Dear, Soul!!
Go, Marry!!
Although initially hesitant, but Sasa finally agreed to Azka's advice for a vacation at Azka's house. Sasa does not know how he should be when he arrives at Azka's house, but Azka always said that he was ordinary, because his family easily adjusted to the guests who came to their house.
“Bu.” Call Azka when entering her yard.
A middle-aged woman ran slowly welcoming the arrival of her son.
“Mother's son, finally home also”
A kiss of love lands on Azka's cheek from the woman who gave birth to her.
“How was your trip, son? Are you okay on the road?” Ask Azka's mother to Sasa.
“Iya Ma'am.” Sasa replied smiling.
“Oh, thank goodness. Yes, let's go in. Azika has cooked good food in”
Although timid, Sasa finally stepped foot into Azka's house. A house that is not too big, but the atmosphere feels very warm and comfortable. Some family photos hung on the wall, and some laughed neatly in neatly arranged frames on the table.
“Woahh... Father's daughter is coming.” Azka's amazing welcome Father gave to Sasa.
“Dad, don't bother. That's a kid, why recognized” Tegur Azika who came out of the kitchen still using an apron.
“Yes is okay. After having one daughter, his behavior does not resemble women.”
“Ha ha.. That's why a little mbak. Fulfill Dad's desire to have a full daughter, not the half-” Tegur Azka with his soft tone.
Sasa could not help but laugh at the noisy behavior of the Azka family with just a trivial matter. The Azka family really provided a comfortable and calm atmosphere for Sasa. Sasa who from childhood never enjoyed the comfort of family, finally could feel it in the middle of the Azka family.
“Each of you quickly marry Ka, so Dad can get a new daughter”
“What is the marriage stay? Said to find a kayak wife looking for new clothes” ketus Azka while sitting in an available chair in the middle room of their home.
“That's no Sasa..” Azika chirps while glancing towards Sasa.
Sasa was a little surprised to hear it, and Azka reflexively directed her gaze at Sasa, hoping that Sasa would not feel uncomfortable hearing what her sister said.
“Mbak.. If you say anything.”
“Lah, Ma'am just revealed Ka”
“Already, already.. You guys, Sasa just came to our house for the first time, and you welcome him like this. Already have.. Azika continue cooking, I'll watch Revano again. And you Azka, to the house of Mr. Rahman take in galangal” said Azka's mother tried to break up.
“Lah Bu, Azka is new nyampe.”
“You are not here to walk, time yes take galangal next to aja can not”
Azka put on her pouting face but still stepped her feet out, according to her mother's request.
Azka, who always looks mature in the eyes of Sasa, always seems to be carrying though humorous, apparently looks like a child if in the middle of his family.
Everything returned to their respective job positions, after the scolding of ‘Mother country’ in the palace at home Azka floated their ears.
“Pardon them yes Nak Sasa, they are all like that. Sorry if they make you feel uncomfortable”
“It's okay Mom, I feel fine” replied Sasa smiling.
“Azika is exactly the same as his father. He likes to joke and fuss here and there. Just so, his jokes sometimes like late”
Sasa just smiled listening to Azka's mother's words.
The Azka family provides its own comfort to Sasa. In addition to the Azka family who was so warm to welcome him, the atmosphere of the house and its surroundings are still fairly rural, very beautiful and pleasant. Makes Sasa completely forget the same life that he belongs in the next town.
The day that passed was so pleasant, that it made Sasa not feel that the night was almost here. Azika, who had been with them, finally had to go home and promised to come back tomorrow.
Azika lives in a separate house with her parents, because now she has a family. But the distance of her home and her parents' house is not far, making Azika very often visit her parents' house while her husband is working.
The day led by the sun, now changed when the sun began to return to its existence, and now the moon took over to illuminate the creatures on earth.
Azka's mother and father decided to take a break after they talked for a while when they finished dinner together. The eyes that had not yet been drowsy, made Sasa step out of the house, and sit in front enjoying the moonlight perched in the sky.
“You can get cold out here without a jacket” said Azka who suddenly appeared with a jacket and given to Sasa.
“Makasih Ka” Sasa showed his sweet smile and started using the jacket given by Azka.
“Sa, sorry my family if they talked. My parents are like that, they are very good at making people feel uncomfortable”
“No, I feel comfortable with them. They're humorous and fun”
“Thank God that you feel comfortable”
“Oh yes, Ka. Your dad doesn't work?”
“Kerj”
“But today?”
