Dear, Soul!!

Passed

To this day everything is the same and nothing has changed. I'm with my cowardly nature still playing with Farhan behind Fauzi. The night after I told Fauzi at length I intended to end my relationship with Farhan, hearing Fauzi's dreams and knowing how much she loved me made me feel like I really had to end my relationship with Farhan before Fauzi knew it.

But that didn't happen until now.

It's been about five months since I intended to end my relationship with Farhan, but it's all just me to this day, the Discourse that doesn't end up being a Fact. Several times I tried to convey the intention of breaking up with Farhan but always could not, as if Farhan was anticipating my conversation. Farhan always switched my conversation every time my discussion began to lead to my relationship with him always like that until finally no word breaking was thrown from me to this day.

The last five months I spent more time with Farhan than Fauzi because Fauzi was very busy learning to prepare to enroll at the University he wanted to go to. Although Fauzi was very busy but he never forgot to give me news and always took the time every night to just accompany me to sleep, it's just that sometimes I also lie at times like that. Unlike Farhan who has more for me, I occasionally go out with Farhan without Fauzi's knowledge, sometimes I ask Fauzi for permission to go out with Farhan so that he does not suspect. Yes Fauzi always felt calmer when I went out with Farhan because he thought there would be someone to take care of me, just that Fauzi's great trust was like a fortune itself for me and Farhan. Ah I'm so mean..

Today is the last day for Fauzi and Farhan and his classmates in school uniforms, yes two days ago the graduation ceremony for high school was announced through the official website of the education service and today is the day of release for those who have been declared to graduate and complete their studies in school upper middle level.

The headmaster was delivering his speech, I saw from behind the door of the hall Fauzi was standing in the third row from the front and the second row from the left of the male line. Ah this is the last time I can see my boyfriend in school uniform, soon he will be a student and certainly getting older.

Fauzi looks very serious hearing the headmaster's speech, maybe he wants to absorb his last moments as a student before finally going to hold the status as a Student.

The speech from the headmaster was finished, the line that had been neat began to fall. I walked into the hall and approached Fauzi.

"Ciee. who has given up his status as a student.." My god

"Well, I don't think I'm graduating now.."

"Take me to walk.."

"Hem.. Where are you going?"

"Well, I don't want to go home today.." I said as I wrapped my hand around Fauzi's.

"Well, I thought I'd let you know if you didn't want to go home.."

"I mean until the afternoon.."

"Hem. yaudah come on. I treat satisfied eating today.." He said while pulling me out of the hall.

I continued to curl my hand spoiledly on Fauzi's arm.

"Well, I'm going home.." Farhan asked who knew when it was behind Fauzi. Seeing Farhan I spontaneously took off my hand which had been stuck in Fauzi's arm, Fauzi saw me suddenly take off my hand he looked at me with a confused look. Slowly I grabbed Fauzi by the hand and slowly embraced him, I was afraid that Fauzi was thinking no-no. I was also confused why I reflexively took off Fauzi's hand when I saw Farhan, am I trying to keep Farhan feeling right now?

"Son, this is going the same way as Salwa.." Answer Fauzi.

"Have I not invited you? Don't you think I'm graduating but no one gives you a word?" Farhan said with occasional glances at me.

"She's fucking me again or whatever.." Thought.

"Eat him don't keep single Lu, find sono's girlfriend." mock Fauzi joked.

"Yes, how to find a girl with a hard bang, besides I like it like Salwa, how dong?" Fauzi said glancing at me.

I was surprised to hear Farhan's words, unconsciously my eyes became wide-eyed. Judging from his expression as well Fauzi was slightly surprised.

"Jaudah Lu is single, there is nothing more like Salwa there is no KW.." Answer Fauzi.

"So envious of me.."

"Well.. Lu emang should be envious anyway. yaudah I pull first.." Fauzi said to pull me.

I was more and more surprised, what Farhan thought to say like that.

"Son.. Ntar Lu really likes Salwa again.. Sono playing with others on my new night at Lu's house if you want to play with me.."

"Ck.. both are the same Lu doang where exclaimed bambang.."

"Keep what? Want me to call the boys of the same class RT complex?"

"Well, what do you want to play?"

"Yes whatever, yaudah I first find another sono for Lu to eat" said Fauzi pulled me out.

I felt a different atmosphere than the usual Fauzi. He pulled me out and didn't say a word.

"Cock rush?" My toot. I almost had trouble following Fauzi's footsteps which suddenly became faster while pulling me.

"Ah sorry, unconscious.." He said he was changing his steps to a slower pace.

"Why?" Much

Fauzi stopped her steps, she turned her head and looked at me.

"I just..." Uncompleted, Fauzi's words pulled me into his arms. "I'm not papa.." He said while tightening his embrace.

"O..Ozi, we're at school.."

"Let's go, everyone's still busy in the hall.."

"Ta but..."

"Shut up a minute.." Fauzi tightened his embrace.

I was silent, I felt his heartbeat faster than usual, I let Fauzi calm down.

"Hem.. Let's go.." He said after a while and took off his embrace from me with a smile.

"Why you?" My toot. I know there's something he feels that's stuck in his mind, maybe Farhan's words just made him think.

"No papa, I was just a bad guy just now.."

"I mean.."

"Don't talk about it, you're hungry, let's eat.." He said pull my hand.

"Yes. but.."

"Udah ayoo. after eating we play first.." He said to keep pulling my hand, I just followed.

Fauzi's bad mood quickly turned good again, but I'm also not sure if the expression he's showing right now is genuine or is it just an expression to mask his true state. I myself was quite surprised at what Farhan was thinking until he said so, obviously Fauzi was a little surprised and maybe it was still a burden of mind for Fauzi