Dear, Soul!!

Cheated

Fauzi really accompanied me tonight. Mom and Dad just got home after delivering some food and just stayed with me for a little chat with Fauzi. Mom wanted to stay with me tonight but somehow Fauzi sulked until Mom gave him permission to stay with me tonight.

Fauzi's parents stopped by to see me for a moment. His carvings were only my parents and Fauzi who would worry about me it turned out that Fauzi's parents were no less worried as well.

"You're not sleeping? It's late.."

"I want to get you first.."

"Making me sleep can be.."

"Son, if you're sleeping, I'm sleeping too"

"But you haven't had a break since.."

"I can't rest Salwa either, my mind isn't calm writhing you like this.."

"You're going to hear yourself, the doctor said that if I'm okay, I just wait for my infusion fluid to run out and recovery, you don't have to think of me like that.."

"Salwa, do you know how I feel about you? This kind of worry is not me who set it, it is like this if you look at your situation like this.."

"But you.."

"Udah. You sleep, it's late at night. You need to rest a lot to heal quickly. If you go to sleep, I'll sleep too.."

"When I sleep, you sleep too, right?"

Fauzi nodded and smiled sweetly.

"Now you sleep..." Fauzi said while kissing my forehead..

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I don't know how long I slept, because the atmosphere of the hospital different from my room made my sleep a little disturbed. I glanced at the wall clock hanging beside my room TV, it was 2 in the morning.

Fauzi fell asleep in the chair and put his head on the edge of the cage where I lay.

"His neck might hurt if you sleep like this, why don't you sleep on the couch.." I muttered while stroking Fauzi's hair. "I'm sorry.." I said while rubbing his cheek.

Waitaminute! Wet cheeks??

I looked closely at Fauzi's face, and I clearly saw Fauzi crying while he was asleep. Is he having nightmares?

I tried to get up, and took a piece of tissue placed on the side table where I was lying. I rubbed Fauzi's face, drying her tear-soaked face.

"Eng..."

Fauzi woke up from his sleep, maybe he was disturbed because I touched him.

"Well, are you awake, baby?" Ask.

"You crying?"

"Ah me?" Fauzi wiped the rest of his tears that I had not had time to clean all.

"Why you?" Asking me worried.

"I don't papa, you're sleeping again.." He said he was trying to help me lie back down.

"Son.. I don't want to sleep anymore.."

"But baby, it's only 2 in the morning.." Fauzi said after looking at the wall clock.

"You why Ozi? There's no way your water's gonna come out.."

"Hem.. I'm just having a nightmare.."

"Custom, right? Salwa must have also been if the nightmare to cry.."

"You sleep not reading prayer.."

"Hehe may, but I'm happy.."

"Kok happy.."

"Because it's just a dream, I've woken up like now the bad thing in my dream is gone.."

"What dream is it?"

"Hem.anything is a nightmare, which is clear now the fact that you are still with me" he replied with a smile.

"The reality is like that? So your dream?"

"Reverse from the present reality.."

"I'm missing?" Ask doubt.

"You're leaving me.. Don't talk about it, the fact is that you still have me.." He smiled but again his tears flowed.

"Oze.. You cry again.."

"Haha I also don't know, these are tears why come out anyway.." He said wipe away his tears.

"The dream is that bad?"

Fauzi nodded with his tears still dripping. "Losing you hurts Salwa a lot, even if it's just a dream. So please whatever your reasons don't disappear from my life"

Between being happy and sad because of guilt, I unconsciously cried to hear what Fauzi said.

I was happy to hear Fauzi say that, it seemed to show how much he felt towards me but it also scared me even more. The more Fauzi feels about me, the greater his resentment towards me if he knows the truth, as he once said.

"Have no thought, I won't make your nightmare come true" I said, trying to calm Fauzi down even though what I said now was very contrary to what I did.

Fauzi grabbed me and hugged me. "Thank you.." Said lirih.

Fauzi tried to calm her feelings for a long time. I don't know what the dream was like just hearing Fauzi's words because the dream made me realize my mistake and made me think to really end my relationship with Farhan.

Time showed at 3am and we had not fallen asleep yet. Fauzi opened the fruit for me while telling me the beautiful things we have been through together. As good as it was my relationship until Fauzi could really tell the beauty of our relationship.

"Owii..."

"Hem?" He answered without looking at me for focusing on cutting the fruit.

"How do you think cheating is?" Ask me slowly

"cheating? why the same cheating?"

"How do you think that is?"

"Yes not a good thing.. Everyone knows that cheating is not a good thing.."

"If, for example, because of what?"

"Hem.. There's no such thing as cheating because you're forced to.." Fauzi said as he fed me the cut fruit. "People cheat because they want to, not because of coercion. If the coercion you mean is for example the circumstances that make him who must have two people by his side it is not cheating on his name because he should say to his lover that he should have someone else by his side and that because of circumstances"

"I mean.."

"You know that cheating hides others from our lovers, well because you say for example because of forced yes he should have said the same partner first. An example, dear, baby, get used to someone who wants to menggelematinin someone by having to marry him when already have a wife yes it means he must say first with his first wife and it is not cheating his name because he said and instead of honking his wife both from his first wife"

"I don't mean such a situation, but for example forced because it needs someone else to make him.."

"That's called selfish darling... If the reason he cheated because of what he wanted could not his girlfriend follow so he went with other people who can obey his will that his girlfriend can not be called greedy. As a couple we must be able to accept the good of our partner, the less and more of our partner. We should not be selfish like that because we ourselves are not necessarily able to fulfill what our partner wants. Couples complement each other, not men complement women or vice versa.." Fauzi.

Fauzi's explanation was like slapping me, there was a painful feeling in my heart. The way Fauzi said it was like showing me how bad I was. Yeah, I can't accept Fauzi's lack of money for not always being there for me where he has to go to college far away.