Dear, Soul!!

Awkwardly..

The sea waves that had been chasing slowly began to calm down. The scorching sun that had been glare made the reflection of light to the corners of the sea also began to dim covered with clouds.. I don't know, because nature also feels the darkness of the situation that occurs today, or nature just wants to add to the atmosphere to be a little more drama.

"I don't know what else I should do.. I'm like a man who lost his mind" he said.

"Make Religion a way to forget you" he said.

"Am I making a bad time for you?" My toot.

"Son, it's not you who made my time so bad Salwa, but I myself who can't accept the reality, who can't realize myself" he explained.

"I, um,.. Sorry brother" I said, running out of words.

"Udah Salwa, what should you apologize for.. Your feelings are right, if I were in Fauzi's current position, maybe I don't have enough ability to make you laugh every day like now. Should be glad you can also make me happy, not like a bego like this" he explained..

I just fell silent, I had no words to calm him down. Maybe I don't have words, it's just that I don't know what words I can say that can keep his feelings without meaning that makes it harder to forget me.

Farhan was silent for quite a while after his last sentence. He looked at the ocean for a moment and then looked back down.

"I show my bad side to you Salwa" he said breaking a moment of silence. "I'm just not strong enough to keep hiding under my mask" He paused his "Haha I'm pathetic huh" he continued with a low laugh.

"Haha yes" I answered flatly while smiling at the sea.

Hearing my answer Farhan turned to me.

"Why? Isn't that what it is?"

I looked back at him with a faint smile.

"I knowingly, even if I show a thousand of my kindness, it won't change reality if there's no time for you to look at me" he took his eyes off me.

"Keep doing good brother, you know that there are many pairs of eyes that watch out for brother"

"Haha, it's funny that you're talking like that, funny that there's such a thing" he said laughing wryly

"meaning?" ask me confused

"Now it hurts more.. Your words seem to clarify your rejection, a rejection that is very gentle but painfully overwhelming"

"Ah, sis.. I didn't mean it." I said guiltily.

"O Salwa, what you do is true.. I have to be rejected twice like this in order to be aware, I was too far away hoping to forget that I was rejected. It was twice in a different way but with increased pain" he explained..

I saw tears begin to pool in his eyes.

"Is this pain the result of my words?" I asked in my heart.

"I shouldn't be talking about this with you, should I?" continued.

He looked at me, clearly seeing his tears begin to drip. He took his eyes off me and quickly wiped away his tears.

For some reason, stretch out my hand to help her wipe away her tears. He was a little surprised to realize that the fingers rubbed the ends of his eyes, he turned his head and looked at me fixedly.

"Ah, sorry.. I just.."

I tried to pull my hand back but it was held back.

I felt the coldness of Farhan's palm holding my hand. Slightly trembling with a fairly firm grip.

"I'm sorry, but can it be like this for a moment?" she asked as she continued to look at me with her hand still holding mine.

I just fell silent, staring at him without blinking a word.

"You know what's the worst thing about me?" Ask.

I just waited for the word he said next.

"I learned Religion and the result I learned was to corner you through my prayers, I don't care who you are now, I just hope there will be a chance for me" he continued.

I was a little surprised to hear his words, maybe my expression was quite revealing.

"Ba how can you think like that?" Tanyaku.

He strengthened his hand.

"Because I want to, a time like this can be for me again. I want Salwa to be..."

"Farhaaannn" called someone to cut Farhan's words.

Fauzi?? I quickly withdrew my hand from Farhan's grasp after realizing it was Fauzi's voice calling out.

Farhan quickly threw away his face wiping away his tears.

I was nervous and confused, like I was being caught by Fauzi.

I fell silent, overcame my nervousness and turned to look at Fauzi.

"Loh Salwa?" fauzi asked with a step closer towards me and Farhan.

"Fa, Fauzi.." I found it a little difficult to get rid of my nervousness, my words stammering. I don't want Fauzi to think that it's not about me and Farhan, I don't want Fauzi to be suspicious or even angry after this. I think Fauzi's gaze though was a little far away but it was enough to see Farhan clutching my hand just now.

"What are you doing here?" Ask Fauzi

"Haa?? Anu.." I'm a little confused.

"Why again bro klo not ngegosipin you" said Farhan cut my conversation.