“Yes he took the holiday because he knew we wanted to come”
“Okay, I'm not good. Because of my arrival your father arrived.”
“Udah, relax. Dad skipped work because he wanted”
“But, still it feels like I'm hugging.”
Azka turned around and smiled looking at Sasa.
“My father is doyan skipped Sa, so our arrival is just a reason so he can skip” said Azka in the follow up with a little laugh.
Clearly what Azka said was not true. He just didn't want Sasa to feel bad if he knew that his father was right specifically taking a day off just to greet them.
“Sa.”
“Hem??”
“How do you feel? Is it better?”
“Not” Reply Sasa briefly. “It's not just better, but I feel really good now. Thanks Ka, for bringing me here and making me feel comfortable. I'm happy to feel this, this kind of family is something I've never experienced before” explained Sasa with his big smile, showing how happy he is at the moment.
The two dissolved in their chatter accompanied by moonlight. So many absurd discussions, which made them laugh freely, although occasionally they had to hold back their laughter considering that both parents Azka had rested now.
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About five days Sasa was at Azka's house, he was so enjoying the days he spent there. The warm Azka family made Sasa easily very familiar. Until the moment will go home, the heavy heart is very Sasa feel. But Sasa couldn't have stayed there any longer given he had the job responsibilities he had to do.
Sasa was waiting for Azka to come home. I don't know what disease is being suffered by Azka's friend, until it has passed almost two weeks and he is still in care now, so, make Azka always take the time to visit her friend before going home.
“Ciee cieee Ledek Olla with an expression that is quite annoying to see.
“Apaan?” Tanya Sasa did not take his eyes off the phone he was playing on.
“There are from home nih” prospective in-laws
“Apaan the hell La, I'm just another vacation. The goal is not at Azka's house, but at the tourist attractions that are there. I just sleep alone at Azka” house Sasa replied lying. He would get a longer mockery of Olla if Olla knew the truth.
“Yes but the same. Now you're back with Azka again right?”
“Iya, let me take home”
“Reason, definitely make an agreement right??”
Sasa just breathed a lazy breath hearing Olla who was very happy to tease him.
“Oh yes, La. You know Azka's friend who treated it?”
“Yang in VIP room?”
“Iya. What's he sick of? Feelings have been for days here”
“She has healed”
“Udah healed? Then why else is it still here?”
“Customs are the rich. She's hospitalized as a place of escape”
“Lah, I don't think there's anywhere else aja”
“But I agree the same idea. For people like them, it's just a sick reason that can make them run away from things they don't want. Yes, sick people may not be forced to do anything”
“Ya but right..”
“Do not do it again Sa. Every question you ask about him has an answer, and that answer will amaze you. This is where we can see the greatness of money”
“Ma-you mean.”
“Yes you guessed it yourself. The power of the money people is not only in tivi-tivi, in the world nayata also many who roam like that”
“Oh yes, yesterday someone came nyariin you”
“Who?”
“Cowok. I asked his name, was he even cheered home just knowing you did not enter”
Sasa could already guess who came that way. Sasa did not have many friends let alone family who could look for him here. Fauzi was just another person he knew, and left without answering questions and without introducing himself to it, not Fauzi's style.
“Those people come often??”
“Hem is good, but only yesterday he came in and asked. I always squirm her every day outside, yeah I guess she's just waiting for who that is. Yesterday he came in, and he started you. Who's she?”
“Ah? Yeah-yeah, yeah I don't know. I don't know who's getting”
“Ah yes.. Yaudah deh, I check the patient first”
“OK..”
Sasa was silent, his mind back playing around Faiq. It had been one week more than the time that he had decided to end his relationship with Faiq, and it had been one week as well that he had avoided meeting from Faiq.
During that time, Faiq never called her and simply sent her a message, indicating that she was waiting for Sasa to fix his feelings and return to her.
“Come home.”
Sasa gasped as Azka's sudden presence came as a surprise to him.
“Eh a-ayo.”
“What are you thinking? How to daydream?”
“Gak.” Sasa replied shaking with a smile.
The two set foot out to where Azka's car was parked. Sasa briefly swept the surrounding area with his gaze, in case Faiq's figure could be caught by his eyes. But apparently, Faiq who had been waiting for him for the last few days outside was no longer there.
The car that Azka was driving drove. Sasa's mind, which had been fixated on Faiq earlier, was now diverted after chatting freely with Azka. Azka could always distract him.
