Dear, Soul!!

Prejudice..

As the day went on, the sun increasingly changed its color to sharp which was blinding now slowly becoming fainter but sharper with the color of the person.

I sat in the garden chair with Fauzi while enjoying the cotton sugar that disappeared immediately after touching the taster.

"No, it doesn't feel yes.." Fauzi said while enjoying his cotton sugar.

"Hem? What's?" I asked to turn to see him.

Fauzi turned around.

"Time to.." He replied smiling as he cleaned the remnants of the cotton sugar that was stuck at the tip of my lips.

"What time?"

"Yes the time of High School dear.do not think I am no longer a student now.."

"How strong.." I said leaning on "Especially fitting you again in the exam period, it was really time. It feels like a day is a long time. I didn't go to school and there's no one you can talk to me or walk around because it's busy with your exams.."

"Later when the time comes you will also menggerasain, the time that you think is long will turn to be short once you test later.."

"Yes maybe.."

"Salvah.."

"Hmm??"

"I'm bad, right?"

"What evil?" I'm confused.

"So I was upset with Farhan.. I know Farhan was just kidding and I shouldn't have thought about it.."

"About??" I asked to clarify what Fauzi meant. I know that maybe what Fauzi meant was Farhan's words because Fauzi clearly felt uncomfortable. But I don't want to guess, it's better if I ask to be clearer.

"He likes you.." Fauzi lowered his tone while bowed.

Ah, that really got him thinking.

I grabbed Fauzi and hugged him.

"Don't think about it, Farhan's just kidding.."

"Yes I know, I feel guilty thinking like this.."

My guilt grew even more when I heard Fauazi say that.

"Honey.. Whatever people like you, don't want it.." He said take off my arms and look at me.

I'm just smiling.

"Look.. No matter how much others like you will not be able to exceed my love for you.."

I just nodded. I don't know what would happen if one day Fauzi found out about me and Farhan. I just wish I could finish my relationship with Farhan before Fauzi finds out.

Fauzi smile.

"I will strive to succeed faster, to get established sooner so that I can have your parents' responsibilities transferred to me.." Fauzi said smilingly.

I'm just smiling.

"How are you going to college?"

"As you know I'm graduating, it's likely that tomorrow's not the day after I leave.."

"So fast??" Ask surprised.

"Yes, I have a lot of things to do there before I go to college, I have to prepare a place to live and all my needs while there"

I looked at him, I started not being able to control my feelings..

"Hey.don't put on an expression so dear"

"I don't want Ozi to be far away.."

"I will be diligent to go home, every weekend I will definitely go home because the distance is also not too far, just if you want to go home every day I can not.."

"Really huh?"

"Yes.." He said while embracing me put my head on his shoulders. "As long as I can't get you anywhere, you don't go with just anyone, don't like the way out if there's no important business, take care of your health and don't forget to always ngabarin me.. I'll always try to go home to see my father's mother and you.." Said smiling.

"Yes.." Reply smile.

"Darling.."

"Hem??"

"I'm sorry, but I.."

"What?" I was confused to see Fauzi hesitating to continue his words.

"I know it's wrong, I know it's my selfish form, but after a thought it's gonna weigh me down if I don't talk to you.."

Fauzi turned around, and grabbed my hand. "I know who Farhan is and I know there won't be anything between you, sorry baby, not that I don't believe you but not if now you don't play Farhan too often.." Fauzi was silent for a moment "Ah, I why the hell be like gini, why should I think of the same things that are not important like this.." Further.

"You're still thinking about what Farhan said?"

Fauzi.

"Don't think too much, you'll soon be entering college with the same focus as the lecture.." I said I was trying to calm her down while I was in a state of unease right now.

"I know Farhan, I know what Farhan is. The way I talk and see you like that is not someone who is just joking, I feel Farhan as serious with his words.."

"You may be your feelings.."

"Yes, hopefully.. I also don't want to suspect Farhan, I trust you both.." Fauzi looked at me and smiled.

I feel so guilty hearing Fauzi say that. He trusted me and Farhan so much, but what Farhan and I had done to him. I can't imagine what her surprise and feelings will be like when she finds out the truth.

"I'm sorry Ozi.."

"Hem.. It's late afternoon, let's go home.."

I just nodded..

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I accidentally didn't activate my phone while walking around with Fauzi earlier. After I told Mom and Dad that I was late coming home because of the road with Fauzi first. For some reason lately Farhan is a little different, he is more aggressive and can not control himself maybe because of the stress of the Exam. Like earlier, Farhan was outspoken in front of Fauzi when before Farhan was very good at hiding everything.

I turned on my phone, I knew there would be several consecutive messages coming in from Farhan.

"Where are you?"

"Not come home yet?"

"It's a long time?"

"Why is the number not active?"

"Sorry:("

"Call me when you're home"

As I thought, this isn't the first time Farhan has been like this, every time I'm the same Fauzi Farhan will send messages in a row.

"I'm home.." The text message I sent a reply from her text message earlier.

A few minutes later, my phone rang an incoming call from Farhan.

"I'm sorry.." The first sentence Farhan said after I answered his phone

"What?"

"The problem was, I knew I was wrong to say it was not clear like that in front of Fauzi.."

"Fauzi had a thought and now Fauzi is asking me not to get too close to my sister.."

"So you want to get away from me? I don't want Salwa.. I'm not gonna be like that anymore.."

"Yes, brother will not be like that anymore, because tomorrow Fauzi has set out the possibility of us meeting three is rare.."

"So soon, isn't the lecture going to start next month?"

"Yes, but Fauzi has to prepare for all his needs there, you also know this is the first time Fauzi lives alone.."

"So Fauzi's gonna live there?"

"Yes.."

"So your relationship with Fauzi?"

"Yes we are LDRan until Fauzi finishes college or until I finish and continue on the same campus as Fauzi"

"Are you sure you can LDRan?"

"Kok her sister just like that?"

"Ah no. I'm just a doang.."

"I'm the same Fauzi has spent a lot of time together, the problems we have passed even the worst yesterday we can go through. If it's just an LDR problem I'm sure, I'm the same Fauzi can do it anyway. Fauzi will come home every week.."

"Kok nyesek ya ngedenger own girlfriend as sure as with his other girlfriend.. But I will also try to make you as sure as it is also the same I someday.."

"Just as big brother.."

I don't know where Farhan's spirit came from. Sometimes I intentionally make him sick to give up on later but as a result until now instead of giving up Farhan even more excited.