Dear, Soul!!

Same day it hurt..

Bbukkp...

A colorful bouquet of flowers of some kind fell on the floor, the arrangement became damaged and some petals scattered on the floor.

"Fa Fauzi's.."

I saw Fauzi standing there, his breathing as if stifled, without a word with just a look of his eyes that were a little confused.

Farhan took off his embrace, taking a step back giving me and him some distance.

Fauzi seemed to have trouble taking a breath after a while he held his breath. Fauzi looked shocked at what he had just seen and was trying to understand what was going on right now. His gaze that had been staring back at me, he turned away. Fauzi bowed and picked up a bouquet of flowers that had fallen on the floor.

"Ma.. Sorry" said Fauzi. "Sorry to disturb.." He said then turned around to back me with Farhan.

"Repidote.." I ran after him who started to step away from me and Farhan. "Ozi-fi.." I pulled her hand "Ozi..." I managed to hold him and.. I saw his tears slowly beginning to drip. Fauzi quickly wiped it.

"O this Ozi. i.."

"Sorry for bothering you.." Fauzi said she tried to smile even though her eyes were red and teary. Seeing it like that made my heart hurt even more.

"Son.no, it's not that.."

"This is for you, congratulations on finishing the last test.." Fauzi said while giving a bouquet of flowers that had fallen earlier. "Ah sorry, I accidentally dropped it so slightly broken"

"Milk..."

"A'm.. I'll go home first.." Fauzi turned his head and saw Farhan just standing there. "Han, I'm home first.." Fauzi said passing speeding up his pace.

"Moe..." Call me.

Fauzi ignored my call just kept walking faster away from me. I was silent for a moment in my place, I was confused about what to do and what to do.

I turned to see Farhan was silent standing behind, he seemed quite surprised as well. I knew there was a burden on Farhan considering that Fauzi was his best friend and had just seen everything he had been hiding all along.

I have to go after Fauzi, I have to explain everything to Fauzi. I ran away leaving Farhan alone behind.

I set my eyes on the Fauzi around me, just got Fauzi out, but I quickly lost track of him. I grabbed my phone and called but there was no answer, I sent a message but no reply.

"Where is your fauzi?" I muttered as I kept trying to contact Fauzi.

I don't know how many missed calls I had on her phone and how many of my messages in her inbox she's ignoring right now. I kept trying to contact Fauzi while looking for him.

"Fa Fauzii's..." He finally picked up my phone.

No answer, he picked up my phone but did not answer me. She fell silent

"Oze.. You where?"

There was still no response from Fauzi, I only heard the sounds of the wind from across the phone.

"Ozi where am I asking you now?"

"Why?" Ask. The first word she said as long as my phone was connected.

"Where are you now?"

"I? ah I'm still here.."

"This is where Fauzi is.."

"What do you know?"

"I'll be there.."

"No, it feels good to be alone here.."

"But.."

"Son, where are you? I'm going to go there.."

"Don't come here, there's someone waiting for you. What's it doing here? I'm no longer the one waiting for you.."

"you mean? what the hell are you talking about Zi?"

"I don't know what I'm talking about either.."

I heard her voice becoming more and more hoarse, she might be crying right now..

"Oze.. You have to..." My words stopped hearing something from there. Ah I know where Fauzi is now.

I immediately disconnected my phone and called a taxi and headed to where Fauzi was. I heard a plane coming from across Fauzi's phone just now. I know that Fauzi is now on the ground near the airport as the plane takes off, occasionally Fauzi is there to calm his feelings.

I cast my gaze in the green grass that spread quite widely, trying to find Fauzi's whereabouts. Not long enough to walk, I saw Fauzi lying on the green grass. He let his face be devoured by the heat of the sun that began to turn yellow considering the day began to afternoon. Her tears trickled even though her facial expression was flat without showing any expression.

"Owii..." I called in a slow tone. There was no response from Fauzi. "Repidote.." I called him back.

Slowly Fauzi opened his eyes, and wiped away the rest of his tears that had not been dried by the wind.

"What are you doing here?" Ask without seeing me.

"A me. I want to clear everything up.."

"Have it, I've understood enough even if you don't explain it" Fauzi said, waking up and cleaning up some of the leaves that were attached to his hair.

"Oze... I'm sorry.."

"It's okay, sometimes we do need someone else to change the mood.."

"Mom isn't so Fauzi.."

"Salva.. I've always tried to be the best for you, but I don't think my efforts are big enough to make you feel good about me.." He said he looked at me.

"Bu isn't.. I'm the one.."

"I ran here to Salwa, I ran to the airport to book a ticket and went straight home just to surprise you and congratulate you on your finished exams. I prepared a thousand sweet words in my head that I would say while giving you flowers to complete your happiness after the test.. But.."

Fauzi paused for a moment, he wiped his tears back.

"But.. I can't express all those sweet words, I don't give you flowers in the way I planned. I'm not giving you a surprise but you... But you gave me a surprise" he explained.

"I'm sorry Ozi, I was wrong.. I'm fixing everything.."

"What I did today was not much different from that day.it was all the same, the same circumstances, the same circumstances, my heart is still broken and it's my feelings that I'm trying to master but today I can't help it anymore.."

"Ha that day??"

"Yes, the day I ran from the airport to the hospital out of concern for you but what did I meet first that day? A feeling of pain that I cannot control easily.."

"You were that day.."

"Yes, I know everything Salwa, it's just that day I was better at controlling my feelings so I could be calmer, but today I lost.. I can't hold it anymore.."

"Ozi. forgive me. Please forgive me.." My tears started to drip.

"I guess, with me giving you a chance, with me directing you with all my explanations that night, with me giving you a way out you can take whatever action you want" Clearly in a loud voice.

"I. I'm fixing it, Ozi. I'm.."

"I'm afraid of Salwa.. After saying everything that night I was afraid that you would take the action of taking me off and choosing with Farhan, but in the end I felt relieved because as long as I was there with you while being cared for you were still with me, still with me, I thought you chose me back then but I was wrong.."

"Son Ozi, I chose you and now I'm trying to fix everything"

I tried to explain everything to Fauzi, but it was very difficult to convince Fauzi.