Dear, Soul!!

Ambiguous..

From the beginning I knew that this was wrong but I still continued to make it even more complicated. I who initially always feel disturbed by this love triangle relationship somehow easily defeated by my own feelings. I know that saying my feelings for Farhan meant making a boomerang for myself, but I still said it under the pretext of keeping Farhan by my side while there was no Fauzi.

How selfish I am, how I cannot help myself. I myself basically do not understand my feelings for Farhan, just because it dispels my loneliness I ask Farhan to remain with me by saying my feelings. What I found was an increasingly complicated relationship.

As aware as I am currently about my double fault, it will not be able to be fixed easily even though I want to fix it. Asking Farhan to end this won't be easy.

Farhan retreated a few steps away from me hearing Fauzi knock on the door and ask for permission to enter. I don't know what Fauzi has in mind right now and what will happen after. I was just trying to be ready to accept whatever was going to happen in the future even though I was so afraid to see Fauzi's response. I'm not ready to lose Fauzi. Especially after hearing Mom's words made me think more and more.

Fauzi walked over to me..

"Oh there's Farhan?" Said Fauzi throwing his gaze at Farhan who was standing slightly away from me. "Well, why are you standing there?" Ask Fauzi.

"Wait.. That means Fauzi just realized that Farhan's in this room?" I thought I was getting confused by this situation. I threw my gaze at Farhan, Farhan also looked confused there.

"Yes, what else if you don't cool down Salwa.." Farhan replied a little nervously.

"Have you been here?"

"From here? Fauzi asked what that was because he didn't know or how?" I'm getting confused.

"From earlier.." Farhan replied in confusion as he approached Fauzi. "Lu didn't see me here?" Tanya Farhan made it clear.

"When?"

"Yes when first Lu came in.."

"Oh Lu's been around since?"

Farhan frowned, his confused expression he could not hide.

"Lu really didn't see me??" Ask Farhan once more to clarify.

Fauzi just shook his head.

Hufftt was relieved, if Fauzi was unaware of Farhan's whereabouts how could he have heard my conversation with Farhan, ah I was just worried that it wasn't clear earlier. Kulirik Farhan, it seems like he also felt a little relieved.

"Why? how to breathe.." *breathe.

"Well, can't you breathe?" Answer Farhan.

"Well, I mean.."

"Lu's here to cool down Salwa is busy talking about me breathing again?" Cut Farhan to divert the discussion.

"Ah, yes too.." Fauzi scratched his head.

"It's late tomorrow, you go to college and you're still here?" My toot.

"Why worry about my college, this is how you feel.."

"Yes, but your college.."

"Don't think about it, I'll take care of it again tomorrow. I didn't go to college any closer either.."

"Why?"

"Because take care of you first.."

I glanced at Farhan. Farhan was also planning a college leave to accompany me while in the hospital but if Fauzi was here to accompany me Farhan would not be able to stay here to accompany me.

"What is your college?"

"Hem.argain do not need to think about it. now you just focus first to heal.."

"But.."

"I won't go back there if you haven't healed, so if you want me to take a lecture back you have to get well.." Fauzi.

I just shut up..

"Why did you get into an accident like this?" Fauzi asked while fixing my disheveled hair. "When Mom said you were in an accident I was shocked, luckily there was a ticket so I could just go home and squirm you, so worried about me, I didn't realize Farhan was here.."

"So out of concern that Fauzi was unaware of Farhan's whereabouts? Thankfully.."

"Some way to not realize that I've been here since.." Ask Farhan

"Yes how else do I think only Salwa, Salwa squirm like gini make me can not be careful about the situation even my parents until I forget to tell you.."

"Big body like this but you don't see it.."

"The name is worried too. Uh but Lu's still here? Is this Maghrib Lu not back?"

"Excuse me?"

"Because?"

"Yes Lu has been here since, this is Maghrib Lu has not returned?"

I looked at Farhan, gesturing him to go home first Fauzi would suspect that Farhan would continue here.

"Yaudah I went home first, you're here too.. Salwa, I'll go back.."

"Yes.." Answer's short.

"Eh Farhan's.." Call Fauzi. Farhan who was at the door turned back.

"Why?"

"Gue just wanted to say thank you for nemenein Salwa earlier.."

"Hem.." Farhan replied with a small smile and then passed.

Fauzi was silent for a moment as to what he was thinking, his eyes empty just sitting down on the side chair of the cage where I was lying.

"Ozi-fi.." I try to break the silence.

"Eng? Huh yeah?"

"Why you?"

"Ah me? I'm not papa.." He said smiling thinly.

"Silence.."

"I'm just worried about you.." Fauzi replied while caressing my cheek. "Would you like to eat?"

I'm shaking.

"Oh yeah.." Fauzi replied then again daydreaming with his empty gaze.

I didn't know what Fauzi was thinking until he ignored me in front of him, like he wasn't the Fauzi I knew before.

"You're not back?" Ask again. I don't know what to do, secretly like this feels awkward.

"Why? You're not happy I'm here?"

"You're not like that, it's already night.."

"I'm here to make you.. I'm with my mother's permission"

" And my mother?"

"Well, come here soon, why? Want me to call you now? You need anything? Just tell me.."

"Son, I'm just looking.."

"If anything says the same to me.."

"Yes.."

"Rapidly healed baby, I don't like to squirm you like this.." Fauzi said he held my hand slowly because the intravenous needle of the chateter was still on my back.

"I want it too.."

"Why do you think this is? You don't usually cross the road until you don't look around"

"I also don't know, the last thing I remember I was too happy about the perfume I just bought"

"Hem.. Next time do not be like this again, whatever is around you ignore first if you want to cross the road"

"Yes.." Answer smiled.

"You rest, I'll wake up when you come.."

"I'm not sleepy, you're the one who fell asleep first. You haven't had a break since you got here.."

"I'll sleep later, wait for you to fall asleep first. I'll stay here anyway.."

"You're staying here?"

Fauzi. "I want to keep you until you're completely healed".

I just smiled in response to Fauzi.