Dear, Soul!!

Haru

I understand that Fauzi still can't give me the warm behavior that I used to, but I'm very grateful even though Fauzi's cold attitude is still very considerate of me.

Fauzi bribed me without looking at me and said nothing at all.

"Zi, here.."

His friend who had gone somewhere back to bring a paper bag wrapped in a plastic bag with a little wet.

"Yo, thank you Ri.."

"Yaps.. I'll go to the room first.." He said he was walking on his tiptoes because of his wet feet.

Fauzi continued to bribe me until it was over.

"Wear this, you can catch a cold if you wear wet clothes until morning" he said while handing over the paper bag that his friend had brought. "I went inside to prepare a room for you, tonight you stay here first, it rains outside and maybe the flight will be delayed because the weather is not good. I'll call Mom.." Fauzi said with his attitude still cold.

"Ma thanks.."

Fauzi stepped in leaving me alone in the living room, I waited for him to finish preparing the room. Not long after he came out.

"I've prepared the room, come in and rest. Tomorrow morning I'll take you to the airport"

"No, I don't want to go home"

"Then what do you want?"

"Ozi.I'm sorry, I know I was wrong I promise I won't do it again.." I could not hold back my tears.

"It is Salwa, I will not speak of it again.."

"I'm here to apologize, Ozi, I want to fix everything.."

"What do you want to fix Salwa? Everything is broken, my feelings and my love are all falling apart"

I stood up to Fauzi, the blanket I was using fell on the floor.

"This once, please forgive me once.."

Fauzi was silent, his eyes began to glaze over.

"Please give me another chance"

"It's night, sleep.." Fauzi diverted the conversation.

"Oze.. I have to how can you forgive me?"

"Nothing.."

"Tell me, I'll do whatever it is you're sorry for me.."

Fauzi looked up, looking at me sharply. Since I've been here, this is the first time Fauzi has looked at me.

"Go away and don't talk about this again with me.."

"O Ozi.."

"I want to calm down Salwa, I'm trying to improve my feelings so please don't come over to mix up my feelings anymore.."

"Ozi I just..."

"I couldn't stand Salwa myself" he said cutting off my conversation, his tone starting to rise. "I can't stand my own disappointment, I can't stand the pain of my feelings. I don't know how else to do it.." His eyes that had been glazed earlier now shed tears that had been held back by his eyelids.

"I'm going to get better, I'm not gonna fuck you anymore.."

"You know Salwa too, I love you so much, I love you so much whatever you want I will always try to fulfill it. I'm happy to do what makes you happy, but why do this to me? I'm lacking what Salwa?" Fauzi's emotions broke. He who had been standing up straight fell down on the floor with his tears continuing to drip even though he seka many times.

"Fauzi forgive me.." I said come over and hug him. Fauzi didn't avoid me like before, she let me hug her.

"It was very difficult for me to lose you, it was very difficult for me to ignore and ignore you but my broken feelings, my sick heart really could not accept your treatment of me" he said with his voice starting to hoarse.

"I'm sorry Ozi, I won't repeat it again.." I said tightening my arms, my wet clothes made Fauzi's clothes wet too.

"No. I didn't break it anymore, so please give me your trust once.." I took off my arms for a moment, held onto Fauzi's cheeks to reassure her and hugged her back. "I don't want to lose you Fauzi, I want to always be Salwa who has you"

"Don't be like this anymore.." Fauzi said kindly hugging me.

There was a sense of relief and haru I couldn't describe, I kind of regained what I was trying to fight for.

"Yes I promise Ozi.." Cry broke.

"I love you so much Salwa, I love you so much.." Fauzi tightened his embrace.

I who was cold for a moment did not feel that cold anymore.

"me too.. Me too.."

Long enough I hugged Fauzi and Fauzi hugged me to vent our equally raging feelings. The cry that had broken slowly subsided, the irregular heartbeat slowly began to regularize as the feeling became calmer.

I took off my embrace, looking fixedly at Fauzi.

"Ozi, it's Salwa again, right? It's Salwa's property, right? Ozi stays the same Salwa, right?" I asked for a streak to make sure again.

"Whatever anger I am, no matter how disappointed I am, I will not be able to lose you..." The answer.

I'm so moved to hear that.

"Ja So we don't break up, do we? That wasn't yesterday, was it??" I stammered with a voice that began to roar and my eyes returned to tears.

Fauzi pulled me into his arms.

"I'm sorry for breaking up, sorry for getting carried away that day, I'll still be your Fauzi.."

"Ozii.. huhu" My cry broke again, but no longer the cry of the painful tears, no longer the cry of fear of loss but the cry that I could not contain because of happiness and a feeling of relief.

"Hey.why cry again.." Fauzi asked even though his voice was still a bit raucous.

"I'm just gonna cry.. Hu hu hu uh.. I love Ozi, Ozi is still the same me, I don't want to lose Ozi hu hu hu" I don't think I can stop crying.

"I also don't want to lose you Salwa, my feelings yesterday were too painful until I couldn't control my feelings and think clearly" Fauzi tightened her embrace.

"I'm sorry that Salwa was yesterday, I won't be like that anymore, I promise. I don't want to lose Fauzi again, hu hu hu" I vented all my feelings of lethargy by crying all over.

"Have it, don't cry anymore.." Said Fauzi taking off his embrace and helping to wipe away my tears that wet all my cheeks.

"Owii..."

"I'm here Salwa, I won't..." Fauzi stopped his words, he touched my cheek and his hand moved to check my forehead. "Your body is hot.." Fauzi said in surprise.

"Ah me?" I'm holding my forehead. "No, it's not hot.."

"Your body is hot Salwa.." Fauzi guided my hand to my forehead once more and then directed my hand to hold her forehead to compare my body temperature. It seems like my body temperature is really higher than Fauzi's body temperature.

"I just have a fever, it's not.."

"What's a fever, my God, why did I forget that your clothes were still wet, you must be cold.." Fauzi said he quickly grabbed the eucalyptus oil and then again smeared it to my hands and feet.

"Now change your clothes and rest, I've prepared a room for you, I'll sleep in the next room so if you need something call me.."

"I'm fine, my body just hot for a little while and..." My vision was a little blurred, I tried to clarify my vision, my eyes I blinked "And soon my body temperature must drop" I continued.

"Oh, don't talk anymore. The dressing room keeps resting, I'll make you some warm green tea, and I'll take you to your room..."

Farhan grabbed the piper bag and gave it to me, helping me stand up but..

BRUUUUKKKU...

"Hey Salwaa's..."

My vision began to be unclear, Fauzi's voice was also vague until I finally couldn't hear Fauzi's voice anymore, my consciousness was gone.