Dear, Soul!!
Salwa Condition (2)
Today is just like the usual days. Where every morning wake up, Fauzi will ask about himself which aims to train the memory of his beloved wife. But even though every day, still occasionally his wife forgets who he is and also the status that binds them, making Fauzi must continue to explain everything.
Not bored and tirelessly guiding his wife, what he is doing right now for the woman he loves, is a testament to her true sincerity and love.
As usual, after finishing breakfast together, Fauzi will clean the house and some other work. Since his wife was no longer in good health, Fauzi took over all the housework, including cooking and house cleaning. Before Fauzi did his homework, he did not forget to ask Salwa, what his wife wanted. Fauzi did not want Salwa to feel lonely while Fauzi was doing homework. And according to Fauzi's advice, Salwa chose to watch television while her husband was busy with his work.
Fauzi left Salwa in the living room and began his activities. Until he finished, Fauzi again approached the wife who seemed to be enjoying the TV broadcast, seen from the sound of the TV whose volume he had raised.
Fauzi rushed back to his wife in the living room as he finished homework. But Salwa who previously sat sweetly on the sofa enjoying the TV service, now no longer in place.
“Sayang.. Where are you?” Call Fauzi.
Whenever Salwa was not in his sight, Fauzi would feel worried. He was aware of the state of his wife who often did impulsive actions, so for a moment he did not see Salwa where he had previously left, fear would approach him.
Fauzi walked in search of his wife's whereabouts, from the room, the living room to the kitchen. His steps were so hasty that the broom he had put down accidentally became like a ball after he kicked.
“Sayang..” Call Fauzi, if Salwa will answer his call.
His steps accelerated, until when his gaze found the figure of his wife, he ran as far as possible to approach Salwa who was doing something that harmed him.
“Astagfirullah.. Honey don't do thatu!!!”
Fauzi ran as fast as he could, approached Salwa and quickly pulled his wife's hand.
I don't know what else was on Salwa's mind, Fauzi was a little late to meet him, maybe his hand was already blistered at this time.
“What are you doing?? It's a danger..!!!”
Fauzi examined Salwa's hand which he almost dipped in boiling water. The hot taste of the boiling water, slightly felt on the palm of Salwa's hand.
“This is a danger dear, you can not enter your hands in boiling water”
“Danger??”
Fauzi. It seemed, Salwa lost consciousness and her ability to know simple things that should no longer need to be explained to her, that it was a dangerous thing.
“Yes dear, this is a danger. So you can't do that.”
Salwa stared fixedly at Fauzi by showing her confused expression.
“Why did you do that??” Fauzi asked, trying to find out the cause of his wife who almost made his right hand hurt.
“It.. In the water there are balloons.” Point Salwa at the pan as a container of boiling water.
“Honey, it's not a balloon. The bubble is a sign that the water is boiling. When you turn off the water, those bubbles will disappear.”.
“So I can't get the balloon?”
“Not balloon darling, it's bubble.”
Salwa looked back at the boiling water. Seeing the over-focus Salwa staring at the bubbles from the boiling water, Fauzi turned off the stove, so that the bubbles in the water slowly disappeared.
“Lost...” Salwa said and turned to look at Fauzi.
“Yes, the bubble is gone”
Salwa looked back at the water, she showed an enthusiastic expression, and it made Fauzi feel a pain attack. What his wife was showing at this time, gave him the fact that his wife's situation was getting worse.
“Sayang.” Fauzi placed both his hands on the shoulders of his wife who was shorter than him. “What you did earlier was dangerous, so don't do it again. If you put your hand in boiling water, your hand will hurt and it will hurt. So don't be like that anymore, because it's dangerous”
Salwa looked at Fauzi, then slowly smiled and nodded. Fauzi smiled back, and grabbed his wife pulling into his arms. A hug that grew ever closer to his dripping tears, aware of his wife's current condition.
Fauzi wiped his tears before he took off his embrace.
“Now, it's time to shower.”
Fauzi showed his wife his best smile, trying to hide the wound that had just been slicing her feelings.
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Fauzi sat pensively in the living room. Not once did he find his wife doing things that harm him, but still it became a very thoughtful thing.
