Dear, Soul!!

There is no end..

"I didn't think you'd be like this.." Fauzi looked at me. I was surprised, I looked at Fauzi who was staring at me earlier. I looked away, I was scared and worried. I don't know what else to say.

"ja.. So you know?" Ask slowly. Retread her eyes

"You don't think Farhan's gonna tell me..?" The answer.

Ah, I knew Farhan would tell Fauzi anything, but I didn't expect anything like this to tell Farhan to Fauzi. My fear about this relationship may have occurred... What about Farhan? What was Fauzi's response when he found out about all this and what was going on between Fauzi and Farhan right now..

"La.. Then how are you?"

"You ask me? I'm obviously mad at Salwa, I don't like you like this.." Rigorously.

"Ma..I'm sorry Ozi, I don't know if it's going to end up like this" I said, unable to lift my head and look at Fauzi.

"Salvana..."

"I really don't know what else to do..."

"If you don't know, you shouldn't take such a step to Farhan.."

"But I'm.."

"Yes I know, it's your concern for Farhan, you just want Farhan to be like us but.."

"aa.. What's??" I asked in confusion as I slowly raised my head to look at Fauzi. "What does Fauzi really mean? What attention?"

"Yes.I know your friend likes Farhan very much, but making Farhan's betrothal like that is not a good thing you do, Farhan can offend Salwa.." Evidently.

"Well.what?"

"You're what? what's?' keep on.. Yes the point is you do not admit something like this again to Farhan, if he likes someone Farhan must know what actions he must take, he said, to your friend too if he likes Farhan he should say to himself, instead of telling you to talk to Farhan.."

I'm actually confused. Fauzi's earlier words as if he knew about what happened to Farhan and me, it made me very worried and scared. But somehow Fauzi's discussion became something I didn't understand, what he said as if I was doing something I didn't know.

I sighed, a little relieved to remember that what Fauzi had discussed earlier was not something I was worried about but something I did not understand. I tried to understand the situation, slowly I asked Fauzi what he meant.

"Jaa.. So Farhan told you everything..?"

"Yes.I was glad he entered the class after meeting you, his face was sour. At first I asked him to be quiet, refused to tell me the story, but because I wondered he finally spoke, he said you asked him to consider the feelings of your friend who likes him.."

"So Farhan lied about what really happened?"

"Next time don't be like that dear.Whether your friend goes to Farhan, you have no right to ask Farhan to like him too, Farhan could be offended"

"Yes, I don't do that anymore.." I said lowered. "Farhan covered everything" I thought.

"Looh.looh baby.I'm no longer angry with you, I just bumanangg. I'm not angry"

"A.. what?" I'm confused..

"You bow so as if I've upset you.." Evidently.

"Owalaahh.. Does he think I'm moody again??"

"I don't think you're angry with me either"

"Hufft. lest you feel again scolded.." He said breathe a sigh of relief.

I was really surprised earlier, a problem that I wanted to solve immediately but was not finished until now I thought Fauzi knew. I had a moment to think, how much Farhan said this to Fauzi, it turned out that I was the same as myself towards Farhan.

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My mom and dad are going home in the afternoon. After Fauzi came home for driving me, I immediately contacted Farhan. This is the first time I've called Farhan.

"Hello.." Answer from across the phone.

"Why?"

"I want to talk to you, brother.."

"By what? If I want to talk about it this afternoon I don't want to"

"But brother.."

"Udahlah Salwa. if there is nothing important you want to say I matainnya phone first.."

"Sister.. I'm gonna take care of this..."

"I don't want Salwa, I don't want our relationship to end, I want to stay with you..."

"But..."

"Salwa, now I'm busy.. I'm discussing something with my parents"

"Okay wait, after this I want us to talk sis.."

"Not about the problem this afternoon.."

"As for brother, I'll come to big brother's house. I don't want this to go on..."

"Salwa, can you not understand my situation?"

"I'm sorry because I'm selfish, but this is what we have to solve. If you don't see me, I'll go to my sister's house to see you.."

"OK okay. After we meet, I'll pick you up there" said Farhan and immediately turned off his phone.

I realized, what I did to Farhan is very evil, I know I hurt his heart but I also do not want everything to get worse in the future.

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Farhan came to pick me up and we headed to a natural tourist spot that is not visited by many people today considering this is not a holiday and not a holiday period.

"Why should this be?" Ask Farhan.

"I'm sorry brother.. I really didn't mean to agree to brother's request that night.."

"But I assume you've agreed to my request.."

"Sister, my mind was in a mess and again.."

"Do you have to be this cruel to me Salwa?" Ask cut my conversation. "I'm so happy these last two days, I'm glad you finally gave me a chance. I know you don't have feelings for me and it doesn't matter to me, just as you exist I'm enough Salwa.."

"I'm sorry brother... I know I'm wrong, I just don't want this to go on.."

"Do you not understand my feelings? just little. Can't you get a little sick of my feelings hear you talk like gini. What was wrong with Salwa? Is loving you my fault??" Farhan asked with his emotions and his eyes began to glaze over. "I really like you, I really love you, can't you even consider my feelings??"

"Sister, I know. I know I've been hurting my sister's feelings, but I really can't keep going like this. It's the same way I'm having an affair.."

"Then why? Then what if you're cheating??"

Farhan's question surprised me a little.

"Sister.."

"Cheating will be a problem if your boyfriend knows, right? I'll make sure Fauzi doesn't know that you're cheating on him right now.."

"Sister.sister is aware of what you said??"

"Why ask me Salwa? Why don't you reflect and ask yourself that.. Are you aware of your words to me? are you aware of your words that easily hurt me??"

Farhan was carried away by his emotions, his eyes were glazed over and began to turn red.