Dear, Soul!!

Recalling..

Farhan continued to explain well, he really helped me in completing my tasks.

"Sister, I want something"

"What?"

"But this is a bit out of our discussion, I'm just a little curious"

"About what?"

"About drugs that are not indicative but can cure"

"I mean.."

"For example, like Amoxicillin, most people think Amoxicillin is for wound and pain medicine even though Amoxicillin is an antibiotic.. But really after he consumed Amoxicillin his person can be cured.."

"But Amoxicillin was for Salwa's wound.."

"Well for wounds? Not antibiotics"

"Wounds are easily overgrown with bacteria, so if Amoxicillin is used as a wound medicine is fine, but back again what the wound was like before.."

"meaning?" I began to get confused by what Farhan meant.

"For example, the patient was injured until the wound began to open and water, it would have needed antibiotics because obviously the wound was overgrown with bacteria. It's just his fault sometimes the public, he hurt recently scratched a knife or leg over a stone he already wanted to drink Amoxicillin when it should not. Know that the antibiotic-treated wound that had been wound up to three days.."

"Yes I mean like that brother, sometimes it's just a small wound but have taken antibiotics he said to say the pain, but it's not to say sick brother.."

"Hem. that's the problem Salwa, the mindset is very influential in healing his patients. If the patient already believes that this drug can cure pain, then it could actually disappear, although not everything can be like that, but back again to the side effects of the drug. We are now becoming Pharmacy, we must be able to convey to the community or at least the family that Amoxicillin is not a pain or wound drug, and the danger that continued consumption of Amoxicillin, can cause resistance.."

"Yes, brother, I think it's very important to be in the know to the wider community"

"Pray, hopefully tomorrow the community can better understand about the drug and the dangers of taking drugs that are not according to their indications.."

"Yes sis.."

"Jude, how is this job? Do you understand?"

"Sister, thank you for helping me with my duties.."

"Yes alike. The point is diligent open books and journals. Here you are still semester one, the next semester you will be faced with more difficult subjects and more need a lot of books for literature.."

"Yes brother.. "

"Hem. So this is it?"

"Yes. angu.."

"Why?"

"Aren't you hungry? Don't want to eat first?"

"Hem can.."

"I'll treat you as a thank you"

"There is no need to go this way, Salwa.."

"What sis, my brother has bothered to teach me"

"I don't feel repotinated so it doesn't have to be.."

"Sister should want me to buy it.." I said cut the conversation.

"Well if you make it.."

"What kind of message do you want?" I said give him a menu.

Farhan chose the food menu and ordered it.

While waiting for the order to come I saw Farhan was a little busy with his phone and occasionally frowned. It seems like there is something he is thinking about.

"Big brother why?"

"Ah what? Me? I'm fine" she replied with a smile.

"No appointments or what? Don't let me stop brother here"

"'Haha not really.. Hem betewe's food is long coming" he said to divert the conversation.

"Still cooked brother"

"Ohaha yes.."

Farhan is back on his phone. I felt a little sorry for holding him down to eat with me. Farhan seemed to be thinking of something and I made him have to stay for lunch with me.

The food we ordered came, and Farhan and I ate well while talking a little bit about college.

"Oh yes Salwa, Fauzi how are you.." Farhan asked while enjoying the food.

"Are you okay?" Farhan asked while giving me a glass of water.

I signaled that I was okay.

"Eat it slowly.."

"Yes, brother, thank you.."

"Fauzi how are you? Since that incident I have never communicated with Fauzi again. I'm ashamed and too cowardly to talk to Fauzi"

"But Fauzi wishes that brother spoke directly to him, he said that you shouldn't be like this"

"Hem, as always, Fauzi is always good. He is more mature in thinking"

I just shut up.

"If you meet or happen to call Fauzi, apologize again. I really haven't been able to talk directly to Fauzi. Ck I'm such a coward.."

"I also can't let you apologize brother to Fauzi.." Answer me in a low tone.

"Ke why? Fauzi don't like it when you talk about me?"

I'm shaking.

"Continue?"

"A I can't call Fauzi sister.."

It was clearly a confused expression on Farhan's face.

"You mean?"

"I haven't been with Fauzi in a long time and now I don't have Fauzi's contacts"

Farhan was silent for a moment, it seemed like he was digesting whatever I just said.

"Are you guys breaking up?" Farhan asked hesitantly.

I nodded at Farhan's question.

"Couldn't you? Since when? What was? You guys talked about everything?" Farhan showered me with consecutive questions.

"Old old age.."

"Old?"

"It's been a year brother"

"Have it been that long? Why can?"

"Yes that's how it is.." I tried to smile.

"A is it because of me?" Farhan asked again hesitantly. "Is it because I invited you out that day?" Farhan seemed to feel guilty.

"It's not like that.." I answered, still trying to smile. "We broke up probably because it was her destiny to do so.."

"So now you have absolutely no communication?"

I'm nodding.

Farhan was silent for a moment.

"If it's true because of me, I'm sorry Salwa. Everything is because I am too selfish, I am only concerned with my own feelings without caring about the feelings of the two of you. I'm sorry.."

"Sister, don't talk about it anymore. Everything has passed, regretted it is no use" I answered trying to look firm and sincere even though in the deepest corner of my heart began to rage again considering Fauzi.

"May anyone take better care of you than Fauzi. I really wish for such a good thing"

"Thank you brother" I answered smiling.

"I'm sorry to have discussed this again, this must make you remember Fauzi again.."

"What's wrong, you don't know either.."

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Farhan drove me home after we finished lunch together earlier, I arrived home feeling so lonely. I walked into the room, threw my body into the bed. Slowly my tears began to drip, I felt very missed with Fauzi, discussing it with Farhan earlier made me think back to Fauzi. Did Fauzi think of me once when I thought of him like crazy right now.

It turned out that it was a long time that I had not communicated with Farhan either, nor did he communicate at all with Fauzi. If we go back to remembering how we were 2-3 years ago, we would not have thought that in the end we were like this. It all ends because of our selfishness.

Farhan who is now more mature than before, especially when he explained about my duty earlier it feels like Farhan is completely different from the previous one. He's not the Farhan I used to know, now he's much better. Waitwait.. Why am I thinking of Farhan anyway?? Shittt... I hurried up and headed for the bathroom to clear myself and my mind.