Dear, Soul!!

Confession !!

Kuraba's sleeping light table where I put my phone that started ringing.

"Heem??" I answered with my eyes closed.

"Well, are you still sleeping Yang?" I heard Fauzi's voice from across the phone.

"Eemhhh" Sahutku's..

"Wake up, it's 8 o'clock.."

"It's Zi Sunday, I'm sleeping again. Yes." I said half-consciously.

"Enak is Salwa" he said in a complaining tone

"What?"

"If you want to sleep still sleep, would you try if I were still sleeping? There will also be a new law without amendment without revision"

"Oh so don't like it if I'm reprimanding"

"I didn't say that's Yang"

"Some of you think who makes me hard to wake up gini"

"Who is? My time?"

"Well, you.. I was waiting for you to tell me last night, until I fell asleep or not"

"ah, sorry I love 🙁"

"Judek.. I'm sleeping again, really still drowsy"

"Well, I woke you up because I wanted to make sure you walked"

"Where?"

"The night after the meeting Farhan made me walk.. Yes he said itung-itung nerefresh the brain before the exam next semester"

"Where's the road?"

"The beach said"

"Third doang?"

"Not Yang, the ministers from the association last night also follow"

"Well, does that mean I'm my own girl?"

"Sir Yang, they're on the go with the girls too"

"Jude, I'm ready first"

"Don't dance the pretty one"

"Well I'm not dancing and pretty, baby"

"Jude, get ready, I'll pick you up in an hour"

"Key, Bye.." The phone was disconnected.

It's been about 5 minutes I've been waiting for Fauzi. Outfit Jeans navy paired with a light gray t-shirt with a knee-length blazer matching the color of my jeans equipped with white sneakers make me comfortable. Well because I think today will be on the beach should I look casual, anyway Fauzi is not too happy if I look excessive. Not because Fauzi arranged my appearance, but because Fauzi did not want me to wear clothes that made me uncomfortable just to keep my appearance. Fauzi always said, what we use if it makes us comfortable is much better than what makes the eyes of others comfortable to see while we are in trouble in using it.

Fauzi arrived to pick me up, we set off for the beach after picking up Farhan and another friend.

The roar of the waves chasing each other makes the boisterous atmosphere of nature that God creates with all His pleasure.

"Salvah.." I looked up, heard someone calling.

"Sister Farhan?" My solute.

"Only alone? Fauzi where?"

"Ah, there was a friend who asked for help to be photographed, so Fauzi was there"

"How are you?" He said while sitting next to me staring at the waves chasing.

"Why is that? Farhan's feelings also every day mengeliatin I wara-wiri at school"

"Haha, I think I'm someone else, brother, usually also if there is Fauzi brother no fuss kelulungan"

"well, if there is a Fauzi, it is enough that Fauzi can be used as a bait for bullyan haha" he said, smiling to show his eyes getting smaller.

"Fauzi is fun?" He continued asking in a flat tone that made me a little surprised.

"Sister mean?" I'm confused. "Ah, haha yes, Fauzi is very noisy so the effect is so pleasant that, even though the original is much more nyebelinnya" My spoon tried to melt the atmosphere that seemed to start the flow of the cooling pepper.

"Haha, my question made Salwa confused huh" Tanyanya turned her head towards me.

"Haha little.." Answer's awkward.

"I'm sorry" he said, taking his eyes off me.

"Ah? haha no papa kok sak" I replied by still trying to melt the atmosphere.

"Salwa, sorry for saying this.. But I don't know why sometimes I have the same envy of Fauzi about your ownership" he said.

"Well, I know and I realize, I don't have the right to discuss this with you" he said.

I just fell silent, either my efforts that from earlier wanted to melt the atmosphere of escape to where.

"Yes, I know.. I don't have much more to compare to Fauzi. Fauzi is exciting, not boring like me, right?" For a moment he was silent

"Ah, what the hell am I, it's not clear how to talk gini" he continued with a small laugh covering his eyes.

"Sister, it's not good to say that. Everyone has their own advantages, what you see from Fauzi may be just parts of the fun of Fauzi" I explained.

"Fauzi also sometimes bummer, not sometimes even but often, hehehe" My neighbor.

"Salwa, am I speed?" tanyanya looked at me

"Huh??" I answered spontaneously raising my eyebrows

"Is Salwa not enough time for the heart?" tanyanya still looks at me.

"Sorry, I mean am I too quick to express my feelings to Salwa to make Salwa confused?" Continue without taking his eyes off me.

I try to avoid eye contact, turn my eyes back to the beach..

"I'm confused Salwa, somehow I have to keep pretending that you're okay with Fauzi. I know, this is something evil" he continued, turning his gaze away from me and watching the waves in the ocean.

"I'm sorry, brother, I didn't mean to..."

"Salwa, don't apologize... That made me feel like an antagonist in your life, even though I was actually the antagonist in this story. But it's not your fault, your feelings and your suffrage it's yours that shouldn't be messed up just because of me"

"Despite that, I apologize for not considering big brother's feelings and quickly making up my mind" I paused for a moment "It's not that big brother has any advantages or anything interesting, either, but it was me who couldn't see anything good from brother" My welcome.. "Ah no, not that I can't, but I'm not trying to see it"

Farhan was silent.

"Sister, maybe these words are too cliche, but I'm sure you'll find a better girl than me" she said.

"Do you think I'd still be alone if I'd found him?" tanyanya looks at me.

Quickly I turned my eyes.

"I've always been conscious for my mistake this Salwa, saving something in my heart for someone I shouldn't. Every time I look at you, I'm always aware of who you are, of you with Fauzi and of me with Fauzi and of what I shouldn't be ruined just because of my feelings" she explained. "I am not happy with this situation, I sometimes curse myself with my bad feelings" he continued.

Back I saw Farhan, it seemed like he was a little carried away by his emotions with his feelings that began to grow upset. I no longer know what to say.

"Right now, I'm starting something good with bad intentions"

"Something good with bad intentions?" I made it clear his words made me not understand.

"Although it has been a year.. Ye know? It's not easy for me to eat you Salwa, it's not easy for me to feel my feelings. What's more, I have to accept the reality and circumstances where I have a lot of time with you because of Fauzi"

I just fell silent

"I started learning Religion so that it can be separated from feelings for you. Hahaha not good, am I?" He said he laughed with a look of disappointment towards himself.

For a moment I began to feel Farhan's emotions, but I couldn't express them

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