Salwa is currently asleep. His disturbed psychological health also interferes with the time he has, such as sleeping at inappropriate times. But Fauzi did not hinder his wife whenever she felt sleepy and wanted to fall asleep, for her it was safer than his wife doing unexpected things.
The lighted TV broadcasts the news today, but it only lights up without someone watching it. Although Fauzi was sitting on the sofa in front of the tv, but his gaze was not directed and also his mind was chaotic, making him unable to focus on the 43-inch screen.
The sound of the bell rippling Fauzi's daydream, he got up from his seat and turned off the TV before walking out opening the door for someone who was pressing the bell from outside.
Her sweet smile and Father-in-law greeted from behind the door, making Fauzi quickly change his expression and give a reply smile to his parents.
“Mother, Father.. Come in.”
Fauzi invited his in-laws to sit down, he treated the kindly of Salwa's parents who were like his own.
“You okay son?”
“Iya, Bu” Reply Fauzi smiled.
“Thankful.”.
Her mother-in-law offered a rantang containing several practices and snacks.
“Mother, why bother like this.”
“No Kid, we know you are very busy taking care of the house and also Salwa. At least, when we come like this, your busyness in the kitchen can be slightly reduced” explained Father Salwa understandingly.
“Still Mom, Dad.”
A couple who was visiting his son's house, just smiled while nodding to get a thank you from his favorite daughter-in-law.
“Oh yes, which Salwa? Why not look”
“Sleep? In the afternoon like this?” Her in-laws' questions confirmed Fauzi's answer.
Fauzi nodded. “Lately, Salwa can't recognize the time, so she often sleeps at inappropriate times”
Salwa's mother and father breathed a sad breath hearing their daughter's condition was getting worse and worse.
“Im sorry Mom son, Son. His condition is like this, surely he troubles you”
“No, Mom. I did not feel at all difficult, I was fine to accompany Salwa through her rest period from the jobs that had been confusing her. I don't feel bothered at all or whatever it was”
“It's not like that son Fauzi” Father Salwa join the conversation. “Although you say you do not feel troubled, but still if the current state of Salwa is troublesome. You who used to not have to clean the house, now have to do that, plus you have to be extra in maintaining Salwa.”
“No Dad, until now I can still take care of Salwa while taking care of other things”
Salwa's father and mother are very grateful, have a very good son-in-law and care for his wife. Their only daughter is very lucky, because she lives from the ribs of an extraordinary man.
“Son, you deserve happiness and comfort. I didn't mean to think you were less able to take care of Salwa, I didn't mean that at all. It's just, I don't want you to hold something in your feelings just because you feel it's your responsibility. If you feel a little that Salwa is a burden in your life, you can return Salwa to us. The situation is like this, not only your dependents, so do not feel hesitant to return Salwa”
“What is this mom talking about??” Unknowingly, Fauzi's tone slightly raised. “I never considered Mother's daughter a burden at all. What I've been doing to Salwa all this time, it's not that I feel, it's my responsibility. Everything I do is because I'm happy and happy, to be the one whom I love to rely on. I want to be the one Salwa can count on, the one where Salwa can lean on. I want my embrace to be a warmth to Salwa, and I am her home. I asked Mom and Dad well, and I picked him up in good condition, so how could I turn him back in such a state. No, how can I restore my soulmate”
Salwa's father and mother could not deny the haru she felt hearing her son-in-law speak loudly about the feelings she had for their daughter. The gratitude and gratitude they feel because they have received the gift of a boy who has extraordinary sincerity in their daughter.
Salwa's mother moved from her seat, her tears began to spill as she approached her daughter-in-law, whose eyes were now in tears, and gave a mother a hug.
“I'm sorry Mom son, I shouldn't have spoken like that earlier. Thank you for loving your daughter so much like this”
Eyes that had been glazed due to the clear water that pooled in his eye sludge, now spilled and wet his cheeks. Salwa's father who saw his wife and daughter-in-law also had to wipe the tears in his eyes that had not been spilled.
“I'm sorry too, Mom. I've spoken in the same high tone Mother earlier”
“No, Nak” Ms. Salwa took off her embrace and returned to her seat while wiping her tears. “Mom knows how you feel, your tone is also because you reflex when you hear the words of Mother earlier”
Fauzi wiped away the tears that had spilled.
