Dear, Soul!!

Ends..

I tried to explain everything to Fauzi.

"O Ozi's.. I chose you, and now I'm trying to fix it.." I said grabbing her hand but quickly Fauzi pulled her hand back. "Oze.. I'm sorry.." I started crying.

"Why is this the same as Salwa? What I lack all this time, I always try to give the best for you, I've tried as much as I can.." Fauzi's tears that he had just shed again, his emotions began to peak.

I just kept crying.

"If there's anything you feel less than I should say, I can try to be what you want, I can do it.. Whyyy?.. Why is this so??" Fauzi's tone of voice began to rise.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Ozi..." My voice started to shake.

"Have my love been lacking all this time? Did I give you less attention? I'm lacking what Salwa??" Fauzi kept showering me with questions full of emotion.

I didn't answer any of Fauzi's questions, only my tears kept dripping.

"I've told you, if there's someone you like other than me you can say.. I'm gonna try to be better than that guy and keep you from liking me.."

"Son, ma'am, that's not it..."

"What's too long? Was I too long away from you until you were like this? I've tried Salwa, I try to go home every week to meet you, I always take the time to always tell you. I always try to be there so you don't get lonely here.."

"Sorry Ozi, I. I'm fixing everything, I've removed one of them and I've removed it.."

"I'm..." He said he cut my words

"Son.. Mom's not you.."

"Then who? She's she? You like you couldn't have let him go. Long enough Salwa, long enough I give you time to choose it should be me or him, should now be one of us.."

"A'm I.."

"Why should he?" Ask to cut my words "Why should he? Why Farhan Salwa?"

"I'm it.."

"You made me lose two people at once, my lover and. and my best friend.." Fauzi said with his voice trembling.

Fauzi has all of his emotions.

"Ozi. I'm sorry.." There's nothing I can say but an apology.

Fauzi wiped his tears again, his eyes getting wetter and his nose was turning red.

"Ozi.I'm sorry, I'll fix everything..."

Fauzi was silent not to respond to me, every time I tried to approach him Fauzi dodged, every time I managed to hold his hand Fauzi quickly pulled his hand again.

"Fauzi.. I was wrong, I'm sorry.. Don't be like this.." Whining me while crying but still Fauzi did not respond to me.

"Uhukkp... The fa.. Uhukkkp.." Because I cried for too long until I had trouble taking a breath and coughing.

"You'd better go home.." Fauzi said without looking at me.

"So. I'm sorry, please forgive me.."

"It's late in the afternoon, the wind here is also getting louder.. You can get sick.."

In a state of anger Fauzi still had time to pay attention to me and think about my health.

"Son, I want you here.I want to be here until you forgive me.. I'm.."

"Let's take it.." Fauzi said..

"Ozi-fi.."

Fauzi ignored me, just walking towards his car, I followed him while wiping my tears.

Fauzi drove me home, I kept apologizing but Fauzi didn't pay me any heed. Fauzi continued to focus on driving while occasionally wiping his tears that sometimes still dripped. All the way home, not a word came out of Fauzi's mouth, he kept silent even though I was whining apologetically for him.

Arriving in front of my house.

"It's over.." Fauzi said it was the first word he said since we were together in the car. The journey is far enough that it takes quite a long time, but during that time not a single Fauzi spoke.

"Ozi.. I'll fix everything, I won't repeat it.."

"Oze.. "

"You don't want to come down?" He looked at me with a slightly sharp look.

"Son, I'm not going down before you excuse me.. I promise, I won't be like this anymore.."

Fauzi grabbed his phone, dialed a few numbers and called someone.

"Good afternoon, can I use the driver service?"

Whahuh? Fauzi called the driver?

"Well, I'll share the location.."

"Fauzi.. You why the driver service phone?" I'm confused.

"You don't want to get out of my car, I'll take a taxi home for the driver to bring my car home.."

JLEBB.. Fauzi to the extent, I have never seen Fauzi's cold demeanor as I have before. My tears were dripping, shocked and it was painful to be treated coldly by Fauzi who had previously treated me warmly.

"O.. Ozi you.."

"As far as you are, staying is up to you. Driver services will come to pick up my car, you want to go out or stay inside until the driver services come up to you.." Fauzi said rushing out of his car, I held him down.

"I'm out.." I said while wiping my tears, the pain was so cold that it was treated like this from Fauzi.

I got out of Fauzi's car, even though Fauzi looked at me never. His tears that had dripped even though he had already dried many times now had dried without leaving a mark. As Fauzi stopped crying, Fauzi's attitude grew cold and completely ignored me. I barely recognized Fauzi with his attitude like this.

I put some distance between my position and Fauzi's car. I really hope Fauzi says something or at least just looks at me before she passes.

"Salvah.."

"Yes.." I answered quickly and enthusiastically.

"I'm sorry before, my words were bad and my tone was a little high. Sorry to surprise you with my voice rising, and sorry for my attitude.."

"Thank God, it seems like he's starting to come back like the previous Fauzi" I muttered with a slight sense of relief.

"Maybe this is the last time I've acted like this to you.."

"It's okay Ozi, I understand that you're angry with me.."

"Thank you for understanding.. "

"Ozi. i.."

"I guess.." He cut me off "I can't be the Fauzi who has you anymore.."

"You mean?"

"I can't continue this relationship with you, we're here.."

"Ki kitaa..."

"Kita broke.. Sorry I had to say this.."

JLEEBBW... My heart hurts so much to hear it.. What did Fauzi say? Breaking up?

"Pu broke up??" I'll re-inquire to confirm what Fauzi said earlier.

"I'm sorry I can't continue this relationship anymore.."

"Pha.. Fauzi.. G gakk. I.." I was very surprised, continuing my words also felt as difficult as it was.

"Thank you for everything, I'll go home first..' Fauzi said and drove straight away with his car leaving me without giving me a chance to say anything more.

"Fa Fauziii...." I'm still trying to call him. "FOAMUZZIIII...." Call me with as loud a voice as I have.

My leg joints felt weak, I could no longer support my own body. I fell down on the side of the road.

"Fauzi.. Huhuhuhu" My cry broke.