Dear, Soul!!

The proposal??

Fauzi, who was feverish, now showed several different sides. Fauzi, who had always been able to control his feelings and never showed his selfishness to me even just asking me to do something, today showed it all to me.

Fauzi who usually never asked in a pushy tone asked for an answer, Fauzi who never acted selfishly asked me to stay with him and Fauzi who subconsciously showed her side when she was sick like this.

"Why? Full already? But eat you a little.."

"If I eat and take medicine, I'll be cured"

"Yes.. That's good, right?"

"I don't want to eat anymore?"

"Why? Did you not eat this morning??"

"You'll come home if I'm cured?"

"i ya.. What else am I gonna do here?"

"If I get sick you'll stay here?"

"What are you really talking about??"

"I want you to stay here.."

"But..."

"This once.."

I just shut up to see it.

"Just this once??"

I slowly nodded in compliance with Fauzi's request. He smiled and returned to feed.

Ah, she's funny looking like this. I'm like I'm taking care of a little kid, where's the Fauzi who used to look more grown up? The one in front of me right now is just like a child who doesn't want to be left behind.

"Eat a lot.." I said while sitting next to him, Fauzi just smiled in response to me.

I gave Fauzi a fever-reducing medicine after he finished eating, I hope his fever goes down quickly and he gets well soon.

"Thank you for coming to me, and thank you for staying here for a while?"

I just smiled hearing it.

"What were you doing in my room? Why so long?"

"i's.. A I'm stray.." I completely forgot my original purpose at that time to take the compress and thermometer in Fauzi's room for reading the book he wrote.

"Nyasar???" Fauzi asked in confusion.

"Yes aampuunn Salwaa... is there no more reasonable reason than stray?? You think Fauzi's house is a labyrinth that can make people stray??" Inner irritated.

"E ee ituu..."

"Do you know where my room is??"

"Ha yes.. Ha ha ha I don't know which room you are in" I replied laughing awkwardly taking my eyes off Fauzi.

"Didn't Mom ever show you??"

"i ya.. But it was a long time ago.."

"My house is not that big to be able to make you stray Salwa, and anyways why can you forget??"

"i.i.u..." Ck I'm completely out of words and don't know what else to lie about.

"Why is your face flushed??"

"Haa??" I quickly held my cheek. "It's probably because I'm angry" I replied.

"You..."

"Aren't you going to eat something??" I was trying to distract Fauzi.

"I just ate..."

"I yes.. But you're not sick anymore so you need to eat a lot, right??"

"So, I don't want to eat anymore.." Fauzi said as he tried to lie back down, I quickly helped him. "Drugs are a side effect of sleepiness?" Ask.

"Son, Why? You sleepy?"

Fauzi.

"Maybe it's because you're full and now you're not feeling well so the luggage will go to sleep" I tidied up Fauzi's blanket.

"You lied, right??"

"About what??"

Fauzi looked at me fixedly, and again I began to misbehave him. "What?? Why do you think I'm like that??" I'm confused.

"You're not straying and instead of not knowing my room, you can't possibly forget" Fauzi kept looking at me.

"Ga no really.. A I am indeed.."

"You see something in my room??" Ask.

"A what? What do you want me to squirm in your room??"

"Your photom??"

"Why would I look at my picture?"

"Aren't you going to ask me why the picture is still in my room??"

"What are you doing??" Ck I kept stammering. Fauzi's question was urgent, plus his gaze made me more nervous.

"Hoaayama.... It seems you already know the answer so don't ask anymore about your picture that is still neatly displayed there" Fauzi who had been staring at me finally averted his eyes, which somehow felt a little relieved. Why do I feel so tense Fauzi looks at me like that.

"What answer?" I'm confused.

"A what??" I'm still trying to pretend I don't know.

"Books... Your face can't possibly be so blushing and it's impossible to get nervous like this every time I ask" Fauzi said looking back at me.

Ah, she knows. There's no point in me making a point now.

"I'm it..."

