Dear, Soul!!

Salwa Story

I tried to avoid Nina's question even though I realized it wouldn't be possible. I stood still for a long time looking at the two glasses filled with water. Nina's question reminded me of Fauzi and again I couldn't handle my feelings.

Slowly my tears began to drip, I could not help feeling the sadness that re-entered my feelings of remembering about Fauzi.

"Salvah.." Call Nina to follow me to the kitchen.

I quickly wiped my tears away so that Nina would not see it.

"Yes?" I turned to look at Nina and tried to smile.

"Why you?" Ask Nina

"I? I'm doing fine. Why are you here?" I try to hide my sadness.

"I followed you into the kitchen because you're returning a long time ago" Nina said looking at me fixedly.

"Oh, Ha ha ha Sorry, yaudah let's go back to the room"

"Why you?" Nina asked again.

"I don't know" I replied smiling.

Nina approached and wiped the remaining tears in the corner of my eyes "Don't lie"

I just kept watching Nina look at me.

"What's wrong? What's wrong with Fauzi?" Nina asked confusedly mixed in worry.

I turned my face away from Nina's gaze.

"You??" Not finished Nina's question, she stopped because she saw my tears that began to drip.

Nina didn't ask any more just walked closer and closer to me and hugged me, my tears that I had been trying to hold back finally spilled all making my cheeks wet. Nina alternately rubbed my back and head slowly without saying a word, and I just cried in Nina's arms.

Nina's clothes started to get wet from my tears, I tried to hold back my tears and tried to control my feelings.

"Cry first if it can make your feelings better"

I spilled all my tears again, sobbing in Nina's arms and releasing all the burdens of my feelings that suddenly piled up after hearing Fauzi's name.

I cried for a long time, and Nina just kept quiet to let me put all the burden on my feelings.

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"What's? Breaking up? Since when?" Nina was very surprised after I told her that I was no longer with Fauzi.

"A year ago?"

"Have it been that long? Why can?"

"Stop it.."

"So you.."

"Yes, all that time I couldn't be reached. I never saw a call from anyone nor did I ever get a message from anyone, every day I just wait for Fauzi ngabarin me but to this day never even Fauzi ngabarin me.."

"Kok Kak Fauzi is like that.."

"All because of my fault.."

"Your fault? What are you doing?"

"A mistake you can't forgive?"

"What mistakes can't be forgiven?"

"wait around.. I still don't understand, you said brother Fauzi mutusin you via message? Is that a doang?"

I'm nodding.

"That Fauzi's a bad boy.. Later I ask Brother Farhan to talk directly to Brother Fauzi"

"Don't.."

"Why? Brother Farhan same brother Fauzi right sahabatan, could be kak Fauzi would ngeengerin if brother Farhan who talk"

"Don't Nin, I don't want my problems to be with Fauzi taking you with me" I explained. How could Farhan talk to Fauzi about this if the cause I ended up with was Farhan. I can't imagine Farhan's expression when Nina asks him to talk to Fauzi later. Farhan had not dared to talk to Fauzi and Farhan could not refuse Nina's request either, it would put Farhan in a difficult position.

"This cannot be allowed to be so Wa, Brother Fauzi has been outrageous. He sent you through a message and never let you know? This is too much Salwa, anyway you can say or not I will still ask Brother Farhan to talk to Brother Fauzi or if necessary let me directly talk to Brother Fauzi"

"No Nin.."

"What is Wa? You sacrificed a year of your education because you kept falling apart with Fauzi's decision, you.."

"I cheated.." I said cut Nina's words.

I actually didn't want to tell Nina this, but I had no choice but to tell her. Nina will continue to assume that the cause of my relationship ending is Fauzi's fault and she will ask Farhan to discuss this with Fauzi.

"What did you say??"

"I cheated.." I replied, looking down because I couldn't see Nina's face.

"You're cheating?" Nina asked, clarifying my words.

I'm nodding.

Nina was silent for a moment, I knew she was very surprised by what I said because she would never have expected me to be like this.

"Why Salwa? Why are you like this?"

I shook my head, I didn't know what to explain to Nina. I knew whatever my answer was I would still be wrong in Nina's eyes.

"What is less than the brother of Fauzi Salwa? and again I can't believe you're cheating on me on purpose"

"Yes, it was all a misunderstanding at first but I ended up doing it all the time" too"

"What kind of misunderstanding?"

I told Nina all the truth, from beginning to end but still hiding the identity of Farhan, I do not want Nina to be disappointed if she knew the truth about Farhan. I'm just saying that someone I knew came that night when I cried because I saw Fauzi with another woman. I also did not tell Nina that I had forgotten about Fauzi because of Farhan's recent presence that brought me attention. I think Nina knew enough until the moment I didn't continue my education and fell because Fauzi left me. Nina listened to me well.

"So how do you feel about Brother Fauzi now?" Nina asked after I told her everything.

"Still with Nin, still dear, still in love and still hoping Fauzi will return someday"

Nina came closer and hugged me.

"I will not blame you or justify your behavior Salwa, everyone also knows that the affair is wrong. But I'll keep supporting you, you've realized your mistake and are trying to get better now"

"Yes I know I was wrong Nin, so I will not blame Fauzi for his decision and my feelings will continue to exist for Fauzi, and I still hope that one day Fauzi will be back with me again"

Nina took off her embrace.

"Actually you're quite selfish if Fauzi's brother comes back, but I understand it. You expected Brother Fauzi back because of your great feelings for Brother Fauzi and I hope that Brother Fauzi will give you another chance.."

"I didn't expect much Nin, and now I don't know how Fauzi is doing. She's either alone or I don't know right now.."

"You must remember the words of Brother Fauzi, if indeed the soul mate of brother Fauzi will still return with you.."

"Nin, you're just making me more hopeful when you yourself know that even now even though Fauzi knows I never and I also don't know Fauzi's news now"

"What's wrong, Wa, you're not wrong if you still hope that Fauzi's brother returns. You want to give up won't be able because your feelings are still very, very loving Brother Fauzi.. What decision can you make now?"

I fell silent