Dear, Soul!!

The 28th Review

About a week Fauzi waited for Salwa to tell the truth, but to this day Salwa has not said everything.

One week ago, it was as if fate wanted to make Fauzi see it all. Fauzi who somehow missed Salwa so much finally decided to go home to meet Salwa. But again he met Salwa's togetherness with Farhan. Fauzi did not know exactly what Salwa and Farhan were talking about at the time, Fauzi would understand if Salwa had been honest and said so. Fauzi had called Salwa that day to see if she was lying or telling the truth, but let alone knowing Salwa would be honest or not, raised Fauzi's phone and Salwa did not do it. Fauzi who was a little away from Salwa and Farhan's desk saw clearly how Salwa had deliberately not picked up her phone.

Fauzi is still trying to think positively, "Mngkin there was a little privacy that Farhan wanted to convey so that Salwa could not pick up her phone at that time so when Fauzi spoke on the phone with Salwa Fauzi kept on luring Salwa to be honest but still Salwa did not discuss his meeting with Farhan.

"Is this time the same? Are you guys still like that? Is that why Farhan doesn't want to see me?" So many questions came to Fauzi's mind.

For quite a while Fauzi looked at the ceiling of his room, trying to figure out what he was going to do next and what kind of desperation he had to take at the moment. Honestly speaking, his feelings were completely raging and shattered, the Salwa he loved so much occasionally turned into someone who hurt him so much that there was a point of hatred starting to appear slowly in his heart. How not to hate it does not arise if the opportunity given is not once again, the honesty is no longer there and the shadow of betrayal always appears in his head.

Fauzi moved and took his phone which was on the charger, he had already determined what steps he would take in the future.

"Hello.." The answer from the opposite phone when Fauzi's call is connected.

"Hello Ma'am.."

"Yes, why son? Is Salwa's number no longer active??" Ask Salwa's Mother.

"A's active Mom, I'm calling Mom to talk to you"

"Why? What's up, son??"

"This Fauzi doesn't bother you, does she??"

"No, I don't have a job anymore either.."

"Mother, before I wanted to apologize, I thought about this a long time ago and I finally decided to end my relationship with Salwa.."

"What's wrong? You guys fighting again??"

"No, ma'am.. I just can't hold on anymore.."

"What's up, son? If there's anything you should talk about first. And again why do you say it's the same mom? Have you talked about this with Salwa??"

"Not yet Ma.. I want to discuss this with Mom before I talk directly to Salwa.."

"Are you really going to end your relationship with Salwa? Butwhy? I see Salwa is fine now, you guys don't seem to be fighting.."

"Yes ma'am, we're fine now.."

"Keep..."

"Mom, I love Salwa so much, I love Salwa Ma, I have had dreams and future plans with Salwa, but lately I have been very nervous. I don't want to force myself to endure while I constantly feel betrayed, I don't want this love of mine to turn into hate for being too disappointed.."

"A week ago I saw Salwa meet Farhan again, ma'am.."

"What?? They see you again? But Salwa never said it was the same Mom.. What did they meet for?"

"I don't know either, Mom.. I've lured Salwa to be honest but to this day Salwa has not been honest, I no longer know what to suppress my feelings like Ma'am.. I really can't stand it.."

Salwa's mother was silent for a moment. "So what are you going to do now??"

"I want to break up from Salwa Bu, not because I don't love or don't love Salwa anymore, I was just afraid that my disappointment would continue to grow and turn into hate spots if I kept forcing myself to persevere. Ma'am, I love Salwa very much, although now I intend to end my relationship with Salwa but I still fight for my dream to be with Salwa in the future.."

"You mean, you just want to break for a while??"

"You could say that kind of thing, ma'am, I need to keep my feelings in the meantime. I also have no ability if I want to ask to bind Salwa, I am still in college and again my age is young, I am not yet established" explained Fauzi.

"Mother understands how you feel, son, you must have been very tormented lately. I can't blame you for letting go of Salwa because Salwa is guilty. If that's your decision, I won't stand in your way.."

"But Ma'am.. I still want Salwa to be with me in the future. Are you going to let me go back to pick up Salwa when I grow up? I'll try to be an established man when I'm going to pick up Salwa later Mom, I'll try to be a great man quickly so I can pick up Salwa sooner too.."

Salwa's mother smiled, her tears slowly pooling in her eyes. "Mom's so moved to hear what you're saying, Son, I'm so glad there's a boy who loves Mom's daughter so much. I will be very happy if later you really come to ask my daughter, I can't possibly not give you permission let alone refuse you later. I love you so much, too, like my son.." Mother Salwa said as she wiped her dripping tears, she tried to suppress her voice so as not to sound hoarse by Fauzi. "You know what's wrong is your child so it's only natural that you would make a decision like this.."

"So it's okay if I do this right, Mom?"

"It's not really what son.. It's just that I don't guarantee Salwa still has feelings for you in the future or still wants to be with you. I really want you to be my daughter-in-law in the future, but as long as you're not on Salwa's side, it is possible that Salwa will find someone else who can fill her heart and I will not be able to forbid Salwa to love anyone other than you. Salwa's heartache when you end your relationship can turn into anger and hate on you. You know that, right??"

"Yes Ma'am, I've considered it all and I've also prepared myself if Salwa doesn't like me anymore. If it happens in the future it means that Salwa is not my soul mate.. But I will definitely try to finish college quickly, get a quick job so I can get established faster and come pick up Salwa before she anchors her feelings to others.."

"So when are you going to tell Salwa about this??"

"Ah I haven't told this to my Mom and Dad, I have to discuss this with Mom and Dad. Father and Mother were very fond of Salwa, they would be surprised if I ended my relationship with Salwa suddenly. I'll talk to my mom and dad tonight and maybe tomorrow morning.."

"You gonna tell Salwa???" Ask Salwa's mother to cut Fauzi's words.

"Yes Ma.. But Mom I really don't intend to hurt Salwa, I just want to calm things down first Mom. I'll definitely come when the time comes, I can't possibly disappoint you.."

"Mom glad to hear you say that..."

"I will come when Salwa is alone Ma'am.. I'll make sure of that.." Fauzi said firmly.

Yes, which mother is not happy when she knows there is a boy who loves his daughter very much and even prepares a bright future for his daughter in the future.