Dear, Soul!!

The truth untold

There was no different answer than the one Fariz had been giving to the girls who expressed feelings for him. Everything was a rejection without giving the girls a chance to steal his heart. The warm and cheerful Fariz turned instantly cold if she gave a rejection answer. He was used to putting up a huge barrier wall for his feelings for the girls who came to him.

From a distance, Leon sees Fariz walking towards him. Yes, he just accompanied Fariz to the school garden, he would make the girl who wanted to express her feelings to Fariz awkward, if Leo also went there. Judging from the girl's displeased expression, Leon could already guess that Fariz again gave the same rejection as what he had been doing all along.

“Lu decline again?” Leon's question made it clear, and Fariz simply nodded in response to Leon's question. The two walked down the corridor back to the cafeteria, where Mikayla and Erika were already waiting for them.

“Gue is confused, why is there still someone shooting me, while they must know that I have rejected everything that ever shot me. Do they not think that I am not at all interested in a relationship as they want”

“If I were them, I would go ahead and shoot Lu even though I know that the others have already rejected all”

“Why?”

“Ya to make sure. Mending is pushed rather than not advancing at all, right?. All this time they didn't know what reason Lu refused them all”

Fariz took a deep breath and exhaled heavily.

“Riz.”

“Hem?”

Fariz turned to look at Leon who was walking beside him, it seemed like he was about to open a new discussion.

“The reason why I refused everything, was because of Mikayla?”

Fariz simply smiled meaningfully. He did not answer ‘iya’, nor did he answer ‘not’.

“Lu feeling to Mikayla is still the same?”

“Gak” replied Fariz in following with his head bobble. “My feelings are more real, and the bigger it feels” Fariz explained.

“Lu have said to Mikayla?”

Fariz nodded back. “Gue dare not”

“Why Riz? You want to tell me when to secretly doang kayak gini. You're gonna mess up if tomorrow there's a guy who finds Mikayla. What's the problem anyway until you don't want to tell Mikayla?”

“Mikayla it temen me from small. All this time, nothing has changed from Mikayla, not even if she has ever shown any behavior that she likes me. He never squirms me as a guy he can like”

“Riz, Lu don't be smart. We know how Mikayla feels. During this time, Lu was just wondering and drawing his own conclusions about Mikayla”'s feelings

“But right.”

“Gue fear.. I'm afraid that Mikayla will tell me if I tell her how I feel. I'm afraid Mikayla dodges and writhes me weird. I don't want my relationship with Mikayla to change if she knows I like her. I do not want Mikayla to be uncomfortable, awkward or feel bad later” Fariz explained what had been his worry so far, so far, as well as the reason he did not also express his feelings for Mikayla even though he had liked his childhood friend for a long time.

Leon was silent at Fariz's explanation. He understands Fariz's worries, but also feels sorry to see his best friend who can only harbor and hide his feelings from the woman he likes.

Fariz changed the subject with Leon and restored the atmosphere as usual before they regrouped with Mikayla and Erika.

“You really long sih” Gerutu Erika who had been hungry but did not eat because waiting for Fariz and Leon.

“Sorry sorry.” Reply Fariz. He tries to hide his feelings of grief caused by previous discussions with Leon.

“So how?” Erika asked curious about Fariz's answer.

Fariz glanced at Mikayla who was just staring at him flat from earlier.

“As usual, he refused again” Leon took over Erika's question and answered her representing Fariz.

“Ck, Lu why the hell Riz? Choose really pilh deh, yes time there is nothing bad in the heart of Lu” Gerrutu Erika.

“Gue deliberately single Ka, let the list of girls who shoot me longer” replied Fariz while joking.

“Ngaco deh” Erika said followed by laughter.

They enjoy their food in the remnants of the rest hours that exist.

“The girls love the same funny guy, so many girls who have a crush on Fariz” Erika again open the chat in the middle of those who enjoy their respective food. “Lu how is Kay?”

“What?” Mikayla asked without taking her eyes off the food she was enjoying.

“Lu likes not the same Fariz?”

“Uhukk uhukk.” Spontaneously Mikayla coughed as a result of choking after hearing a sudden question from Erika.

Fariz quickly gave Mikayla a glass of water.