Dear, Soul!!
Faiq (2)
After years of never getting word and never meeting Faiq, Fauzi was finally able to see Faiq right before his eyes. A friend who used to share a meal, share a story and always understand the circumstances. Someone who once made him feel so lost after leaving without saying goodbye and just left a letter so that Fauzi did not look for him.
But the present Faiq, was no longer the boy he knew before. The man in a black suit who was now sitting in front of him, was a mature minded man in the business field. A man who only has the same name and face of the person he knew before, but not with the nature, behavior and manner of speaking.
The two began to dissolve in conversation. It was too early for Faiq to tell her about his personal problems that had occurred in the past few years. But Fauzi did not mind that, also Faiq who remained comfortable telling stories. They seem to go back to that time, a time when they remained comfortable with each other in sharing.
Although their chat was as simple as Faiq in recent years, Faiq also did not tell up to the things that Fauzi did not know. Unlike their discussion of Sasa, the former Faiq. That is a discussion that is discussed in more detail. Discussion about the woman he used to meet every day, making Fauzi slowly back to feel the presence of Faiq, a figure of his friend who disappeared several years ago
“Not moved on?” Guess Fauzi.
Faiq simply fell silent, then smiled. He does not deny the truth that Fauzi said, nor the ability of Fauzi who is still the same as before, the ability to guess about him without him having to mention it. Yes, time may pass, circumstances may change, but a friend will still have his own instinct for his friend. It is no longer as deep as before.
“I read once ya”
“Actually not" said Fauzi lying, he did not want his friend who was hiding a part of himself that used to, felt failed in hiding his feelings. Although in fact, the problem of Sasa is not difficult to guess from a Faiq, considering that he loves his woman so much that he chose to leave home with all the luxuries and facilities in it, and chose to stay with him at that time. "I'm just guessing. So how? Have you ever contacted Sasa from that time?”
Faiq. “I'm too cowardly. I'm afraid my father knows and will hurt Sasa”
“So??”
“I'm quiet. I was trying hard at that time to be a great man in order to surpass my father and be able to do what I love. But the fact is, I collapsed in my wrong actions to make a decision in determining my life”
“What decision?”
“Well, let's just say it was the most stupid decision I've ever taken in my life” replied Faiq covering up his dark story. The story that even remembered him did not want, a destiny that he wanted to bury and erase.
Hearing Faiq's reply, Fauzi came to understand what he should not dig deeper. Faiq had restricted their chatter to something more personal about him. Yes, he is not the previous Faiq, who will tell him anything, to the core.
“So your feeling is the same Sasa?”
“Maybe.”
“Maybe?” Fauzi did not understand.
“I hesitate to say yes, but also can't say no”
“You mean?”
“Sasa that person who still reigns in my heart until now. I won't be able to escape him, he's too special. But I can't be sure how I feel either, because I don't know how things are going. Rational only, I try to keep my feelings from falling into a slump too deep if until later I know the facts about Sasa who has the adoration of the heart of”
Fauzi chuckled, with his upper lip on his back. His expression attracted the attention of Faiq.
Do you think your feelings can still be as fertile as they are now if you can handle your feelings as before. Omong kosor big..
Faiq looked at Fauzi with a confused expression, not understanding with the meaningful smile that Fauzi had just shown him.
“You sure you talk like that? Are you sure you can handle your feelings just fine if you squirm with Sasa with someone else? I'm not underestimating your efforts to be able to stand up to the reality, if for example Sasa already has a partner at this time. It's just, this is not something that you can handle easily even though you have prepared your heart from the dawn of”
“Experienced like..” said Faiq in follow up with his little laugh.
“Ya so..”
Fauzi just laughed, this time he was the one Faiq had guessed.
“After you say so, I get confused to have to direct how I feel now”
“If you still like yes keep it, keep chasing”
“I don't want to be a fool who chases without certainty”
“Do not want to be a fool or afraid of getting hurt?”
