Dear, Soul!!

Is it really worrying??

Like a typical night if there's no errands. I will be engrossed with my computer staring at a screen filled with the faces of Korean artists that I often call oppa. Fangirl or more commonly referred to as ngeHalu.. Imagining my idol with all my obscure imagination.

"Ah.. Who allowed you guys to be born handsome like this anyway??" *A very weightless question is gaess*

"Of course you're handsome like this because of your beautiful mother-in-law right?"

*Thou Salwa the Fangirl who is lacking in micin intake, who do you call the mother-in-law?*

I became a grinning smile even though my eyes were still a little damp because I could continue the incomplete crying earlier when Farhan was in the park.

"Darling.."

Fauzi's message took my eyes off the computer screen.

Kuraih Handphone.

"Yes why?" reply me to his chat message.

"Your daily training, until the number is not activated?" reply again.

"Yes.." Said lying.

Before Farhan drove me home this afternoon, I told Farhan not to tell him I was coming to see the game. I don't want Fauzi to feel guilty about it.

Yes, even though I thought about Fauzi's feelings of not feeling guilty, I was a little upset.

"I'm the nelfon, can you?"

I haven't been able to reply..

My phone's been ringing an incoming call from Fauzi.

"I'm not interrupting your break, am I, baby?" Ask from across the phone.

"Sir, why?" Answer me

"Why not? I just miss you.."

"Ohiya.." Answer's short.

"Why you?" hearing my short answer made him ask.

"I why?" Ask me back

"You mad?"

"I? Getting angry? Why?"

"Oh no yes.. Yes, dear papa"

I heard her voice was a little good.

"Udahan ya.." I said in a slightly complaining tone

"Now, I'm still missing. You also have no news dear"

"I'm practicing Fauzi, besides you're busy taking photos, I never bother you"

"I'm bothering you?"

"No, yes.. I'm sleepy.."

"Oh yes, you must be tired.. Sorry to bother you, baby.. Congratulations Istrahat" he said attentively.

"Yes.." I said disconnect the phone.

I don't know why I got upset, I know it wasn't Fauzi's fault, Fauzi tried to tell me, but I got in Fauzi's way.

Ah I became upset myself, either upset with Fauzi or upset with myself.

I threw my phone in the bag. I went back to my computer. Look at the screen and start looking at photos, videos and things that can make my mood improve again.

A few moments' lapse.

Tinctongg 🎶🎶

Incoming message notifications..

Kuraih is back on my phone, there's a message from Farhan.

"Aren't you papa?" Ask..

"What kind of father?" Asking back.

"I'm on the phone.."

"Yes.."

Incoming call from Farhan.

"Ah I'm sorry if I'm interrupting your break"

"No papa brother.. Why sis?"

"You're okay, right?"

"Yes, I'm fine, why?" I asked "Oh, about this afternoon? I'm better off" I said at once I understood what Farhan meant.

"So Fauzi nelfon me"

"Fauzi nelfon sister? Why?"

"She said you were weird?"

"What weird? Just ordinary feelings"

"I don't know, he just said again kangen with you, but he said you were weird.."

"Oh that, I'm just a soy sauce kok kak"

"Oh that.. Come to think of it, it's not you who's weird right now, but Fauzi.."

"Bright.. How can?"

"yes yes.. He said he misses his girlfriend, but the phone is me.. Strange as it may seem, my relationship with Fauzi is not normal.. Haha"

"Haha.. Yes yes." I said, laughing.

"So afraid of Fauzi, yes, the time I was the impingement of Fauzi's miss.. Haha, the effect is evil..."

"Haha, why are you?"

"Ah, now what's weird I'm becoming.. Yes, no, so join Fauzi's kangennya"

"Haha, you're not afraid that Fauzi really has a crush on you"

"Aren't you the one who should be afraid?"

"Kok me?"

"Well, if Fauzi has a crush on me, chances are you'll be cheated on, right? Remember yes, I'm the same class as Fauzi, the same eye lyrics Fauzi is a very possible thing, and people will not be suspicious"

"Hahaha, sincerely I'm brother.. Really sincere even if Fauzi is the same as big brother" I said with a broken laugh.

"Haha.. If I were you would be very hurt.. My girlfriend is not the same as a girl, even a real guy.. Haha all this time he's been wondering what you're trying?"

"Haha yes.. How I'm so horrified to horrify him.."

"That's why don't you imagine"

"Udah was imagined kak, haha"

"haha.. Ouch so the continuity of the story, the intention just want it you are okay, not even the continuity.. Yaudah rest gih, sorry yes I'm so disturbing your break time"

"No papa brother.. Thank you, brother, for making me laugh"

"Yaudah, good rest Salwa.."

"Engg... Sis.." I said interject.

"Heem huh? Why?"

"I was wrong?"

"Wrongly? Wrong why?"

"I know today was not Fauzi's fault.. But I'm constantly upset about Fauzi"

"So that's why you didn't respond to Fauzi?"

"Yes, innards I've always been upset with Fauzi"

"Hmmm... I understand, you're not wrong if you feel upset Fauzi, actually it's not your annoyance either, it's your disappointment because your expectations are not appropriate?"

"Expectation?"

"Yes, you already think Fauzi will be surprised and happy because you want to come, but in fact it is not like that. It's just your disappointment Salwa"

"She may be that, brother.."

"that's not the wrong thing, but actually what you did to Fauzi was wrong"

"Hem?"

"You didn't tell Fauzi about today's events, Fauzi who doesn't know anything but you made it your place of disappointment. Fauzi was really worried about Salwa, I could've taken it when she called me"

"So how am I supposed to be, brother?"

"Yes you're sorry about Fauzi"

"But I don't want to tell you about it this afternoon"

"No need to say, you can apologize for the angry pretexts because of the soy sauce, Fauzi must know really well"

"That's yaa"

"There call Fauzi.. Let's worry he can say"

"Yes.. Thank you, brother.. I'm sorry you had to hear my curses"

"Hmmm.. I told Salwa, you can tell me anything. Don't hesitate"

"Yes, thanks brother"

"Well, I'm dead on the phone, apologize quickly"

"Yes.."

The phone with Farhan was cut off.

That's what Farhan said. I shouldn't be upset with Fauzi, I chose not to tell Fauzi about what happened this afternoon, Fauzi explained, puzzled by my attitude.

I tried to call Fauzi, I have to apologize about my treatment. I've been completely outrageous.

There was no response from Fauzi. I tried to call him back but still no answer.

Occasionally I tried to contact Fauzi but the results remained the same as none of my calls were answered.

"She's worried about me, but this is my phone why is it being taken?" I thought I was getting upset again.

I kept trying to reach Fauzi, I don't know how many missed calls I had on Fauzi's phone. Until I finally started giving up.

"Am I calling Farhan again?" my thinking..

"Ah no no, I'll bother you when Farhan" immediately my intention to call Farhan changed.

I called Fauzi again, but again and again there was no answer from Fauzi.

"It's over." I said give up and put down my phone.

"May tomorrow be better" I hope