Dear, Soul!!

Made up..

I was a little surprised to find out about Nina being betrothed. Nina is my friend who is very realistic about relationship problems, who has never dated either because he deliberately avoids such a relationship or because there is no man who can touch his heart or just maybe because his mind is too realistic to make it not also dating to her current age.

"La continues?"

"Mama says she's only about a year to three years older than us.. Means he's busy because college might be.."

"Thank God, then, it's not dear if you get betrothed to Om-Om.."

"Ishh, yes, no.."

"But why? How to get arranged? Is it because your mama's worried you can't find a guy that's why she wants to be betrothed.."

"Kc.. Salwa asked to be tabbed, so you thought that I could not get a guy.. Not that I can't, I'm just lazy because I'm like you.."

"Alesan only.."

"Seriously.. Ntar also if I go to college I will have a guy, yes one time only can be two three maybe up to dozens.."

"Ckckck seems very interested in having a lot of guys.." I said in a half-little tone.

"Yes, make it the same as you.."

"Haha.. But why would your mom want to fool you?"

"Don't know either, said the boy's mama was his son temen papa, so yes it's possible to strengthen the friendship anyway. Besides mama is the same my papa maksa.."

"There-there's a.."

"Don't tell anyone about this.."

"Well, I'd like to tell you who else.."

"No, just don't say it.."

"Yes yes madam.."

Nina's story for a moment made me forget about Farhan disturbing my thoughts these days. But then the trouble with Farhan came back to make me cringe. I also don't want to contact Farhan, I'm confused myself.

The last lesson is over, today is the first day of school after three days off after the midterms. Because of my feelings that are not careless, I choose to go to use a taxi rather than take a bike, I am worried that anything will happen on the road later considering that I am less focused lately.

I swore my phone in my pocket that rang, call came in from Farhan. Either a feeling of relief or how, I unconsciously pecked for a moment staring at my phone screen that kept ringing.

"Hello.."

"Why is your face like that?"

I was surprised, Farhan said like that means Farhan is looking at me right now. I lifted my head and looked for Farhan around me until I finally saw him across the street. I looked at him long enough..

"Will you go home?"

"Yes.." Answer me

"Wait for me there.." Farhan. I saw Farhan walking up to me from across the street.

I'm still a little surprised. Farhan came to know what would happen next.

"Let's take you home.." Farhan said smilingly as he grabbed my hand and took my hand. I followed Farhan, who led me across his car parked across the street. No words came out of my mouth, Farhan opened the door of his car and I went in.

"Here I help put the seatbelt on.." Farhan said as he fitted his seat belt. I just fell silent.

There were a lot of questions in my head that I wanted to ask Farhan, there were a lot of words that I wanted to say but in the end I just fell silent trying to understand what was going on right now. I was confused, all I know is there is a sense of relief to see Farhan coming towards me. My feelings are raging lately because Farhan who did not contact me who I kept on holding like he was about to explode.

"I'm sorry I came late.." Farhan said opening the conversation while driving.

I'm staring. He turned around and looked back at me and smiled then refocused on driving.

"I think I was selfish that day, until yesterday I was still with my ego. Sorry.."

"It's okay.." Reply slowly.

"I didn't call you hoping you'd call first, I told you to call me when you needed me again but in fact to this day you haven't contacted me at all. I forgot that what I need is me, not you.." Evidently.

I just fell silent.

"From that day until yesterday I continued with my ego, waiting and hoping that you would contact me, I kept refraining from contacting you, but today I have reached my limit, I can't stand not seeing you Salwa anymore.."

My heart ached hearing Farhan's words, sick and slightly moved. I am so crybaby with Farhan's words that my eyes are already glazed over.

"Sorry.." I said lowered.

"Sorry for what? You're not wrong.."

"Hey, what's wrong with you?" Tanya Farhan stopped her car.

"I'm sorry, I'm being too selfish. I over-exerted my will and always looked at brother based on Fauzi's standards. I always compare my sister with Fauzi when my sister has tried to be the best for me.."

"What's wrong, it's a risk I have to bear. I'm asking you to stay the same I mean I should've taken this kind of risk.." Farhan said trying to calm me down.

I looked at Farhan "I feel like I've lost my sister this week.."

Farhan was silent for a moment. "I'm sorry.."

"So, because of this I can understand how I feel about my sister.."

Farhan looked at me with a confused look.

"Understanding what feeling?" Ask.

"I feel lost, I'm confused and I'm.."

"You?"

"Maybe I don't see my brother as the man behind Fauzi anymore, I don't consider our relationship a compulsion, but.."

"But..??"

"I think this relationship is serious.."

"What do you mean?"

"James of yesterday made me realize that if I was afraid of losing my brother, my country made me know my true feelings for my sister if I liked my sister.." I said slowly.

"What did you say just now?" Farhan asked a little surprised.

"I love it, sister. I don't want you to go missing like yesterday.."

"A. Are you serious??" Farhan asked with a slightly strong voice.

I'm nodding.

Farhan hugged me.

"Your 'like' words are the same I can't pull, just can't.." Farhan said strengthening his embrace.

I just nodded.

"This is a real God, right? You no longer know me, right? You're not kidding anymore, are you?" He asked me to confirm my statement.

I smiled in response to his question.

"I'm not dreaming anymore, am I? It's really, isn't it?" Farhan said pinching his arm slightly.. "Ah sick, it means it's real.." Said Farhan looking at me with his smile widening but his eyes were glazed over.

Farhan hugged me back.

"Thank you Salwa. I'm so happy.." Farhan said sobbing.

"Well.sister crying?" My toot.

"Ah..? I'm just a little moved.." He said he took off his embrace while wiping his tears. "I'm so happy Salwa.. I'm so happy..."

I'm just smiling.

Farhan took my hand.. "My cheeks are hot, right? My cheeks are heating up because they're too happy.." Said Farhan putting my hand on his face.

"Silver exaggeration.."

"I don't know how to express my love Salwa, I'm really happy now. Thanks.." He said with a smile.

I smiled back at "Yes.." My answer.

"How's this? I don't want to take you home, I want to keep going.."

"Aren't you in college?"

"There's one class today but I don't want to go in, I want to go with you today.."

"But.."

"It's not very important.. Today we go..."

"Yes.." Answer smiled.