Dear, Soul!!
De Javu's.
I accompanied Fauzi around the park, there was a lot that Fauzi told me starting from his daily life there lately to his lectures and some of his killer lecturers and friends. I only occasionally responded to Fauzi's story with a smile.
Yes, I am currently accompanying him for a walk and listening to his story but my mind is not focused, either my mind is walking around where now left my body emptyly accompany and hear the story of Fauzi.
I was thinking about what Fauzi was hiding from me right now. True Fauzi occasionally told me about his daily life there as a student, but today he is more aggressive to tell stories than ever before that are more interested in discussing my daily life than his daily life there. Fauzi was like someone who was hiding something while trying to keep looking fine.
Despite my thoughts about what Fauzi was hiding, another factor that kept my mind from being in place was Farhan. Since yesterday I always thought about Farhan, I always wanted Farhan to tell me I always wanted to know what Farhan was and what he was like.
"Why you?" Fauzi asked who saw me unfocused.
"Ah.. I'm not papa?" Answer me
"But you're not consensual.." Ask Fauzi.
"Ah, maybe I'm just a little tired" I replied.
"From now on you look limp and always watch your phone.."
I spontaneously slipped my phone in my pocket.
"Are you waiting for someone to be told or someone else to wait for you? you have another appointment.."
"Ah? no, I'm supposed to order a package online and I'm waiting for the courier to call me.." Said lying.
"Oh that's it. I thought you had an appointment or something.."
"Nothing.. Yaudah let's go ahead.." I said smiling as I wrapped my hand around Fauzi's.
"Ah what am I doing with Fauzi as I am today. But to be honest I really thought" My mind.
Fauzi just smiled and followed me wherever I pulled him.
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I took a long walk with Fauzi until Fauzi finally drove me home and took time to talk to Mom before coming home. Fauzi sent me a message that he took off this afternoon.
"Hem... I'll be a student in a year, too.." Mumbles.
Cellphone's ringing.
"Where are the streets?" Farhan asked when I answered his phone.
"Yes as usual.." Answer me
"Fun?"
"Lumayan, but I keep thinking of you.."
"Why? Tumben you think the same way I fit Fauzi again, instead of usual you even forget the same as me if it's the same Fauzi.."
"Not knowing either.."
"I'm happy.."
"Why?" I'm confused.
"At least now I'm still there even if you walk the same way as Fauzi.."
"Hem.. the question?"
"Yes.I feel more meaningful now.hehe.."
"Hem. I'm also happy that you're happy.."
"Night, there sleeps.."
"Sister then?"
"I have to design an activity proposal first, the sooner I finish the sooner I have time to meet you.."
"Jaudah don't force it.."
"It's okay.."
"Thank you for knowing me.."
"Hem.it's supposed to be like that.."
"Okay, get some rest, I'll take the phone.."
"Yes.."
Telephone disconnected..
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As usual I went to school on a bicycle, living my days as a third-grader who will soon be preoccupied with additional lessons to prepare for the School Exams and National Exams. I am still Salwa who is living my daily life with the relationship of Long distance relationship with my lover Fauzi but also in a serious relationship with my other lover Farhan.
I always realized how bad I was as a woman who shared her feelings with two men. It's just that I can't take off any of them either. I used to think about how a man who only had one heart could love more than one, and I finally know now that he has experienced it.
Fauzi called me every time he was empty, and so did Farhan. Since a week ago Farhan and I no longer met because Farhan was busy with his campus activities, he only gave me a few phone calls and text messages. I can only wait for him until his work is done. Well I was waiting for him, on the other side of me also longed for the time I wanted to be together.
Today Farhan promised to see me after several times cancelling his appointment due to his busy activities. I was waiting for a message from Farhan while trying to stay focused on the teacher's explanation in the last hour of the lesson.
My phone that I made vibrating mode because it was in a vibrating lesson hour, a text message from Farhan.
"Today I'll pick you up.." A short message sent from Farhan
"Can't you? college sister activities?"
"Well, I'm finished with the rest of my friends who will finish it.."
"Okay, after school I'm waiting for big brother.."
"Say the same teacher to quickly mengelesainnya learning, because his girlfriend Salwa is again kangen and impatient to meet.."
I grinned to myself reading the text message Farhan sent..
"What's Salwa?" Tegur the teacher who is teaching.
"Ah.. It's okay, Mom.." I replied a little embarrassed to see the friends who set their sights on me.
"Please refocus.."
"Good Mom.." I said put my phone in the drawer.
"Ckckck.. said the same to Mr. Fauzi, if the lesson time is not interrupted.." Whisper Nina sitting next to me. Ah he thinks Fauzi sent me a message. In Nina's mind who else would send me a text message that would make me smile if not Fauzi
"Who..? Haha yes.." I whispered to Nina..
I grabbed my phone again and sent Farhan a reply.
"I'm being rebuked again.."
"Who's the guy?"
"The same teacher who teaches.."
"Haha sorry-sorry, I became disturbing. end of what else, anyway kangen-kangennya same you, nahan kangen was hard to know"
"Well, I'll marry big brother again, I have to focus on the lesson again before being reprimanded.."
"okay.. Happy learning Salwaku.. I miss you, I love you and I can't wait to see you.. 😘" The text messages Farhan sent with emoji tammmaterial made me even more blushing.
"OKAY.."
I put my phone in the drawer and tried to refocus on the lesson.
This incident is like de javu, like it is not foreign and has happened before. I tried to remember whether this event ever happened or just my memory and after I tried to remember it was true. I was also once reprimanded by the teacher who was teaching because he was busy replying to Farhan's message. It happened a year ago where I asked Farhan to accompany me to the bookstore.