“Sa, want to go first not today?”
“Where?”
“To the beach yesterday?”
“You love it like the same beach” Sasa said a little smile.
“No also, I just wanted to go there”
Sasa nods to accept Azka's request not to go straight home, but to the place where Azka took her first to vent her pain and tightness.
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The swirling coastal wind swept across their faces giving a sense of comfort and peace. Some snacks they have prepared to accompany their afternoon on the beach.
Azka and Sasa were silent for a moment, Sasa was so enjoying the atmosphere of the beach, while Azka was being hit by anxiety and doubt.
“Sa.” Azka opened the chat. Although he hesitated, but he ventured to say what he wanted to say today.
“Ya?” Sasa.
“Your feeling to Faiq, how?”
“Hem.. I don't know.”
“You still love her?”
“If asked about still love, I would lie if I said no. Years of feeling I've been linked there Ka, so it's not easy to delete everything”
“So??”
“Yes, I let it go. I know I hurt myself to force my heart to change my feelings. Although I have decided not to go back with Faiq, but that does not mean I have to force myself to erase my feelings”
“You are sure not to go back with Faiq?”
Sasa nodded slowly. “I'm the same Faiq is very different. We will only hurt each other if we force ourselves to be together. What Faiq achieved all this time should be able to enjoy, not let go of everything just for me. As for me, I have to live my life as well as I am now. Enough in the past I always feel depressed, now I have to enjoy my life” explained Sasa.
“Lately, although your feelings are still there for Faiq but not the same, do you feel it as a burden?”
Sasa looked at Azka fixedly, it felt a little strange Azka asked such things. But Sasa still answered Azka's question which he thought was strange.
“Readily load too. Sometimes I feel sick every time I realize that Faiq is not the same as me anymore. But I have always strengthened myself by laying out facts about me and Faiq that are very difficult to unite. Besides, what I went through at your house five days ago, it was very helpful and made me comfortable”
“You're comfortable with my family?”
Sasa nodded. “I'm really-thank you for that Ka, if only you didn't take me there, I'm not sure it could be quieter like now”
Azka just smiled.
The two fell silent again, until Azka started the conversation again. What he wanted to say, has not been conveyed until now.
The sun is slowly falling. The color of the orange reflected pretty on the beach, giving a very pampering view of the eye.
“Beauty once.” Sasa muttered admiring what his sense of sight had captured this afternoon.
“Yes, that's why I invited you here, make this squirm.”
Sasa turned around and smiled at Azka. “You know once things are fun”
Azka just smiled getting compliments from Sasa.
“Hem, when will you be here? Sun starts sinking, soon dark”
“You want to go home?”
“You don't want to go home yet?” Sasa asked back. “It will be late afternoon, if you want tomorrow we can come here again”
Azka was speechless, slightly lowered her head making Sasa bewildered.
“Ta-but, if you still want to be here, it's okay. We can stay here longer” said Sasa who tried to understand seeing Azka who seemed not to intend to move from her place.
“I don't still want to stay here, I just said something that I haven't said until now”
“About what?”
Slowly Azka turned her head, looking at Sasa.
“Sa, I know you still love Faiq, and I know you won't be easy to forget Faiq. but..”.
“But??”
“But, don't you want to try to open your heart to others? Are you not interested in making others enter your heart to become new residents”
Sasa was speechless, looking at Azka with his confused expression.
“Sa, did you get me to be a new guest in your heart? Can I be a new resident in your heart?”
The puzzled expression that Sasa had been showing was now gone and turned to surprise when he knew the meaning of Azka's words.
“Ma-you mean??” Sasa tried to clarify, to ascertain what he was thinking now.
“I don't want to make you think about what I'm going to say later. I know that I was wrong to say this while your heart still belonged to someone else. But I don't think I'd be able to get into your heart just waiting for you to empty your heart first. I should be able to become a new occupant to repel the old inhabitants”
Sasa was still speechless, he did not know how to respond to Azka's statement just now. Although Olla often mocked him with things like this, but Sasa never thought that Olla's words that had a joke turned out to be true.
Azka stared fixedly into Sasa's eyes, looking at Sasa seriously.
“Come married”
The cornea of the eye is getting wider. Did my hearing not catch me wrong just now???
“Me-married?”
“Iya. We are no longer teenagers, our age should be married, right? So I don't ask you to be your boyfriend anymore, but be your husband”
Azka spoke by showing her serious expression.
“Come to marry, Sa”
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