"Because you already know.." Fauzi lay on his side so he could be more comfortable looking at me. "I wouldn't wait for that day to say it's the same as you"

"Ha that day? What day and say what?"

"I've started now, started what I stopped before"

I was a little confused by what Fauzi said. My expression might be clearly seen by Fauzi that I was a little clueless as to what he meant.

"I'm starting to get back into your life, I want to be special to you. I know this act is selfish because before I had left you but believe it or not, when I was not the same as you at that time my feelings never changed. A feeling that still loves you as before and as today.."

"If your feelings continue? Then why was it like that before me?? Why are you missing and not telling me the same news? Why intentionally make me misunderstand about Afifa?" I started asking in succession, and

"I'm sorry, I needed to remember myself at that time and what I did was all I've compiled to this day"

"You're deliberately playing with my feelings"

"No.." Quickly answer. "It's not like that, I just can't squirm you because the shadow continues with you and Farhan.."

Right, even if it was me, I wouldn't be able to see Fauzi if I'd seen him and knew he had a special relationship with my best friend.

"Because you know everything now, I won't hide everything from you anymore.."

"About what??"

Fauzi grabbed my hand and grasped it tightly, I felt her palm still warm.

"I'm coming back, asking you to stay by my side like I used to but not to be my girlfriend.."

Is this what he meant by his words when he was ready and he was coming?

"La then as what?" I asked a little doubt.

Fauzi kept yawning, was he that sleepy? The medicine I gave had no drowsy side effects but Fauzi was already drowsy all the time.

"Why am I so sleepy??" Fauzi did not answer my question and asked himself about his sleepiness. "Is it okay if I sleep again?" Ask.

"Aren't you just awake?"

"Son't.."

"Don't you? I'm back from here and you're asleep and now?"

"I just slept for a while.."

So how long has Fauzi been looking at me sleeping?

"Just go to sleep again.." I dropped my curiosity about what Fauzi said he was coming.

Slowly Fauzi closed his eyes, it seemed like he was really sleepy.

"Salwa, I'll come.."

"What?" Ask slowly.

"Come to ask you to be my wife, just wait..."

DAG DIG DUGGG JDERRRRRR My heart is not afraid to hear the words of Fauzi.

"What do you mean??" Even though my heartbeat can't be conditioned, I still need to confirm Fauzi's words. Seeing him sleepy, I was afraid to take this seriously because he could have half-consciously said this.

"I'll propose to you in person next month, on your birthday.. I need your answer before I formally propose to your parents.." Fauzi said with his flat expression and his closed eyes. He looks like a man who wants to talk.

Blussshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. It was fortunate that he said that while closing his eyes at least he would not see my cheeks flushing like a stewed shrimp that was so embarrassing.

"Ti slept.. Se seems like you've been sleepy once..."

Fauzi was silent, it seemed like he had really fallen asleep. So then? What he said was true or was he just delirious??

I was confused, happy, haru and ah I don't know how to describe what I feel right now. I'm not sure if Fauzi said that consciously or unconsciously, but it still feels like it really makes me want to fly.

"Little..."

Eh? He's not asleep yet.

Slowly, Fauzi opened his eyes.

"Ke why? You haven't slept??" My toot.

"It was, but woke up again.."

"Why? You need anything??"

"I was just saying it was part of the rehearsal"

Meanin? He's my rooming practice or someone else's sleeping practice through me?? My martial will was instantly gone and turned into confusion mixed with a little annoyance.

"La rehearsal what? Which one?"

"When you woke up.." Said smiling.

CK what the hell does Fauzi mean? Makes me more confused.

"When you woke up the first person you saw was me, it was the first practice because in the future every morning you wake up the first person you see is me.."

"Eh??"

"That's it.. I sleep again, it still feels so sleepy..." Fauzi said turning to sleep behind me sitting beside his bed with an undefined feeling.

Once again, my indescribable feelings and my cheeks were heating up because it felt like my blood was flowing into all heads.