Dear, Soul!!

The 25 Review

Doubtfully Fauzi walked over to Farhan and Salwa, trying to prepare her feelings for what she would see later, her heartbeat rumbling and her feelings being in a tussle with her own mind. There is a desire to just turn around and do not have to see what is happening there now, but on the other hand there is a sense that is very encouraging to know what is really happening behind him so far. For quite a while Fauzi hesitated with his steps until he finally decided to solidify his pace. "Whatever I see later, it will be the determinant of my relationship with Salwa.." Fauzi thought as he accelerated his pace.

JEFFBBB... The heart that he had prepared earlier seemed to be of no use because in the end still the rumbling of his feelings filled the space in his heart made it cramped and sick that could not be described. Like a sharp sting that hit his heart, right before his eyes he saw his lover being embraced by his own best friend. "Are you guys showing me your relationship right now???"

The flower that had been below to be given to his heart fell just like that on the floor, the petals of the flower fell scattered on the floor as if to describe how Fauzi felt at this time. Slowly his tears began to pool in his eyes.

"Fa Fauzi's..." Salwa could not hide her surprised expression looking at Fauzi who was standing pecking. "Why put on such an expression? Are you surprised that you've been caught off guard by me??"

Slowly Fauzi turned his eyes. "Ma.. Sorry.." Even to just breathe as usual Fauzi found it difficult. "Sorry to interrupt.." Fauzi said then turned his back to Salwa and Farhan who were still shocked by his presence earlier.

"Milk..." Salwa.

"Sorry for bothering you" Fauzi still tried to smile.

"Ga no.. Mom's not like that.."

Fauzi took the flowers that had fallen on the floor, some of the petals were crushed and messy, some even flew in the wind." This is for you, congratulations on finishing your last exam.." Fauzi sighed and again tried to take a breath that somehow felt very tight. "Ah sorry, I accidentally dropped it so slightly damaged.." Fauzi said he could not look up at Salwa.

"Milk..."

"I'll go home first.." Fauzi turned his head and saw Farhan standing in his place. "Han, I'm home first.." Said Fauzi turning around and stepping away

"Fa Fauzi's..."

Salwa's call was ignored by Fauzi just like that, Fauzi could no longer see Salwa and just continued to walk and even accelerate his steps away from Farhan and Salwa.

Fauzi's car is speeding up, his raging feelings and emotions make him unaware of his car's increasingly high speed. Occasionally Fauzi slammed the steering wheel venting all that was accommodated in her feelings.

"Why should I continue my steps earlier, why can't I hold back, why should I come today. Ah no, why should I see all this.. Whywhataa????" Kecam Fauzi's.

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Fauzi lay on the green grass staring at the sky and the clouds moving in battle, slowly his tears dripping. Salwa's shadow occasionally flashed through his mind.

"Have I been wrong all this time?? After I gave Salwa a choice on my answer that night, I thought Salwa chose me, but it wasn't me.." Fauzi thought as he closed his eyes.

Fauzi felt how the scorching sun roamed his face with its light and heat. Fauzi let his face be burned by the scorching sun, but the heat was nothing compared to the heat of his heart at the moment.

Fauzi's phone rang, one call from Salwa but Fauzi just ignored it. Let alone to see Salwa, hearing her voice had hurt Fauzi greatly.

For how long and how many missed calls from Salwa on Fauzi's phone, there were about dozens of short messages from Salwa that he ignored as well. Fauzi doesn't care about everything.

Fauzi fell back down, slowly calmed down and lay back down. The emotions that had exploded had slowly subsided.

Fauzi's phone rang again, Salwa kept calling him and finally Fauzi picked him up and put his phone next to him.

"Oze.. Where are you????" Salwa asked from across the phone.

Fauzi fell silent, not answering Salwa's question.

"Ozi where are you??? I asked where are you now???" Salwa asked with her severed breath.

"Why??" Ask Fauzi in a flat tone.

"Where are you now??? Salwa's repeated questions.

"Ah me??" Fauzi raised his head and looked at the blue sky decorated with several white clouds "Ah I'm still here.." Further.

"This is where Fauzi is??"

"For what to know??" Fauzi's tears that had dried up had slowly trickled down again even though his expression was flat.

"I'll be there..."

"Not to be here is fun alone.." Fauzi said a small smile gave her spirit to herself.

"But.."

"I want to be alone Salwa, you still have other activities that you have to do.."

Salwa continued to question Fauzi's whereabouts despite Fauzi's refusal to reveal his whereabouts. Salwa is worried about Fauzi's condition while Fauzi himself needs calm at this time.

Salwa turned off her phone when she could guess where Fauzi was currently. Fauzi put his phone back together, lay staring at the sky and slowly closed his eyes.

The memory of Salwa flows as if refusing to be forgotten, Fauzi recalled how happy she was when Salwa accepted her feelings, how they went through their happy days as lovers until finally the day when everything was destroyed instantly. Fauzi's tears trickled back in remembering what had just happened that made his heart filled with a sick feeling. "Will everything be okay?" Thought Fauzi. So many questions in his head that hunt for answers while Fauzi himself does not know what to answer. "This is Salwa's choice, and I have to accept it. Well, this relationship ends today.." Fauzi said smiling with his tears still flowing. The smile she gave was gone and... Hixss.. Fauzi could no longer pretend to be firm, his tears spilling along with the outbreak of his cries. Is it funny a man cries because of a woman he loves????.

The wind around the grass was quite strong, making Fauzi's tears dry without leaving a trace. His eyes were closed as if he refused to see what would happen after today. Well, everything has to end because nothing else can be sustained.

"Ozzy....." Call Salwa as she runs towards the reclining Fauzi.

"What are you doing here??" Fauzi asked slowly opening her eyes.

Salwa tries to explain everything from their misunderstanding to Salwa's desire to stay with Fauzi. Fauzi just kept ignoring Salwa's apology and ignoring whatever Salwa said, but Salwa still apologized and continued to try to explain everything until Fauzi arrived who could no longer endure the pain and anger. Fauzi told Salwa everything, what he saw in the hospital and how he tried to give Salwa a picture. All the frustration, emotion and anger Fauzi let out, Fauzi could not hold it anymore. Even so Salwa did not stop to keep trying to explain everything to Fauzi.