Dear, Soul!!

Blatantly??

I sat down, trying to understand what I had just read. What is possible relationship between friends but call each other with such a romantic call.

I didn't want to have negative thoughts on Farhan, but there was no other thought in my head other than that Farhan was cheating on me.

Slowly my tears trickled, there was a pain that I could not describe it felt, I was like I was catching my lover cheating.

I saw Farhan from a distance walking towards me with a few bottles of drinks and snacks, I wiped my tears trying to calm down.

"Sorry for a long time, the furniture is quite a lot probably because not many sellers are open.." Farhan said while thrusting a bottle of water at me. I'm picking it.

"It's hot enough, but I think it's gonna be a little cool because we're mingling with nature.." Farhan's Comment. I just fell silent.

"Why you?" Farhan asked who saw me not responding to his words from earlier. "You sick?" Ask later. I'm shaking. "Then why?"

I raised my face to look at Farhan's confused face. "Sister, how would you respond if one day you knew your boyfriend cheated on you?"

"A.. Are you tumben nanya gini? What's up?"

"Jawab.."

"Are you trying to see Fauzi's point of view from our relationship?"

I'm shaking.

"Continue?" Confused ask.

"If one day you find me cheating, what do you think?"

"This is you cheating.. And I can take it.."

"Yes, brother can accept because of that cheating brother... I asked what if someday the brother who cheated?" I asked to look at him. Farhan shifted his eyes.

"I must be angry, upset, sad, and... Wait a minute.." Farhan did not continue his words. "You want me to imagine Fauzi's position now?" Ask.

I shook my "Son.. This has nothing to do with Fauzi.."

"Keep it.."

"Sister, you know that I really love you now.. It's not an easy thing for me to love my sister like this, I ignore my feelings for Fauzi and direct my true feelings towards her.."

"Yes I know, I'm so grateful you really love me. Then why?"

"I should ask why brother.." My tears started crying..

"Why are you, baby?" Farhan said trying to help wipe away my tears, but I quickly turned my face away.

"I should ask why? Why after you found out about my feelings, you even admitted this to me.. Was my brother on purpose? Am I just a trophy that you're trying to get that after you get your sister just ignore?"

"You mean??"

I looked back at Farhan's face with my tears still dripping constantly.

"Sister, what am I doing for you?"

"You? You're my lover Salwa, why do you wonder something like this? What's up?"

"Why is my brother cheating?" The more I can't hold my tears. "Sister used to squirm me bad after squirming Fauzi with another woman, the brother who came to nenangin me at that time, but why did the brother who made me understand the same thing now?"

"What do you mean? Who's cheating?"

"So there's a sister, a girl, and her..." I diverted my hands.

"Who?" Ask Farhan.

I sobbed, unable to answer Farhan's question anymore. Farhan grabbed his phone and checked his incoming call.

"Key? Key said what are you?"

I'm shaking..

"What's going on?"

"I want to go home.." I said wipe my tears and move.

"Salvah.." Farhan's holding me "You why? What did Key say?"

"Who is key?"

"Key? Her friend.. Why why?"

"Friends?"

"Yes friend.."

"Oh, that's not what you think, Key was like that when you called me, not just me but with other friends and Key was like that.."

"Then why did you answer him with a call dear too?? Did you call everyone's sister's girlfriends dear, too.."

"Mommy.it's not Salwa.. I'm..."

"Why now?? Why does my sister have to be like this now? Why is it that after I really love my sister, sister acknowledges this to me? Why sis?" I kept crying while sobbing.

"Salva.. I don't mean anything else, I just got carried away when I called Key with a call dear as well. There's nothing else like you think.."

"We'll just finish it.." I said step. Simultaneously Farhan pulled my hand and hugged me. I rebelled.. "Take off..."

Farhan did not reply, Farhan further tightened his embrace.

"Take it off, let me go..." I said keep beating Farhan. Farhan was silent about receiving my blow and still tightened his embrace.

I gave up, I stopped hitting him even though my tears kept flowing.

"I'm sorry Salwa, I'm really not who you think I am, he's just my friend. Please do not ask for the end. I'm sorry, I won't repeat it again I promise.." Farhan said, hugging me.

"Let go. I'm going home.."

"Son, I won't let you go before you believe me, I'm sorry I won't be like that anymore.."

I just kept crying in Farhan's arms.

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When the last lesson is over, the teacher does not stop reminding us of the School Exams and National Exams that are getting closer, almost every end of the lesson the teachers will remind us that.

Yesterday Farhan drove me home, I told Farhan to take me home because as usual Farhan was quite reckless. Not once did Farhan hug me twice in public and I had to agree to Farhan taking off his arms. Along the way Farhan drove me home I was silent. Farhan did not say much either.

I came out of class shabby, yesterday's events still bother me. Last night Farhan called me but I ignored him, a few short messages were sent by Farhan as well but I just ignored him too. My mood was so bad today, I just wanted to hurry home and fall home.

"Salvah.."

I heard someone calling me. I saw Farhan walking towards me, I walked away from him.

"Salwa wait.." Call Farhan hasten his steps to hold me back. "Let me drive you home.."

"I'm going home alone.."

"Son, let me drive you home.."

"Son, I want to go home by myself.."

Farhan pulled me without my consent.

"Please..." I said while pulling my hand.

"Salwa, if we're like this here there'll be some friends who see what we say.."

"Whatever.I don't care.."

"Yes, but I care.. " Said Farhan kept pulling me to lead me to his car.

"I said I didn't want to.." I pulled my hand firmly until Farhan's grip slipped off.

"There's something I want to say to you Salwa.."

"What's? say aja.."

"Can't be here. Let's talk about it in the car.."

"Son't.." Reject me firmly.

"There's someone waiting for you in the car, too.."

"Who?"

"Let's come.."

Out of curiosity, I finally followed Farhan to his car. Farhan opened the car door.

"Why? Is this blatant now??" I asked when I saw someone in Farhan's car.

I looked closely at Farhan, feeling very upset..