Dear, Soul!!

Still been?

Faiq ended his long story with a deep breath. He looked down, unable to look at Sasa who had listened carefully to his story, he told me all about him that had happened in recent years, no exception bad stories that have smeared traces of his steps until now.

“I'm bad isn't it?” Faiq asked Sasa still unable to lift his face to look at Sasa.

“Iya” replied Sasa briefly, which made Faiq even more unable to stare at Sasa. “Then why do stories like this the same as me if you know this is your bad story”

“I just don't want to hide anything from you, including bad things about me”

“Why? I know or not your bad thing, it has nothing to do with me. I just want to know, the reason you left me without news and without saying”

Slowly Faiq raised his head, looking at Sasa who had been staring at him.

“Sa, I told you everything just like you. Did you not feel anything?? I did everything to be successful so that on a day like this, I could again ask you to be..”.

“Time is long gone Faiq. We were the old.”

“So you don't love me? You have absolutely no more feelings for me even though you know that I still love you very much??”

Sasa fell silent to the successive questions from Faiq. He could not deny his feelings which still gave Faiq the throne in his heart. Even a long time passed could not make him forget his first love.

Sasa was aware, of his feelings that sooner or later must have known Faiq, considering he had told Fauzi about his feelings. But it was very difficult for his heart and mouth to synchronize acknowledging what was in his heart. This was the first time they had met after parting ways for several years, and he had no readiness to acknowledge what was in his heart at the moment.

“Why silence? Do you really not feel the same as me, Sa?”

Faiq asked with a slight urge to ask for an answer.

“Your father doesn't like sam..”

“No, no.. My father didn't dislike you until he asked me to kill you first. Dad just wanted me not to spend my youth time dating, my dad just wanted me to succeed. And now that I've succeeded Sa, my father no longer forbids me to establish a relationship with anyone”

Sasa was only speechless hearing Faiq's long explanation. He could not deny the happy feeling of hearing what Faiq said. How not, the man who is still enthroned in his heart, also still has the same feelings as him even though they have been separated for a long time.

“Sa, you really no longer feel the same as me?” faiq asked again to clarify what Sasa had previously said

“What's really why?? There's no reason why I should still love you?”

Faiq was downcast with his shabby face, and it even looked funny to Sasa.

“Yes, but I want you to still love me. Like me that.”

“What's it?” Tanya Sasa cut off the words Faiq.

Faiq raised his head, looking at Sasa who looked so beautiful in his eyes.

“I should not say this again the same person who no longer has the same feeling I” replied Faiqu lesuh.

Sasa was a little upset to get Faiq's answer which did not match his expectations. He hoped that Faiq would answer out loud about his feelings, but Faiq retracted his words.

“Oh.”

Sasa turned his face away, trying to hide the annoyance that had begun to approach him after getting a desperate answer from Faiq.

“Sa, I still really love you” said Faiq expressing his feelings even without passion. “I still can't forget you”

The feeling of annoyance that had approached him immediately disappeared after hearing Faiq's confession so deep. Sasa still turned his face away by trying to hold back a smile due to the happiness he got.

“I wish you could do the same. But I also understand what you're saying. It's only natural that your feelings have changed, we haven't seen each other in a long time. And again, it is not a reason that requires you to make love again the same I”

Sasa turned to look at Faiq, a feeling of annoyance came back to him hearing Faiq who was increasingly sounding desperate.

“I should be aware and know that your feelings must have changed”

“Since when did I say that my feelings changed?” Tanya Sasa stared fixedly at Faiq's face.

Faiq quickly raised his head, directing his gaze at Sasa who had already highlighted him first with a gaze that Faiq did not understand with the intention of the gaze.

“Ka-you did not say that your feelings changed, ta-but your words..”.

“I was just saying that there is no reason for me to like you”

“i-that means the same as you-if your feelings have changed”

“Who said it was the same?”

Faiq looked at Sasa with his confused look. He did not understand the meaning of Sasa's words which seemed to contradict the statement he had previously said.

