Dear, Soul!!

Revealed (2)

Like fate, it was also like an epiphany to me about what happened two years ago where I constantly misunderstood Fauzi. This truth is also like a punishment to me, why after my relationship with Fauzi like this I only knew the truth. I feel more guilty and more and more sorry for Fauzi's departure.

I was stunned to hear the story, telling little by little the truth that was in that day.

"When Fauzi was trying to calm me down, I felt that I was carrying too much weight that day until I intended to abort my baby, but Fauzi continued to reassure me that everything would be fine. I'm grateful that there was a Fauzi that day, if there wasn't him maybe right now I can't see how adorable my son is"

Her child is absolutely adorable, her eyelashes are pliable and her eyes are round with her small lips.

"I've always felt guilty for Fauzi, I've made your relationship bad. I always said to Fauzi to bring me together with you, I wanted to explain everything so you didn't misunderstand but Fauzi said you'd only get hurt more if I explained everything back then.."

At that time, I refused to meet this woman, I was afraid of all the facts. Well in the end I refused to know the truth back then.

"I always ask Fauzi. Is everything okay? What does this have to do with you okay? And he always said that everything was okay. I knew she was lying back then, she was lying on purpose so I wouldn't think because I was pregnant"

I just kept quiet hearing it.

"I don't know that until now you didn't know, did Fauzi not tell you all the truth?"

I'm shaking.

It wasn't actually Fauzi who didn't explain everything, but it was me who always refused to know the facts. I always refused because in my mind at that time, everything Fauzi said was just an excuse.

"Fauzi was after you back then, I guess he cleared everything up so he came back.."

"Fa Fauzi is after me?" I'm confused.

I remember once that night running away from Fauzi, when I got to my limit I turned and I didn't see any Fauzi behind me.

"Yes, he's chasing you. But he soon returned with his wet clothes. He apologized to me again for not being able to continue shooting"

I was really confused, because I still clearly remembered that Fauzi was not chasing me.

"Oh, maybe I didn't see it.." I replied, it would be very strange if I said Fauzi was not after me while he clearly saw Fauzi chasing me that night.

"We contacted Fauzi once again. The agreement we had agreed upon was that Fauzi take pictures as we prawedding our wedding ceremony. But many times we persuaded Fauzi he refused. He returned all the money we had given him under the contract, because he couldn't fulfill the deal so he returned all the money"

It was because of me, it was because I forbade him to continue photographing, it was for the sake of obeying all my will. What I've done, I've made Fauzi leave his job. I always felt that Fauzi was evil to me back then, but in reality it turned out that I was the one who was very evil.

I feel so guilty for Fauzi. I can't imagine how difficult Fauzi was.

"I'm really sorry for causing this misunderstanding.."

"It's okay." My answer is to try to smile.

"Fauzi loves you very much.." Said smiling. I smiled back.

"People who know Fauzi always say that" I replied.

"It's only natural that people will think that way, Fauzi always shows the same affection for you even in front of other people who do not know you.."

"I mean.."

"Hem, if not wrong take a second prawedding photo. At that time Fauzi was very nervous, so I just casually asked. I'm asking why I'm so nervous, and you know the answer?"

I'm shaking.

"Say he thought of you, he said that at night you were so tired that he couldn't sleep. He had time to confide in his friend but his friend just grinned. And what makes him think more he said that day you asked him to make you go to the bookstore but he couldn't because he had to take photos. Haha at that time we took a photo while ngetawain Fauzi who could not focus because of your mind"

Ah that time, the time when Fauzi couldn't take me and I went with Farhan to the bookstore. It was the time when I first had my heart made to beat unbecoming by Farhan.

"He got to his side?" I asked a little laugh.

"Haha yes, we always mocked him at that time.."

"It turns out I've been making hard times for Fauzi.."

"Yes even though it's hard, but I'm sure Fauzi is happy to pass through it because in the end you're still by his side.."

"Oh yeah, where is Fauzi?"

"He's in the opposite province, again in college.."

"Well, so you're LDRans? Excitement yes, I was LDRan with my husband too, but because you trusted each other so we could get through it all"

"Hehehe should be.."

"Hem.. May I ask you a favor?"

"MInta please what?"

"Send Fauzi a picture of my son, I wonder how Fauzi reacted to seeing my son, the son he's saved since he was in the cage"

I shook my head slowly.

"Oh sorry.." I see him a little awkward. Maybe he felt his request was too much. I see his point, he just wanted to show his son that he used to carry around while he was busy with Fauzi.

"It's not like that, it's just that I can't send a picture of your son to Fauzi. L'm.. I don't have Fauzi's number"

I clearly saw his surprised expression.

"Yes, we broke up and I can't call Fauzi.." I said I tried to smile even though my heart ached to admit that my relationship with Fauzi was really over.

"Ma sorry.. I don't know.. Sorry.."

"It's okay.." Again I tried to smile.

"I guess you're still the same Fauzi. I'm sorry I kept talking about Fauzi, you must remember Fauzi again.."

"Without being discussed, I always remember Fauzi, so don't feel shy"

"I never thought you guys would be like this, considering how Fauzi always talked about you so I thought you guys would always be okay"

"Yes, at first I also thought that way, but in reality the human heart can change.."

"Again I'm really sorry, if only I knew I wouldn't have talked about Fauzi all that time"

"I'm even grateful you've told me everything, otherwise I'd always consider Fauzi cheating"

He smiled "Hopefully you can meet someone better than Fauzi"

"I wish I was, too, but I don't think I'd be able to get a better person than Fauzi or rather I don't deserve someone like that.."

"Don't be pessimistic, the past can be bad but the future is still sacred and still the secret of God we can engrave with all things good and happiness"

I smile. "Thank you for telling me this is all the same to me"

He just nodded with a smile..

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Sorry if there is a typo and so on, my condition is temporarily no good so it is difficult to check many times before the review..

Sorry 🙏😭