Dear, Soul!!

All of a sudden..

I arrived home, changed my clothes with more comfortable clothes. I grabbed my phone to notify Fauzi, he'll be worried because of his missed call. A message from Fauzi.

"Where are you?"

I called him right away.

"Where are you?" Fauzi asked after my phone was connected.

"I'm home"

"So?"

"Yes I'm at home, I'm under the story with Mom and my phone is charging.." I said I was lying, I wasn't ready to tell Fauzi the truth.

"Oh yeah, I'm worried because you're not picking up my phone"

"I'm fine.."

"Thank God.."

"A I want to say something" I'm actually hesitant to say it, but I think it's a good thing so I need to get it across quickly.

"What?"

"So Brother Farhan apologizes to you"

"My same?"

"So you met him?"

"G gakk.. Farhan sent me a message" I said a little stammering.

"Why not send the message to me?"

"Say he didn't dare"

"Why should it be like that. I'm his friend, it shouldn't have to be like this"

Sure enough, Fauzi was mature and still saw Farhan as his friend.

"I don't know either.."

"Yes, let me call him later.."

"Aren't you angry with Farhan?"

"You get angry is also useless, it will only magnify the problem"

"Then why am I angry?"

"I don't know, maybe because I've prepared your future for you.."

I was silent to Fauzi's reply. Every time this is discussed, every time I feel guilty.

"Salwa, if there's anything just tell me.."

"Something what?"

"Anything, I told you that I wanted to be a good listener of all your stories and complaints"

"Ah yes, I must have told you.. Hem, what are you doing?"

"I'm on my way from buying something"

"I've already turned off the phone, you have to focus on driving.."

"You, there's nothing else you want to tell me?"

"Emh. I'll call you later tonight. Now you need to focus on driving first.."

"Key.."

"Be careful on Ozi's path.."

I ended my call.

I lay my body on the bed, looking up at the ceiling of the room with my mind out of nowhere. I've been through a lot of obstacles in my relationship with Fauzi, a lot and it feels exhausting to think about it.

My phone rang again, one call came in from Nina.

"Salvay..." Nina shouted from across the phone as I answered her call.

"May, may you.."

"Hem why?"

"Son Farhan's going out of town?"

"out of town? Where are you from?"

"So I saw Farhan's brother in the airport, well I'm samperin I wondered deh.."

"Did Farhan leave? That fast?" Thought

"You're the insoluble.Yes, if Brother Farhan wants to get out of town why?"

"Ck.. isn't that the main topic of our discussion today?"

"Continue?"

"Well, guess who Farhan is the same?"

"Oh my goodness, Nina, what am I doing, brother Farhan went the same"

"Hem. I said directly.. Brother Farhan went with the girls"

"Same chick?"

"Who is Farhan with? He didn't say about it the same as me. Ck why does he have to say the same to me, but it feels curious" I thought

"Yes.. I thought Farhan's brother was single all along. Yeah, well, she can't be willing to pick you up at school every time Fauzi asks her for help if she has a boyfriend"

Nina still doesn't know about my relationship with Farhan and until now she always thought Farhan came to see me because of Fauzi's request.

"You sure it's her boyfriend?"

"Hem. I don't know about that girl.. It's just that I'm not a girlfriend but whining to Farhan's brother"

"How whining?"

"Yes.gegandeng kak Farhan hand with manjyaahh, brother Farhan also rubbed his head gently. Heh what kind of friend is trying to do that"

"Maybe it's true that it's her boyfriend.."

"Uwu. Kak Farhan is very romantic, never brags his relationship with his girlfriend but it turns out that together can be as sweet as that.."

I fell silent, I did not know what kind of response this conversation was with Nina, my mind had also started to be unclear.

"Ck. you just shut up. Jude, I'm dead on the phone first.."

"Key.."

"See you Salwa.."

Whatisthis? Who was Farhan accompanying at the airport? I am not thinking about this because there are still feelings for Farhan or regret about the end of my relationship with him. Just why is it so fast? Why did Farhan get another woman so quickly, and again if it's true what Nina said the woman was to embrace the manjah to Farhan, it means their relationship is long enough. Then all this time me and Farhan? Is there something I don't know.

Farhan had always assured me that I was the only woman he loved, he would do the occasional reckless thing to ask me to stay by his side, so what was this? Why only a few days later, Farhan was able to open his feelings with other women? Is it that fast to forget the woman he said he loved so much? Or did he already have another woman while with me at that time.

Maybe all the guilt Farhan said this morning was just an essay, just to keep his image in front of me so that I sympathize, why it should be like that. No, it could have been just her friend and Nina just exaggerated her talk.

My thoughts revolved around my discussion with Nina earlier. Sometimes I feel betrayed remembering how Farhan treated me until I was lost for a moment, but I like to think again about Farhan's position. I ignored her for a long time, I think she needs another woman to fix her feelings. Why does something like this make me think.

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The sunlight broke through the cracks in my bedroom window, although my eyes were still closed but still felt glare.

I glanced at the wall clock hanging in the corner of my room, the time already showed at seven in the morning past a few minutes. Since I was inactive at school and just waiting for the results of the graduation exam while preparing for the University entrance exam, I was always late to get up early. At first only once twice I was late to wake up in the morning, but now late wake up is like my habit.

I fumbled over my bedside table where I put my phone down before I went to bed. Waking up in the morning checking the phone is like a routine that is not missed.

One incoming message from Fauzi, sent at three in the morning. "What did he do until three in the morning still awake?" Thought.

My eyes that had been slurred since I was half conscious from waking up immediately turned to read Fauzi's message, slowly my eyes began to glaze over.

"I've thought about it a few times and I've decided to end our relationship"

Wh why? What's the matter? Why suddenly??