Dear, Soul!!

A New Beginning

I live my days by continuing to take courses to prepare for the University entrance exams that I missed last year, this year I have to be able to go to college and improve the life that had been chaotic before. Now that it has started to improve, actually it can not be said to start improving because that changed only I started taking classes. I was still being overshadowed about Fauzi and still occasionally my tears broke considering everything that had happened. I often curse myself.

I gave up and didn't want to continue taking classes at that time. After hearing Fira's story, I did not continue my intention to go to the course of that time but went home and came back crying so much, I increasingly regretted my relationship that ended with Fauzi after knowing the truth at that time. I always blamed Fauzi back then, I was the breaker of his dream to become a photographer. But what Fauzi did, he still obeyed me even though I didn't know the truth. Can I find someone like Fauzi again?

Although I gave up on continuing this course, but now I still live it because of Mother's persuasion at that time. Also terbesit my mind at that time, what if later Fauzi came back to see me, I who at that time should not be found in a bad state, then, when Fauzi finds me later I should have been a better woman to be worthy of Fauzi's company. I know now Fauzi is trying to be a great man so I have to be a great woman to compensate later. I know Fauzi's return was just a delusion and my wish, but I still hope it comes true.

About four months I spent my days taking courses every day. Not only for University exams but also began fumbling for lecture activities. I was unemployed for a year and it made me a little stiff in my learning, not to mention my occasional messed up thoughts and my sometimes tantrums when I came back couldn't accept Fauzi's departure.

For all that has passed, I should have been able to take some lessons. I shouldn't waste someone loving me just because he can't always be there for me. I shouldn't dig my own hole by expressing my feelings to the person I know he likes me just for making him stay with me, and I must not be a planner who cannot make firm decisions and only rely on the word forced to hide from my sense of satisfaction.

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Time passed, today was the first day I entered class in the world of college. Unlike the High School period where our age is dominant in the same as the age of classmates, when in college we can not give a range at the age or make the age as a benchmark for how long a person lives in the world of college. At first I had thought about what if my own age was older than others, but it turned out to be a completely useless thought, there are some friends who were born about 2 to 3 or even 5 years earlier than me there are also some whose ages range from a year to two years from me.

I have long wanted to continue my education in the health sector and today is proof that I can realize my wishes. After a lot of searching and studying about the world of health, I finally decided to major in Pharmacy, Each major has its own level of difficulty and I think apart from the level of difficulty I am also more interested in the world of medicine than anything else.

Today is the introductory day of college. I stepped into the classroom, slowly walking towards the empty seat. I stared at the classroom all of them were busy chatting, it seemed like they had known each other before or might have just met each other but because they had the same discussion finally they could get along quickly.

I used to be like that, loyal, chatty and noisier so that makes it easy to get friends. But now that I'm no longer like I used to be, I have a little difficult to communicate with others so it makes it not easy to get friends. Suppose Salwa is now Salwa who used to be, maybe now I've been in a fuss with others.

I sat in silence myself, I also did not know how to approach friends or how to blend in with them while they were like knowing each other. Maybe if I joined I'd just be awkward myself between them.

"That'sit.. It will also be familiar by itself" I thought.

Here I am now, the once cheerful and sociable Salwa is gone with her past wounds. Now all that was left was a quiet Salwa.

"Excuse me, is this seat empty?" He asked, pointing at the empty chair beside me.

The question of someone who woke me from my daydream.

"Ah yes.." My answer.

He put his bag down and sat next to me.

"Annisa.." He said, extending his hand.

"Salvah.." Answer me while suffering.

"Hopefully in the future we can be friends" he said with a friendly smile showing a defect in his cheek called dimple.

"Yes.." I replied smiling.

She is very beautiful, her face is small, her eyes are cute with long bulumas although not lentic to be her own characteristic. His taper chin and his tyrannical jaw further added to his aura. Her veil covered her chest and her polite and neat clothes. He was the first one to talk to me when I got to class.

"I dress like this does not mean limiting my activities, it does not mean I have to be calm and gentle. I use it because it's my duty as a woman. Hehe actually women do have to be calmer but what is my power that has been born in a model like this" he said when I looked at him confused by his cheerful attitude.

Introduction course completed. At first I was afraid that I would have trouble following the lessons but it didn't feel as difficult as I thought.

"Wanna eat?" Take Annisa whom I call Nisa often.

"Where do you want to eat?" I asked while tidying up my books and notes.

"In the cafeteria, there will still be college.."

"Key.."

Slowly I began to get along with Annisa, probably because she was a supple and chatty person.

"Why did you go to Pharmacy? Like?" He asked on his way to the cafeteria.

"Said to like it anyway not, just kepengen if there are sick we know what to do.."

"Well, why not become a doctor?"

"Hem did not know, pas seraching more interested in the same Pharmacy alone.."

"Pharmacy is actually pretty hard"

"Really?"

"Yes, I graduated from Vocational High School Pharmacy. Hehe actually I'm interested in becoming a Wedding Organizer, just kasian Science Pharmacy if not followed later mubazzir"She said chuckling.

"Haha yes, especially the lesson is not unmitigated, really redundant if not continued"

I was chatting with Annisa all the way to the cafeteria.

Bruukkkc...

"Oh, I'm sorry I accidentally" I was quick to help pick up the report that was scattering on the floor.

I was too engrossed in talking to Annisa to hit someone for not paying attention around.

"Loh Salwa????"

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