Dear, Soul!!

Revealed..

for half a year I have stayed at home, not feeling the outside air and just locked myself in a house punishing myself. But today, I'm trying to get out again to fulfill my mother's wish for me to take additional preparatory lessons to enter the University.

I'm a little scared, I'm like a person who just got released into the free world. I refused Mom to take me, I wanted to try to go back to how I was and run my days like I used to. I realize as hard as I try to be like I used to be it won't be easy or it probably won't be, but I keep trying at least I can be better than myself this past half a year.

I went through some of the roads that I used to go along with Fauzi to make my mind go back around Fauzi. What is Fauzi doing now? Does he remember me? He also thought about me. I wish even once that Fauzi would remember me.

Bbuukkkc...

A ball rolls and hits me and then bounces in the opposite direction. A little boy limped up to the ball. I walked up to the ball and handed it over.

"Be careful, next time don't be too tight kicked the ball later can roll too far.." I said, handing over the ball. The little boy just looked at me, maybe because he was only about two years old he did not understand what I was saying. "Its fun.." Thought.

"I'm sorry my son.." He said he ran over to his son who was still standing quietly in front of me.

"Ah, it's okay" I replied smiling.

"Geez, baby, did you say wait a minute.." He said attentive.

He looks young, but has been acting mature because he has been given the mandate to have children.

"I'm sorry about my son again.." He said smile at me

"Yes it's okay.. Excuse me" I continued my steps.

"Tu wait.."

I'm turning.

"Are you not Salwa?"

Who her? Why recognize me? I don't think I've seen him before.

"I was right.. Sorry who are you?" I'm confused.

Because I still have enough time, I sat down with the woman while enjoying a cup of ready-to-eat cappuccino that she prepared. Fortunately, I left early, my initial intention was to take a walk first considering I had not been out for a long time before I got to the course but I finally undo my intentions and chose to sit with this woman I just met, I was a little curious how he knew me.

"I'm Fira.." He said he put his hand forward with a smile.

"Sa Salwa's.." I regretted.

"From your reaction, I don't seem to remember me.."

"sorry"

"Why apologize, we do not know each other so it's only natural that we have forgotten the same.. We only met once, only once."

"We've met? When?"

"Hem. about two years ago.."

I tried to remember, did I really meet this woman two years ago? I really don't remember.

"We only met at a glance at that time. Actually it can not be said at a glance also because only I pay attention to you while your attention is more directed to others"

I don't understand what this woman means.

"Two years ago, you caught me with Fauzi at a shopping accessories store"

"It seems you remember.. I'd like to apologize.."

Pardon you? Two years ago he had an affair with Fauzi, why is he apologizing now.

"Ah it's okay, it's all over" I answered trying to smile even though I was a bit annoyed to remember.

"I'm sorry for making you misunderstand me and having to go through some tough times in your relationship with Fauzi"

Misunderstand it? Whatdoes thatmean?.

"Sorry, I don't know what you mean.."

He looked a little surprised to see me not understanding what he meant.

"Fauzi didn't tell you the same story? He didn't explain everything to you?"

"Te about what?"

He was even more surprised to see me who really did not understand what he meant.

"That day you misunderstood what you saw between me and Fauzi"

He always said misunderstandings, misunderstand what he meant?

"My friend introduced my husband to a guy who said he was shooting well, and the one he introduced was Fauzi. That day was actually not the day we agreed to take the last praweedding photo, the last day of taking the previous set of photos was also Fauzi had asked permission not to take photos that day, because he said he had a promise to you"

"Yes, that day I was performing in a Dance competition, and Fauzi promised to come to me. But in the end he didn't come"

"Actually Fauzi really wanted to come see you, he had told me long ago so that we did not take prawedding photos that day. But because of me, because I'm Fauzi so I can't come to see your race"

"Why?"

"In the morning my husband asked Fauzi to do our last prawedding take, at first Fauzi refused because he did not want to break the promise to you, but in the end he complied because of the circumstances at that time"

He was silent for a moment, taking a deep breath.

"That day my father was very angry and asked for our marriage to be expedited no matter what. You know I'm.."He hesitated a little to say it. "If I was pregnant at the time, Dad wouldn't want us to buy any more time"

So all this time I really misunderstood Fauzi.

"That day I was pregnant with my first son.." He said while looking at his loving son who was busy with his ball. "My gestational age is only one month, though, Dad forced me to get married sooner than the appointed time so that when my son was born we could alibi that my son was premature and born seven months so people wouldn't know that I was actually pregnant when married.."

I was stunned to hear his story. That was so complicated at that time.

"Because I really want to have a prawedding photo wearing a wedding dress, finally the day was immediately decided to take the last prawedding photo. Fauzi sacrificed his personal interests to protect the dignity of my family, I am so grateful for that" he said with a smile, smiling back.

"Ta but, I squirm Fauzi.."

"My hair?" Ask cut my conversation.

I nodded in agreement.

"Everything is not what you think, Fauzi is not stroking my hair with a certain intent, he just tried to make me alone. Perhaps due to being too rushed and lacking in preparation that day, my husband ate something that made his stomach hurt. As you can see I was alone with Fauzi back then, because my husband was going to the bathroom and the others were picking up sets that were still outside, you remember that it was raining that day so the others were busy saving the set we used when taking outdoor photos"

He told me everything.