Faiq was silent for a moment hearing Fauzi's question.
“Trust both of them”
“Ck, you are quite a coward too”
“Hey.” Sela Faiq who does not accept her is said to be cowardly by Fauzi.
“What? The fact is that it is like that kan”
“Already.” Cut Fauzi. “If you still like, just keep it and chase. I guarantee his status”
“You mean?”
“I met Sasa at the hospital some time ago. He's also a fool like you now. Waiting for his loved ones but not coming”
“Ma-you mean?”
“I'll be clear. Sasa is still alone now. Last time I met, he seemed to still have feelings for you, he was a little nervous when I discussed you”
“Serious??” Tanya Faiq enthusiastically. The impression that was so cold perched on Faiq, collapsed instantly and turned warm. At a glance Fauzi could see, the figure of Faiq who used to be really visible now.
“Iya. It just passed a few days ago. I don't know if he's feeling now”
“About how long?”
“Not enough a month”
“Feelings are not easily changed. Let alone a month ago, even the last few years he has not changed, as you said” Obviously Faiq with a face sumringah.
“Ya could have been like that, but her feelings could have changed. That day when I met Sasa, there was another man who was the same he”
“Maybe his friend” said Faiq trying to positive thinking.
“Ya whatever you think”
Fauzi knew very well, his friend refused the possibility of Sasa who could have now turned away from him and chose to be with others. He was already focused on what Fauzi had said earlier, about Sasa's status as still alone, and probably still had the same feelings as before.
The happy face that had been emanating on Faiq's face, slowly dimmed and changed.
“Why?” Ask a pretty sensitive Fauzi.
“I don't know where to start if I want to meet Sasa, and I don't know what kind of chat will be. I left without saying goodbye well, and after a long time without seeing you, it must be awkward right?”
“I can make you meet Sasa without feeling awkward”
“Serious??” Faiq asked once again enthusiastically, with his floating smile.
Fauzi. “I could have asked Sasa to help me keep Salwa while I was working. So when we meet later with partners with projects that I want to submit to you, you can meet Sasa when he keeps Salwa”
“Serious??”
“Iyaa seriously. Ck, when do you want to ask seriously?”
“Ha ha ha, I'm just too happy.”
It was obvious in Fauzi's eyes, how the sudden Faiq went from cold to warmer after discussing Sasa. Faiq could not hide his happiness.
“Oh yes, what is the same Salwa, why should Sasa ngejagain Salwa and how do you relate to Salwa?” faiq asked considering that Fauzi had discussed that before.
The question Fauzi always avoids is how his wife is doing, but again he gets the question.
“Alright, Salwa is now my wife” replied Fauzi smiling, hiding the wound that re-entered her.
“Wah congratulations" Remark that shows how Faiq was happy with Fauzi and Salwa's marriage. Faiq knew very well, what kind of difficult relationship Fauzi and Salwa when Fauzi found Salwa had another lover at that time. "Your "complicated love finally ends at the wedding. So Salwa why should we watch?”
Although Fauzi had hidden his wounds, but Faiq's repeated questions about his wife's current state, made Fauzi no longer hide the pills. Sooner or later, Faiq will know.
With a heavy heart, Fauzi slowly told her about how Salwa was doing today. About Salwa's increasingly savage illness engulfing his wife's memory, erasing all the good memories he had before.
Not much different from the reaction of the people who previously told Fauzi about the condition of Salwa. Faiq was so shocked and half in disbelief. Faiq's eyes were teary to hear Fauzi's story about his wife who was suffering from Alzheimer's. Faiq who previously looked very scary with his mindset and gaze, immediately turned into a melow hearing the fauzi story.
“I'm sorry Zi, hope you strong”
Like everyone else, Faiq expressed his deep concern for Fauzi, knowing what was happening in his current life.
Fauzi just smiled, unable to speak anymore.
