Dear, Soul!!

Returning..

"Salwa..." Said Fauzi who had been following me since then. I just kept walking without paying attention to it.

Fauzi, who had fainted, began to improve after returning home from the Hospital by spending a bottle of Ringer Lactate infusion with Farbion drips injection to restore his condition. Fauzi followed me back home and I let him go regardless, tired of telling him to stay away but still tailing me like a chick that kept following its mother, I finally let it go. "To the limit later he will get tired and give up too" I thought.

"Salva.. Please don't be like this.."

I'm stopping..

"Please?? after what you did to me you said please??"

Fauzi approached me still somewhat staggering.

"I'm sorry Salwa.."

Fauzi grabbed my hand and I held it so hard that it made Fauzi fall. I just kept looking at him, Fauzi then got back up.

"i'll keep following you.. Until you want to hear my explanation.."

"As far as you are.."

"Salva.. Is it too hard for you to explain? He's a nobody, he's not who you think he is"

"It's up to you, speak as you please I don't care anymore.." I said turning back and stepping.

Fauzi grabbed my wrist again, I pulled my hand and Fauzi fell back. His body was still very weak, he should have rested now to smooth over his condition.

"It's Fauzi, you make me look like a bad man. Ignoring you like this even though you know I'm like this because of you too.."

"I'm sorry Salwa.."

"It's not easy for me to forgive you"

"Taoi Salwa, if you give me time to explain everything, you will not be this sick. You're sick because you don't know what's really going on.."

"It's Fauzi, the more you want to explain everything the more I get sick, your explanation is like an excuse to me.."

"But.."

"Son't.."

"Okee.. Okay.. If you don't want to hear my explanation, if my explanation is just like an excuse to you that hurts you more, I won't explain it. I won't force you to hear my explanation.. But Salwa, please give me one more chance.. Please believe me just this once, Salwa please.."

"Oze.. I love you so much. I'm sorry if I ever suspected you and thought you were a no-no, if this is the result of my suspicions then please don't pull me back to feel even more pain.."

"No salwa.. It has nothing to do with it, though I never intended to correct your suspicions... So give me one more chance.. I'm sorry just this time, please don't stay with me Salwa.."

I saw Fauzi's eyes start to glaze over and it hurt my feelings even more.

"Salva. I'm sorry, give me another chance, I won't make you like this again, I'll take you wherever you want, I won't disappear again.."

I was silent to see it, Fauzi's tears began to drip as well as my tears.

"Salwa, I've assembled my future that you have in it, I've planned to age with you, so please don't change it by going in the middle of the road like this.. I really love you Salwa.." Fauzi said sobbing.

I couldn't stand it anymore, my feelings started to get messed up and..

"Huhuhoo.. Why do this to me Ozii..?? 😭😭"

My crying finally broke as well. Seeing me, Fauzi hugged me tightly.

"I love you, but why do this to me, what is my fault?? Huhuhu 😭"

"You're not wrong, honey.. No, I'm not. ah no, I won't repeat it again.. I love you so much Salwa.."Fauzi said tightened his arms.

"you Wicked.. Malatt.." I said by continuing to hit Fauzi.

"Yes I'm a bad guy, but I promise I won't be like this anymore, I promise.."

"Huhuhuhu 😭😭"

Fauzi took off his embrace.

"Give me one more chance to correct my mistake, I won't repeat this mistake again.."

I just kept crying.

"Salwa look at me.." Fauzi raised my face. "I won't make you like this again, I'll be happy for you"

I'm still crying.

"Give me a chance once more.. I'm begging.. Yea??"

I'm nodding.

My feelings are hurt, but I also can't lie to my feelings if I still love Fauzi so much.

"Thank you Salwa.. Thanks a lot, dear.." Fauzi hugged me tightly again.

"Don't do that anymore.."

"Yes, I promise you there won't be anything like this anymore.." Fauzi said sobbing.

I thought she would stop crying after I got back, but instead of stopping crying, her tears just grew.

"I'm so happy.. Thank you for believing in me, thank you for me again. I will not be a fool again doing things that can make you leave me.. I won't waste the opportunity you've been given.I don't want to be left alone with you anymore, dear.." Fauzi tightened his embrace.

"Pha.. Fauzi .. I. I'm claustrophobic.."

"Oh sorry sorry.. I'm too happy to hold you tight.." Fauzi said taking off his embrace. "I'm sorry I made you cry again" Fauzi said wiping away the remaining tears on my cheeks.

"Don't be like this anymore, you're making me sick.."

"Yes dear.. I promise.." Fauzi hugged me back.

"I felt Fauzi's heartbeat that had been beating fast slowly subside. I know there's relief in his heart right now, I'm a little relieved.I know I'm very stupid right now, after what happened but I still want to go back. I also cannot lie about my feelings about my love for Fauzi, moreover I am not ready to lose Fauzi.

"Fa Fauzi??"

I was so confused, I didn't hear Fauzi's sobs anymore and his body felt heavy.

"Hey.. Ozi... you??"

I started to worry, Fauzi was unconscious again

I was really confused, Fauzi just hugged me but suddenly his body felt heavy and it turned out that Fauzi was unconscious again. I'm worried, Fauzi just got out of the hospital this afternoon but came out the afternoon Fauzi was unconscious again. I don't know how, Fauzi followed me to the next door and at home there was no one, I screamed for help but no one came. I can't possibly call Mom and Dad who are out of town, nor can I call Farhan while the three of us are currently in such a bad relationship. If I call Ambulance and then Fauzi downstairs back to the hospital, what the doctor who examined him said earlier, just got out of the ER not long enough but has come back again. I had no choice but to call Fauzi's parents. I'll explain everything that happens if Fauzi's parents ask him about his unconscious son, after all, Fauzi's parents are not workers who are tied to office hours that can not go out if it is still office hours.

I ventured to call Fauzi's parents, whatever happened later let the back business alone, the important thing is there is handling for Fauzi first at this time.