“I understand Mother's intent. I also want to be able to take care of Salwa and always be next to Salwa. I'm sorry that I was selfish, wanting to be the only one beside Salwa. You can stay here with me and Salwa, just don't bring Salwa, let alone ask me to return it to you. I can't, Bu”
“Iya, Son. I'm sorry for saying that. Mom won't be like that anymore”
The atmosphere enveloped their chatter. Salwa's father only fell silent by occasionally wiping his eyes, when he heard and witnessed the haru atmosphere involving his wife and daughter-in-law.
The slightly emotional atmosphere had finally passed. They started chatting with a calmer feeling and with a more relaxed chatter.
Hardware door sounds twisted followed by a sound produced by friction on the door hinge that is pushed.
Fauzi quickly twisted his body, realizing that his wife had woken up.
“Whom do you chat with dear?” Salwa asked who had emerged from behind the wall.
“Sama Father and Mother. How do you sleep, what nye.”
Unfinished Fauzi's question, he saw his wife standing pecking with her wet clothes.
Fauzi quickly got up from his seat, approached his wife and unceremoniously removed the grey t-shirt he had used to clean his feet and the floor where his wife's urine had seeped.
Fauzi, who was left wearing a singlet shirt, turned to look at Father and Mother-in-law who looked surprised at the condition of their daughter.
“Dad, Mother, I took a moment back” Fauzi said and quickly brought Salwa inside by carrying her.
There was no answer that Mother and Father-in-law gave, just a nod as a sign of giving permission to her daughter-in-law to bring their daughter who was wet from urinating on the spot.
The tears of both parents were no longer able to be contained. With his eyes he saw, how his daughter who was unconscious of the place and involuntarily urinated just like that. It shows how bad their daughter is at this time.
Salwa's deteriorating state, making his ability to live daily life decreases. Before, he simply could not get to know the time or the difficulty of starting something he wanted. But today, Salwa can no longer even feel that she wants to pee, so she urinates wherever she stands.
It is more commonly called bedwetting, usually occurring in infants, young children and the elderly. But now, Salwa's age, which is not included in it, also experienced bedwetting, which makes it clear that the situation is getting worse.
Fauzi quickly carried his wife to the bathroom located in their room. Bathing his wife and cleaning her body, he treated his wife like a little boy who was taken care of while wetting his pants.
His tears trickled down, he could no longer bear the pain of seeing what was happening to his current wife. He realized that the worse the mother of his child, which made him no longer able to show the rigor he had always shown to the woman he loved so much.
“Dear you why? How to cry?” Salwa asked as she stroked the face of her husband who was busy pouring soap into her body.
Fauzi lifted his head, looking at his wife with puffy eyes and tears still dripping.
“I'm okay baby.”
“What's the cry??”
“I cried because I was happy, happy because I could love you.”
Slowly Salwa smiled after hearing the words of her lying husband to cover up her feelings.
“I also love you” Salwa said by giving a sweet kiss on her husband's cheek.
Fauzi took his wife from the bathroom, dressed her in clean clothes and tied her hair to look more presentable. Not to forget, he gave a powder polish as well as lipstick, so that his wife's face looks more fresh. He did not want to show his wife's dull face to his Father and Mother-in-law. He wants, so that his wife still looks beautiful and still looks fine in front of his parents. So that a couple who are waiting outside it, not so worried to see the condition of their daughter.
“You are beautiful.” Praise Fauzi before taking his wife out to meet their parents outside.
“Iya?” Salwa asked smiling.
“Iya darling..” Fauzi gave a sweet kiss on his wife's forehead.
“I'm beautiful, because I'm your wife. I love you my husband.”
Fauzi's tears rekindled hearing sincere questions from his wife.
“Please baby, I love you” too
Yeah, whatever's happening to you right now, it doesn't matter. Whatever you can't do, let me do it. I will be your husband, father, mother, friend and teacher, helping you through this. I will be your support, I will be your memory and my mouth for you to be able to convey what you want to say.
Everything is okay. As long as you love me, that's more than enough baby.
I no longer care about your lost memory of me, once you remember me, it has become a great gift to you.
I love you, My wife.
