Dear, Soul!!

Trigger..

The time showed at 07:15, The sunlight had slipped into my room, hitting my face which made it even harder to open my eyes.

"Ah, I forgot to close the window curtain last night" I complained to see the incoming sunlight hitting my face.

Due to the preoccupation of chatting with Fauzi on the phone last night, I fell asleep and forgot to close the curtains and forgot to turn off the lights in the room.

I don't even remember when I started to lose consciousness and fall asleep. All I remember is that when Fauzi sang a song to me as an apology to me, because lately he rarely called me.

"Ah, holiday.. Lazy" I said in a slightly sleepy tone.

Another week Fauzi and I went with Farhan and his group on vacation. Enjoy the cool breeze whirling beach and beautiful ocean views.

I remember, that was the last time I was with Fauzi for such a long time over the past week.

Since that incident, Farhan and I have been no longer awkward. I became more comfortable than ever when chatting with Fauzi even though there was Farhan, it was not uncommon to also be late in the conversation and throw jokes at each other with Farhan.

Well, it was certain that Fauzi asked because it wasn't like this before.

"I think I'm not polite yesterday a bit ngecuekin kak Farhan, ngedenger you joking with kak Farhan on the beach yesterday like very familiar. I don't think you'd be bothered if I was a little more familiar with Farhan, so you could also have a more relaxed conversation" I explained to Fauzi when he asked about me who was getting along with Farhan.

Fauzi understood and was quite happy with me who started trying to get along with his friends.

"My friends are your dear friends" Fauzi replied at the time.

I took my phone, I saw a message from Farhan.

"emh? How streak?" tanyaku confused to see Farhan chat in a row .

The night before Fauzi called, I had a chat with Farhan. Discussing about what Fauzi was like when he became a new student. Because Fauzi called, I no longer responded to Farhan's chat, so the chat broke in and ended by saying good-bye to me.

Lately, I've been talking to Farhan more than Fauzi. I don't know lately Fauzi is very busy which causes us to rarely communicate and rarely meet. Sometimes we just met at school and then not for long, considering Fauzi was busy organizing a basketball team and I began busy dance practice to perform dance performances at the high school level regional dance competition in my province. Chat is also very rare, only when we want to sleep at night we sometimes chat just give news and say good night before going to bed. In fact, sometimes not saying good-bye to each other because one of us had fallen asleep before the chat together.

Two days after returning home from the beach, Fauzi got a phone call from Farhan's friend in the gathering to offer something related to the photographer. I think Fauzi's shooting at the time was really good so he began to be invited occasionally to take pictures for vlogs or to capture important moments of someone in an event.

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"Honey.. Are you awake?"

I heard Mom's voice coming from behind the door.

"mommy already.." Answer me

"Mother come in" said Mother as she stepped in toward me.

"Darling, you want to come with me?"

"Where's ma'am?"

"Mom wants to go to Aunt Lily's house, Aunt Lily's already born"

"Cock a wad, mom, that feeling just yesterday that Lily's aunt was pregnant"

"what the hell you love, the birth is not possible cepetan, but because it is time to be born" explained Mother

"hehehehehe yes, Salwa was busy until he was not aware of the time"

"So how's baby? Wanna come?" mother said while stroking my hair.

"Gak ah, Salwa's at home.. Mom used to go to Lily's aunt's house like it a long time"

"Yaudah, mother's leaving yes.. Salwa woke up to continue breakfast, I'm ready to make breakfast for Salwa"

"Mother left alone?"

"Son, mom's leaving with Dad.. Mother left well dear" said Mother as she kissed my forehead and walked out.

At the door, my mother turned around

"If you want to go out, do not forget to ask Mom son, the house does not forget to be locked" Mother's message .

"Yes ma'am" I answered.. "Be careful in the street ma'am, greetings to Aunt Lily and Dede Cherry.

Mom just smiled and then passed.

Kuraih back my phone. Pacing back and forth on social media, Log in Instagram, log out Instagram. Log in Facebook, log out Facebook. That's all I'm doing.

"the boss.." My complaint is putting the cell phone.

"Ah, I'd better take Fauzi aja, after all the promises that have not been fulfilled"

I called Fauzi, tried to collect a promise he had forgotten.

"Hello dear" replied Fauzi from across the phone.

"Part on yesterday's appointment" I tagged.

"Which promise?" I asked him who seemed to have forgotten again

"Maen to the Gallery dear.." I said reminding.

"Well baby, I guess you're not going to the gallery anymore, so I'm going to follow my friend for this morning's portrait, baby"

"Ah you.. How is the story not so? You are.." I'm getting upset.

"Ouch.. I'm so sorry, dear"

"You've been busy these four days. The school is busy, outside the school is busy.."

"Sorry baby, this is me learning so I can get a side snack too"

"Alesan is you." I said ketus

"honey, instead of blackmailing me, you're angry"

"well how not to get angry, from yesterday you forget to continue. My eyes need a pretty-beautiful Fauzi"

"Yes yesterday was on the beach"

"yes surgery.. I want to be like you, not that rame-rame"

Fauzi's words just now really pissed me off.

"Oh, jaudah" I answered briefly

"Why is yaudah?"

"Well, how else?"

"Darling, yesterday it was..."

"Yes, that's it.. Yaudah no need, I'm at home" I said cutting off Fauzi's conversation

"Honey don't dong that" he persuaded.

"No especially? you said you couldn't, so you didn't have to.."

"I don't mean that, baby"

"Well, whatever you mean, I'm dead on the phone"

I said and decided to call.

I feel really upset, maybe because I'm alone at home today so I really want to get out. Also maybe because it's been a long time I don't walk alone with Fauzi, maybe my annoyance is part of my sense of longing that can't be redeemed.

Phone's ringing.. Call from Fauzi, out of annoyance, I just ignored the phone.

I walked to the bathroom, I heard my phone ring. There were seven missed calls from Fauzi after I returned to the room.

My phone rings again.

"Why?"Ketus.

"Why are you, baby? Intentionally ignoring my phone?"

"no" I answered briefly.

"Honey.you know myself I just learned the motto, this again needs me so not good if again invited but I refuse" he explained.

"Yaudah, I told you the same way I don't have to, so it's up to you today to do it" I replied annoyed.

"Darling why are you?"

"What's the matter why?"

"Well, I know I'm wrong.I forgot again, I can't go out anymore, sorry baby"

"Emmm..." Answer's short.

"Honey don't be angry dong.." he persuaded

"don't.."Answer ketus

"What's wrong, it's obvious you're angry"

"I said no, no"

"Dear I'm sorry"

"Yes.."

"Jude, don't be angry anymore.."

"I'm not angry" I replied in a cranky tone.

"Really?"

"Yes.. Yaudah sana take another photo, sometime if you have a new time left for me..

"Why are you talking about it?"

"Yes, what do I want to say?"

"Why are you?" Fauzi's tone began to change, sounding a little annoyed.

"What did you say? I why?" Ask me with feelings of annoyance

"I'm so confused, I don't always refuse your request, only this time I really can't. For once, can't you understand me?"

I was a little surprised to hear Fauzi's tone sounding up.

"I also have other activities Salwa, I can not always follow what you want, besides I am not always busy right?" Clearly again.

"It's up to you" I replied

"That you, you say it a little bit, say a little bit whatever"

"Well, you want me to say how I am?"

"You really can't understand me? even for this first time in a year, we're the same, I can't give you a whim"

"I told you it was up to you. I don't have to walk, especially what you're worried about"

We were getting noisy, Fauzi's tone was getting higher, and I just got more upset. I don't know if this is a proper fight between us.

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