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Flashback: Story of Faiq & Karin (9)

It has been 4 days since Faiq expressed his desire to make Karin his wife, but Karin has not yet given an answer.

Not because he was still in doubt, he only deliberately stalled time to impress thinking longer to answer Faiq's request. But from the time of four days, Faiq did not contact Karin at all to ask for answers, whereas Karin had high expectations about the possibility of Faiq who would constantly urge him to ask for answers. Although it was a little strange, but Karin tried to positive thinking. “It's possible that Faiq won't burden me or really give me a longer thought time to make a decision”

Karin's thought was a reasonableness given how Faiq seemed interested in her from the moment they first met, to Faiq asking for a second, third and so on. It's just that Karin didn't know about what caused Faiq to constantly ask her to meet.

The same thing happened again, where what Faiq did was very different from what Karin thought. Faiq did not insist on asking for an answer, not because he gave Karin some time to think, but he who has his own anxiety and anxiety so unknowingly that the time has passed four days from where when he proposed to the woman who likes the color of nude lipstick.

After expressing her intention to make Karin his wife, Faiq was again struck by other thoughts that connected this action with Sasa.

When he proposed to Karin four days ago, he was so determined to let go of Sasa and make Karin the one who would pull him out of the circle of life around Sasa. But arriving at night, he remembers Sasa again and begins to fret about what he had decided when he proposed to Karin. Dilemma enveloped him, Sasa back toying around his memory made him restless and confused.

Until he thought carefully, he finally gave everything to Karin's decision. If Karin accepts her proposal, then it means she really has to step her foot out of her past regarding Sasa, and if Karin rejects her proposal, then she will have to step down, so he decided to keep his feelings for Sasa even though he did not know, the woman he loved where he was now and how he was. Faiq is ready to prepare himself for injury, if he chooses his past and hangs on to Sasa, and when he meets later, his beloved woman is no longer alone.

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Time showed at 15:48, which meant that in a few minutes Faiq and Karin would meet as promised.

Previously, Karin sent a message to Faiq to meet this afternoon. The call for this meeting was obviously to answer Faiq's request a few days ago.

Karin was so nervous considering she was going to meet Faiq today, and would give an answer. In contrast to Faiq who looks weak due to the dilemma that attacks him mercilessly, although he already believes that Karin's answer today is the determinant for his life.

“Ha-hi.. Long time no see” Sapa Karin when Faiq approached her.

It feels so awkward, those who used to meet and greet each other comfortably, today they greet each other with nervousness. Yes, though Karin is much more nervous.

“Hai.” Faiq greeted back while taking a sitting position in front of Karin. “Sorry I'm a little late, there are some workan”

“Not a problem” replied Karin smiling.

“Have a meal message?”

Karin nodded slowly.

Both of them enjoy the menu that has been prepared, interspersed with chatter like usual, even though the atmosphere feels different.

Karin was confused to interrupt in which part to discuss the answer she would give, she waited for Faiq to ask, she said, but from Faiq's reaction it seems he has no features to discuss it.

“Faiq.”

Although hesitating, Karin finally tried to discuss the proposal. It's a little strange to think about. Usually for something like this, it's more nervous to propose, but in the case of Faiq and Karin, that's not the case.

“Hem??”

“I-it.. Application issue yesterday.”

“Iya, so how do you answer?” Faiq still showed his smile, if it could eliminate even a little bit of confusion that was sweeping Karin.

Karin did not quickly answer Faiq's question, slowly he bowed and raised his head again to look at Faiq.

“I want.” Karin replied after gathering all the courage she had.

Faiq's flat expression showed, making Karin bewildered to see it. Once again his expectations were not appropriate, which Karin had always imagined these past few days when she received Faiq's proposal was, Faiq who would be surprised and excited, but look at Faiq's current expression, as he was, it was far from what he had imagined all along.

Faiq was confused as to what to respond after Karin answered and accepted her proposal. Stripped in his memory would he be the one to step out of all the things related to Sasa, according to what he had thought before. However, there was such an insincere sense for Faiq to begin with that.

Karin's confused expression was finally captured by Faiq, causing Faiq to quickly change his expression.

“Thanks.. Thank you for accepting my application.” Faiq smiled, trying to cover up the feeling of unsettling that was happening right now.

Slowly Karin smiled. “Ah, maybe that's part of his surprised expression earlier” Karin back positive thinking.

“I'll tell my dad this good thing, and I'll talk to your dad”

Faiq did not take off the smile from his lips, trying to show that it was also the answer he wanted, although a hint of dilemma still lingered in his mind at the moment.

“Iya.” Karin smiled.

Clearly visible in Faiq's eyes, the woman who had been filled with nervousness then transformed by showing her confused expression, now became more comfortable with her expanding smile.

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Faiq sat pensively by the edge of his bed, he was still not ready to accept the fact that Karin had accepted his proposal. He was not prepared for the choices he had made for his life. He was so unable to move his feet out of everything that concerned Sasa, his desire to maintain his feelings for Sasa was still so strong and passionate, making him confused as to how now.

When he conveyed the acceptance of this proposal to his father, obviously his father would immediately talk to Karin's father and it would not take long, their wedding party would be held. Although he delayed saying this to Dad, still sooner or later they will get married. Karin could not have kept quiet when her father did not come to see Karin's father, the woman who had received his proposal must have discussed the same thing with her father.

Faiq spread his body, looking at the ceiling of his room with a bright lamp perched there.

“Sasa, should I forget you now? Do I have to start a new life and leave you in the past? I'm not ready to bury you in my memory, but right now I have no other choice either. I should how? If you were in my current position, what would you do??”

Faiq asked a question that he himself knew, it would not get an answer.

“Did I make the wrong decision?? Why am I being such a fool??”

Slowly Faiq closed his eyes with a wrinkled forehead. It felt like his mind was very difficult to digest the current state of affairs.

“Sa, I miss you. I want you to be there and calm me down now, as you often do when I'm in trouble. Sa, I really love you and miss you so much”

His tears were dripping with his eyes still closed.