“Ya is not the same, but if you say there is no reason to like me anymore, it means you don't like me anymore

Sasa began to blatantly after he was filled with annoyance due to Faiq who looked desperate in expressing his feelings, while he was still very hopeful Faiq would say his feelings with a fiery spirit.

Faiq smiled broadly at Sasa's words, he began to catch what Sasa had said just now.

“Ja-so you still like me??” Faiq asked enthusiastically with a bright smile that expanded on his face.

Sasa did not give an answer to Faiq's question, he just stared at Faiq with a thin, ornate smile on his lips.

“Sa, answer me. So you still feel the same? Do you still love me? Still in love??”

Faiq's consecutive questions launched, he was very impatient waiting for Sasa's answer. But the answer he had been waiting for was not given through words, only a sweet smile that did not give affirmation as an answer to Faiq's question.

“Sa, right?? You still love me, right??” Once again Faiq asked urgently.

“A-me...”

Not yet Sasa finished his answer, Fauzi and Salwa had already come to them first.

Sasa no longer continued his words and only smiled welcoming the arrival of Fauzi and Salwa back to their table.

Faiq turned to look at Sasa, again asking for Sasa's answer which was delayed by the arrival of Fauzi and Salwa. But it seemed that Sasa was no longer willing to continue his answer, he just smiled giving a subtle rejection of Faiq's previous request.

Faiq looked back at Fauzi with a look of regret. Faiq blamed Fauzi's sudden presence on Sasa's need to stop answering.

Fauzi was confused by Faiq's gaze directed at him, a gaze that seemed to want to pounce on him ferociously.

“Have returned?” Sasa asked after Salwa and Fauzi returned to sit on their previously abandoned places.

“Iya, even though I still want there earlier” complained Salwa with a faint face, showing him who still wants to enjoy the place that previously shown Fauzi to him.

“Why not be there first, if it still kepen there Salwa?” Tanya Faiq made it clear that she still wanted time alone with Sasa.

Sasa looked back at Faiq, reprimanding Faiq through his gaze.

“Salwa still want there?” Sasa asked Salwa who looked faint after returning.

Salwa just nodded.

“You know where it is? Want me to accompany you there??”

Salwa who had just put on a faint face, immediately turned good after hearing Sasa's invitation. The opposite expression Faiq had. For Faiq, Sasa who had not finished his answer earlier was a misfortune, even more so now Sasa offered to accompany Salwa, which meant that Sasa would disappear from his sight.

“Yaudah let me accompany there”

“Sa, sorry so troublesome” Fauzi said with a feeling of hesitation.

“What's wrong, I came here to nemenin Salwa”

Sasa got up from his seat, led Salwa and passed away leaving Fauzi and Faiq. Faiq drove Sasa with an unwilling look, it felt like he wanted to keep Sasa in front of him so that his gaze could constantly reach the woman he loved, the woman who made him miss these past few years.

“Why the reverse is sudden anyway?” Faiq asked Fauzi after Sasa and Salwa passed. The question mingled with an annoyed tone made Fauzi feel guilty.

“Yes sorry, I hope you guys have finished talking private”

“Not yet, even just want to start.”

“Lah? I've left you two for an hour, and you said you just wanted to start?? One hour sitting together why weei??”

“Haiss.. You have come speed. I haven't gotten a response from Sasa”

“What answer? You shot him again?”

Faiq. “I asked about her feelings to me”

“Well I've told you markonah, Sasa is still in love with you, he himself said the same to me. I can't believe Sih”

“Iya, but I want to ngedenger Sasa who said directly”

“Ribet.. After all an hour has passed. You do not forget that we have an appointment with someone else, soon he will come and he may think we do not come if you do not care I am here”

Faiq was only aware of another purpose that made them there at this time. He had forgotten about an appointment with the person who was going to discuss work with them.

Faiq only snorted in annoyance, he still wanted time alone with Sasa to discuss personal matters between the two.