"Well, your clay cave is seriously talking to Salwa" asked Fauzi suspiciously.

I was just speechless.I was at a loss for words, I still had a hard time thinking, it was hard to wake myself up and it was very difficult to act ordinary. Yes I feel a little afraid that until Fauzi is suspicious and misunderstood, I don't want anything to happen to my relationship with Fauzi as well as the relationship between Fauzi and Farhan.

I realized, even if I were in Fauzi's position, I would be angry.

"Ah, I've helped you to make the moment here, they said my shots are good" explained Fauzi.

" Thankyou bro, Salwa is here" he continued.

I was shocked to hear Fauzi say

" Is he suspicious? " Tanyaku in the Heart.

"I'm sorry, baby, I left you. I don't feel good for them to ask for help with the photo" Fauzi said in a regretful tone.

I'm just smiling

"You are doing good when I want to deny" I replied.

"Luckily this is the Farhan is still single, it's pretty there can nemenin you story.. Hahaha" Fauzi said with a laugh.

"Bayarr.." - Farhan Ketuss.

"eh, Lu thought my girl was petting Lu for a fee.. Gotta be grateful you can talk to my girl for a moment, this step moment. I'm not sure you can get a chance like this again if not" explained Fauzi bragging

Fauzi's words made me laugh.

"Yes very rare, yaudah there Lu go livein Lu girls again, let me again the calm so that this step moment is not once doang" said Farhan

"Keena ya Lu" Fauzi said

"Lagian Lu too.. Lu left behind Lu's chick here to pick up some old man.."

"Nobody else is here too, you doang right?"

"Well, do you think I can't take your girl what?" ask Farhan

Farhan's question surprised me, I turned my gaze to Fauzi, I saw his expression unchanged. Yeah, I thought Fauzi would be shocked or something, but..

"Take it if you can, you think it's as easy as ferguso? In whatever circumstances I am, I will not give my top priority, anyways if you can take it from me, do you think Salwa would like to be with Lu?" asked Fauzi with a laugh..

"well, I'm in checkmate." replied Farhan..

"Haha find sono chick, let Lu not ngenes-ngenes really his life" said Fauzi

"Bentaran, if the weather is good I'm looking for it.." Answer Farhan

"Eh, what did you call me?" Ask Farhan.

"Yes, almost forgot. Drinking water he said abis, I was the one who wanted to go buy but they still wanted to be photographed"

"yeah, they want a lot of real, want to drink but want to be photographed too.. Her nicotine is now rising to the level of yes"

"ckckck temen you also times.. It's hard to buy water"

"Yes where can I go alone Zi. Lu who was driving earlier, I fell asleep in the back, I know how to get out of here"

"Lu also did ngebo anyway, I throw Lu here will not be able to turn you"

"Yes, I'll take it.."

"Lu's sorry but there's no face of pain" said Fauzi ketus.

"Oh Yang, can you nemenin Farhan no? You know, I was driving so look at the road, right?" Ask Fauzi

"Me?" I ask you to point to yourself

"Sorry baby, I have no intention of bothering you.. But this is really just you I can ask for help.. Want to be Yang"

I just fell silent

"Excuse me Yang, I have no intention of bothering you" Fauzi said in a guilty tone.

I was still thinking, what kind of awkwardness would happen between me and Farhan if they were in a car together later.

"Ah no.. I asked them first for Farhan's nemenin" said Fauzi stepping towards the other friends.

"Eh, don't be.. Let me go" I replied impulsively

"Loh, what the hell did I say? I even nawarin myself" asked myself in my heart after realizing what I said.

"What's wrong, dear?" Ask Fauzi to clarify

I'm just smiling..

I don't know what I was thinking, why I suddenly agreed to go alone with Farhan after what happened.

"Am I crazy?? Ouhhh.." I lamented in my heart.

"Yaudah, be careful on your way, dear.." Fauzi said it reminded me..

"Be careful you bring my girl, take her car slowly" Fauzi said to Farhan.

Farhan stepped up, I just tailed behind him. I don't know what it will be like, there will be awkwardness and what kind of discussion. Are we just going to be silent, or continue the discussion that makes the heart a little unsettled.

"Oh, go the way.. The response was sober" I said in my heart as I continued walking towards the car..

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