Dear, Soul!!

Habits...

Time pass. Some time ago exactly about five months ago from now I drove Fauzi to the airport. For almost a semester Fauzi spent his days as a student there. Fauzi's first month there he did not return because he was busy with the beginning of his studies. Although Fauzi could not wait for the beginning of his lecture but almost every time there was a call Fauzi just asked me the news to tell me new things he felt during his time as a freshman. Sometimes Fauzi called me in the middle of the night when he didn't have time to give me news all day, as a result of being tired instead of us telling each other even though we were both asleep even though the phone was still connected. But after walking three to four months of his lectures Fauzi so routine home every weekend.

As with Fauzi, Farhan also began attending college. Sometimes Farhan comes to pick me up at school like today.

"I'm ahead.." Text message sent by Farhan.

I rushed out after getting a message from Farhan.

"Where are you? Do you want to walk first or go straight home?" Farhan asked while putting on my seat belt.

"You didn't go to college.."

"Hem.. You are a habit, if asked yes answered first dear.."

I used to be uncomfortable when Farhan called me dear, even occasionally my brain impulsively thought Farhan was Fauzi when Farhan sent messages with affectionate calls. But lately I'm getting used to it as I'm getting used to my way out with Farhan. Perhaps because he no longer had to hide Farhan became more show of attention.

"Yes I asked, if you have a lecture, go straight home.."

"No one, just one hour of college today, introductions courses.."

"Oh yes, it is.."

"You want to walk first?"

"Can.."

Farhan drove his car somewhere he was going? Unlike Fauzi who always according to where I want so always ask where I want to go, Farhan more often ask my approval to go or not, the problem of Farhan's spot that determines.

"Fauzi got a picture of you this morning?"

"Nothing, maybe still the.." I haven't finished saying my phone rang a call came in from Fauzi.

Farhan was silent at Fauzi's call, he gave me time to pick up Fauzi's phone.

"Hello"

"Where are you, baby? I'm going home from school.."

"Yes, it's.."

"Where else?"

"Again on the way home.."

"Can you pick up my phone, can't you take a bike?"

"Ah that. I don't, I came home with the temen..."

"Temen who.."

"Yes my classmate.yaudah first yes, it's not good to talk to you when this is again the same friend.."

"Oh so. Yaudah tell me when you arrive.."

"OK..."

"Be careful, honey, I'm maturing the phone.."

Slowly I got used to lying to Fauzi about little things like this. LDRan like this makes it easier for me to lie to Fauzi. Fauzi's words to stay away from Farhan I said at the time Fauzi asked for it, in fact instead of away Farhan was getting stickier after me and Fauzi LDRan. I also do not know why, maybe because Fauzi is not there slowly I became comfortable with Farhan, my intention that used to always want to separate from Farhan was lost somewhere. I always enjoyed my time walking alone with Farhan, getting home from school picked up and taking a short walk or going out together on the weekends.

Of course besides hiding this from Fauzi I also hid this from Mom, because I like Fauzi very much obviously he would forbid me with Farhan if I knew my relationship with Farhan as a real one, she said, all I know is that Farhan is my friend and Fauzi's friend, so I used to tell Mom that Fauzi knew every time I went with Farhan. Even so Mother occasionally rebuked me. "Don't let there be a misunderstanding between the three of you later, because there is no friendship between a man and a woman without any feelings between them" said Mother. I just agree with what Mom said at that time.

As usual, Farhan always knew good. We enjoyed our time together, walking around after lunch while enjoying some small meals that we had bought earlier.

"I used to be able to just walk the same way as you do, but now this is no longer just something I can only imagine.." Said Farhan grabbing my hand.

"You like me so much.."

"That's how.."

"Since when?"

"What?"

"Do you like me?"

"Since when.. Ever since I shot you that time.."

I'm stopping..

"Yes, you have a crush on me.."

Farhan chuckled, then pulled me back and walked along.

"Emerang if you like to have to wait a while first it's new shoot.."

"You can't know me first or anything.."

"Hem.I think getting to know each other after that is better..."

"Kok I don't think that's it.."

"Haha yes because you think it's not that I ended up being rejected.."

"Yes anyhow you, know do not come-come talk like.. Yes, I did that time.."

"Hem.. Whatever the time was like, obviously now I can walk with you while holding your hand as it is now.." He said smile

I smiled back.

"I don't know what we're going to be like in the future, but it could be like this already makes me very happy Salwa. I know, you have dreams in the future with Fauzi, but I'll try my best, I'll try my best, I'm sure the soul mate's problem is in God's hands."

"But.." My words were cut off because my phone was ringing.

"Yes..?"

"Are you home?"

"Be no longer. It's me outside.."

"Where are you?"

"Not just the same road.. This is you keep calling, not going to college.."

"Kok you say it like that, instead of being happy if I'm on the phone.."

"That's not it, I mean because you're usually busy in college.."

"I'm calling you because I'm not in college right now, baby.."

"Yaudah in the middle of the night just call her, I'm outside.."

"Taa. but.."

"Udah ya. nelfon's new night.."

"Oh. uh yeah.. Yaudah be careful when you come home, don't be in the mood.."

"Yeah... Yes, yes.." I said disconnect the phone..

"Why you?" Farhan asked the dumb-ass who saw me a little annoyed.

"Don't know also, feel kayak in Satpamin aja same Fauzi, where the question continues.."

"Yes because you guys are LDRs and he's like that.."

"Kok you even ngebelain him anyway?"

"Eh, it's not love, it's me.."

"Udah ah. don't need to be discussed.."

"Yes, no need to talk about it anymore.. This will continue on what way to go home, already want afternoon.."

"Still walking.."

"Ashiaap madam, I just want you.."

"Ishh. What the hell are you..."

"Hehehe I just don't want to get angry you too.yaudah let's go again.." Farhan said holding my hand.

Sometimes there are times when I feel like I'm not myself. I'm usually annoyed that Fauzi's not being told turns to be upset that Fauzi keeps calling me. Sometimes I feel like Fauzi's phone is like a distraction that blocks my activities, especially if I'm on the same path as Farhan, I'm tired of having to look for excuses every time Fauzi calls me and asks me where I am and who I am, I feel like Fauzi is too introverted lately.

I don't know, I feel like Fauzi is the one who is glorifying or I'm the one who's starting to change..