Dear, Soul!!

Learn from the quarrel..

My eyes were getting swollen, my nose was reddened and my voice was still raucous.

I stepped in while pressing my eyes towards the door that had been knocked.

"May not be too twisted" I thought..

The door is knocked back..

"Yes who?" I said while opening the door.

I paused for a moment, I saw someone I knew very well standing with a look on his face that was not good while looking down.

"What's he doing here?" Thought.

My tears started to pool again, slowly dripping down my cheeks.

"Sorry..." He said as soon as I opened the door.

I just fell silent, looking at him fixedly.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I made you cry" she said again and lowered her head.

I stood still looking at her, my tears getting louder.

"I'm not good enough to be reliable, I can't make you happy enough" she said in a hoarse voice, as if she would catch up with me to cry.

"Ozi... Huhuhuhu" My cry became broken.

He who had been standing there was looking down immediately raised his face to hear me cry.

"I'm sorry Salwa" he said as he approached and hugged me.

I just kept crying, the louder I cried, I shed all the tears that had disturbed my eyes. I poured out all my feelings by crying in Fauzi's arms.

"Salwa forgive me"

"I'm sorry.."

Repeatedly Fauzi apologized, whether he had said sorry for how many times after arriving in front of me. The tighter his embrace, the more I cried so.

"Yes, I was wrong, I was wrong.. I'm sorry, I'm wrong" he said repeatedly

"Please don't cry anymore" she asked..

Slowly I sobbed, holding back my cries, making my breath become congested.

"Ah, no.. If you still want to cry, just cry.. Don't hold back.." she cried back after she saw me a little trouble holding back my tears.

"Youngpam... Ozii.. Huaaaaa" I came back crying.

"Yes, I'm here.. I'm sorry I made you like this.." His embrace grew tighter and his tears began to drip.

I don't know how long I'll cry in her arms. The young grey shirt Fauzi was wearing got wet from my tears. I didn't want to take off my arms and just kept crying Fauzi's arms.

I don't know what I'm crying about. Is my sense of legibility for seeing Fauzi right now in front of me, or is it a shame to remember Fauzi who was angry but suddenly appeared in front of my house with his face full of guilt and apologized repeatedly to me, also maybe because I was sick to see Fauzi who was like a fool come to my house to apologize many times while this fight was because of my selfishness, which even Fauzipun joined in crying. Ah I don't know.. The point is I just want to cry, let go of all my tightness from now on, let go of all my pain and my thoughts about my fear of losing Fauzi. I just want to keep crying in Fauzi's arms until I feel relieved.

After some time, Tangisku began to subside.. Fauzi's embrace that had started to stretch tightly.

"I'm sorry my god" said I, who stopped crying.

"Dear, Salwa is not wrong.. I'm the wrong baby" she said, stroking my hair.

"Ozi's not angry anymore, is he?" tanyaku with a slight sobbing while raising my head looking at him.

He smiles.

"Can I be angry with Salwa?"

tanyakanya.

"Well, if I'm wrong, you can be angry" I said again putting my head on his chest with my hand still around his waist.

"Son.. I can't be angry with Salwa, if I'm angry, then my love for Salwa is losing as much as my anger. And I don't like that" he said with his fingers that had been gently stroking my hair.

I took off my arms, I looked back at Fauzi with a slight uproar because Fauzi was about 15cm taller than me.

Fauzi rubbed my tears that were still dripping slowly. Then he hugged me back.

"Calm your feelings" he said as he placed his hand on my head and slowly rubbed my hair.

I began to calm down, my breathing that was not regular until it felt tight because crying began to feel relieved and normal. Well, I'm comfortable being in Fauzi's arms, Fauzi's heartbeat makes me calmer.

"Udah?" Ask..

I just nodded but squeezed my arms around her waist.

"Where to change clothes, I'll wait here.."

"Hem?" I lifted my head to look at him.

"for?" many confused.

"What do you want to do with your nightgown to the Gallery?" ask again.

I paused for a moment while still looking at him and then put my head back on his field.

"Son't.." Answer's short.

"You're like this.."Answer me with a slightly spoiled tone

"When do you want?"

I fell silent

"It's like a ceremony just stand still" he asked as he continued to play my hair.

"Emang ceremony can while hugging?" ask me without looking at it.

He's laughing a little..

"You if the kangen can stay say baby, not even angry not clear as before" he said with a little laugh.

"who said kangen?" I replied in a slightly nonchalant tone without looking at it.

"So don't you miss it?" tanyanya.

"No" I answered briefly

"Seriously?"

"Yes"

"Really"

"Yes.."

"Hmmm..." He sighed.

"Who the hell is this that he said did not miss but from earlier his embrace did not want to be released, even tighter" he said teasing me.

I raised my head to look at him. He smiles.

I took off my arms, but at once he pulled me back into his arms.

"Just hug again, if Salwa doesn't miss, let me be the one who misses" he said, hugging me tightly and tucking my hair.

I just fell silent and put my hand on her side.

"I'm sorry, honey, I'm sorry to make you cry. I promise I won't make you cry, I'm sorry I broke my promise"

I just fell silent.

"I should be able to remember you if you are upset again, not even angry back" he continued.

"I should be able to be more sensitive to my feelings you, I should have understood you sooner" he said again.

I took off my embrace. I looked attached..

"Son't.."Answer smiled.

I stepped towards the sofa, well I guess my legs started to get dark from standing up earlier.

Fauzi followed me and sat beside me.

I put my head on her shoulders, I grabbed her hand and I held her tight.

"I was selfish all this time, always forcing Ozi to obey all my wishes" I explained.

"I should be able to better understand Ozi, be able to better understand and give you time to be your personal" I explained again as I raised my head to look at her.

Fauzi smile. I smiled back.

"Thank you for understanding me" he said, holding my hand tighter.

I put my head back on his shoulder.

"I was bad all this time.."

"What the hell are you, baby.."

"But in fact I am evil, I always maxain you make my will" I explained

"No, it's not because you mean it either, but because I'm happy to be able to follow you" she replied with a smile

For a year I dated Fauzi, this was the first time we had a fight this bad but it was quickly resolved.

I began to learn something from this quarrel, that all this time I had too much restraint on Fauzi and did not give him time for his own personal. I'm a little sorry to remember what I've done to Fauzi all this time.

I slowly realized my mistake and intended to no longer be selfish towards Fauzi. I know, it won't be easy for me to get used to not acting as I like Fauzi, considering all this time what I wanted Fauzi to do. But I will learn and strive for it.. Because there will be fights like this or maybe even more people if I don't try to change my behavior. I realized, Fauzi has his own world. Aside from basketball, Shooting is a new wish that Fauzi wants to do. As a lover I should support her, not hinder her desires and talents.

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Thanks though..

Thankyou..

Chamsamide

Arigatto 🙏

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