Dear, Soul!!

Be sent home..

After seven years, it's only now that I've been talking to Fauzi long enough. I was happy to be able to chat like this again with Fauzi considering my feelings that still really liked him, but on the other hand there was confusion and worry. I was confused by Fauzi's attitude and conversation with Annisa earlier, whether Fauzi would also be married or maybe married because some time ago he was also designing his invitation with Annisa. I was also worried, how could I endure my feelings of ignoring Fauzi if she kept going like this, what if I couldn't accept the fact that Fauzi was already the husband of someone else.

For a moment I put those thoughts aside and just enjoy the time I have now to just chat with Fauzi. The problem of how I will handle my feelings let me think later, now just enjoy the moment provided.

Farhan came up to me and Fauzi, asking us to take a picture with them. After some photos taken by the four of us I finally got off and called Annisa to take pictures with us as well.

"Gue handsome, do you make a dress like this?" Tanya Farhan was bragging.

"Ck, Lu's handsome is just rising at the level of a doang, can not nyampe in my saucya level" replied Fauzi with more bragging.

If someone who doesn't know them hears his conversation like this, those people will think how narcissistic these two are. For those of us who are accustomed to hearing the Fauzi and Farhan debate like this, it is like an entertainment in itself

"Lu don't like to make clothes like this too??"

"Haha yes, Brother Fauzi don't want to lose.." Added Nina.

"Sstt take it easy, it looks like Fauzi is also snapping. He had discussed the invitation with me" added Annisa.

I kept quiet, I didn't know what to do if I wanted to come in with their chat, besides, I was still very confused how they could talk like that to Fauzi who obviously already had a future wife.

"Ha ha ha.. I will also marry if I have met his soul mate" replied Fauzi laughing.

Hearing Fauzi's reply, Farhan and Nina spontaneously saw me.

"A what??" I'm confused.

Annisa who doesn't know about my relationship with Fauzi also looks confused.

"There's a nganggur ngapa still want nyari.." Farhan said occasionally glancing at me.

"Yes, Brother Fauzi, I think I've moved on a hundred percent.." Added Nina.

"Taken by the ntar nyesel.."

"Fauzi with Salwa???" Annisa asked with her eyes showing confusion.

"Ha ha ha.. There's nothing Annisa, they're just kidding.." My answer is that Annisa doesn't continue to misunderstand me.

I don't know what Annisa would have thought if she understood what Farhan and Nina meant. He who arranged Fauzi's wedding invitation would misunderstand me later.

"Ha ha ha.. I haven't been pushed forward yet.." Fauzi said lightly laughing.

"Ha ha ha kok ngenes really yes effect.." Nina Timpal.

"Ha ha the patient broo.."

I really don't understand what they're talking about, how can they say that to someone who already has a future wife.

This afternoon's event is over and will continue tonight. Annisa and I who originally made a deal to go home together in the end did not become because Annisa just got a phone call from someone to use her services to design an invitation again.

"The intention is to go home with Annisa, the ends are even nyari taxi.. Ck ride a taxi pake clothes this must be very difficult.." Gertutuku.

I stood in front of the building where Nina and Farhan's wedding reception was taking place, I was trying to get in touch with an online taxi.

"Wanna go home?" Ask Fauzi who surprised me.

"Yes.."

"You coming with me?" Tanya Fauzi offers a ride.

"No, I'll just take a taxi.." My answer.

"Well a taxi with your clothes on?"

I looked down at my dress that was wide and slightly inflated due to using organza subordinates.

"Ta but we're different directions, I'm gonna take care of brother.."

"Ta but.."

"Udah come.." Said Fauzi holding me and pulling me.

I ended up going with Fauzi. His big, warm hands, I had not felt the grip of Fauzi's hand holding my hand for a long time, when it used to be this hand that almost took me everywhere.

There was not much I discussed with Fauzi along the way, I only answered only if there were questions from Fauzi and just smiled in response to Fauzi's story.

"Will I pick you up tonight?" Fauzi said when I got home.

"I'm it.."

"Don't think that you're going to take me, that's what I'm afraid of.."

I was silent for a moment.

"If you don't want to be okay.."

"You know.." Reply quickly. Fauzi was surprised to see me.

"Aissshh Salwa's.. Why is this again? I swear I'm so ashamed.." My mind is upset while holding in shame.

"Ha ha ha" Fauzi laughed awkwardly. "OK tonight I'll pick you up.."

"I yeah.." I averted my eyes. "Yes, I went in first, brother.." I said open the car door but..

Shhiitt I forgot that my seat belt hasn't come off. Again I feel ashamed.

Fauzi came up to me, helped me take off my seatbelt. "Why rush once to forget to take off his seatbelt first.."

I held my breath, the sound of my heart could be heard by Fauzi right now.

"He he he sorry.." I answered with my breath held.

"Why apologize, you're not wrong.."

"I was. I was"

"I think you're tired.."

I just smile because I don't know what to say anymore, the more I talk the more wrong I say.

I rushed down from Fauzi's car.

"Thank you for letting me go home.."

"okay.. I went back" Fauzi said with a smile.

"Be careful, brother." I replied smiling.

Fauzi.

I went into the room, I was still unconscious of what had just happened. I looked at my hand that was in Fauzi's hand, for some reason it was so good. My heart couldn't beat normally, I kept holding my chest trying to calm my heart but instead of getting normal, my heart rate just got tighter.

I remember when Fauzi helped me take off my seatbelt. Blussshhhhh, it felt like my cheeks were getting hot like they were burning because my blood seemed to be flowing all over my head.

"Huffttt calm down Salwa. tenangg...." I said take a breath and breathe it out slowly.

I walked to the mirror, my cheeks completely flushed almost like boiled shrimp. I don't need a blush to put color on my cheeks tonight, when I leave with Fauzi later, my cheeks will automatically blush.

I'm like a teenager who is in love, ck did I forget about my age which is not a teenager anymore? Kasmaran at this age is a bit of a shame.

Ah already, the more I remember the incident earlier I will not move to cleanse myself and calm the mind.

I went to clean myself while constantly patting my cheek which was still hot.