which is obviously in an unconscious state Fauzi keeps calling me.

The doctor who was handling it came with the nurse to check it out after I called.

"How's Doc doing?"

"She's fine, it's only possible that someone named Salwa has something to do with her current stress level, if it's possible that sister could call Salwa here to see her.."

"Sorry, here's the caretaker of the patient on Salwa's behalf.." Obviously the nurse with medical and administrative records and medical records Fauzi's.

"Oh, good then, please little brother accompany him first. chances are he fainted from exhaustion and it looks like he is in need of you now"

"Yes doc.."

"I'll excuse you then.." The doctor said as he passed with a little run when another ambulance arrived, perhaps a new patient he had to deal with. I just responded with a smile.

I sat back down, looking back at Fauzi who was still unconscious.

Do I need to call her parents? But if her parents ask her why she's here, what do I answer? if I honestly could I?? Arghhhh wait a moment, if I am not aware of myself I will also call.

I put my head next to Fauzi who was lying down.

"I'm tired too..." I said with a long breath.

"Salvana..."

I felt a touch in my head. I'm terabngun

"Sorry to trouble you.." Said Fauzi who had regained consciousness.

"It's okay, call Om or Aunt to accompany you here, I'm going home.."

"Can't I stay here for a minute?"

"I want to go home..."

"Please, just keep me for a minute, I don't want my parents to worry"

"I also need a break.."

"Salvana.." Fauzi held my hand. "It's not all what you think.. I'm with him nothing"

"Udahlah Fauzi. I don't need your excuse anymore.."

"This is no excuse, I.."

"Please get better soon, because I want to go home"

"Salwa, you will constantly misunderstand me if you do not want to listen to my explanation"

"I don't need your explanation Fauzi, I've seen it all"

"But he's not.."

"Yes, let's just say he's not your affair.. Then why wear her hair show? do you think all women can get their hair stroked? There is no reason that makes the woman willing to hold her head if you do not have a special relationship. Normally women wouldn't want to be like that Fauzi.."

"I didn't make her hair look like that..."

"Hehhh very funny.. Do you think my eyes are not good?"

"Salvana..."

"Here you go, the more you're clear the more I'm sick. You lie to me.."

"I'm..."

"Udah.budah again your infusion liquid runs out and you are aware so you can come out, the medicine I have redeemed to the Pharmacy earlier.. I'm gonna take a little break so don't talk to me.." I said and put my head back.

Fauzi was silent. My tears trickled, I did not until my heart was as rude as it is now to Fauzi in such a state, but I also could not accept Fauzi's betrayal that really hurt my feelings. Slowly my tears also dripped, I never thought we would be in this position.

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Friends, Let's momentarily silence Cipta for the death of the Son of Pride of Indonesia Mr. Bachruddin Jusuf Habibie, May God Almighty God give the best place for Him.. The fruit of his good hand for Indonesia may always be awake for us the children of the successor of the Indonesian nation..