Dear, Soul!!

Fauzi Status

Tonight is the reception night of Nina and Farhan's wedding. I was getting ready but did not move from the front of the mirror to keep checking my appearance.

"Are you ready?" A short message Fauzi sent.

Even just reading a short message and replying to Fauzi's message makes my heart beat ungodly.

"Yes.." Short reply. A few times I typed in the message I was going to send to Fauzi but then deleted it again before I sent it until finally it was just the word 'Yes' I sent it.

"Well, if I pick you up now.."

"Be careful.."

My heart just got so bad that Fauzi was coming to pick me up. I went back to check on my performance to make sure I look good tonight.

"It's pretty..." Praise Fauzi as he opens the car door for me.

"Ma thanks.." My answer.

Why should I praise me like that, making me a misbehavior.

Fauzi and I left for the building where Farhan and Nina's wedding reception took place. Along the way Fauzi told me some stories and I just responded by smiling without saying anything else. It's not that I don't have a discussion that I can discuss with Fauzi, it's just that I can't relax or just that my heart beats normally with Fauzi like this.

For a moment I put aside my feelings and the facts I knew about Fauzi who already had another woman. I will take care of my feelings later on about how to take Fauzi, this time I just want to enjoy times like this with Fauzi even though for the last time. I won't regret letting my feelings fall even deeper in love with Fauzi even though I know she belongs to someone else. As Fauzi said, feelings of love and feelings of love are not feelings that we easily control.

Fauzi and I arrived at the reception venue for Nina and Farhan. The hall was already filled with several invited guests from both Nina and Farhan's side. Fauzi and I split up after entering the venue due to joining their friends.

Nina wrapped in a modern dusty dress with a small crown on her head was busy smiling kindly with her guests accompanied by her husband Farhan. Farhan with his black tuxedo also looked dashing once tonight.

The event was lively, occasionally I passed by Fauzi as we greeted each other with other invited guests. I'm still awkward and sometimes there's a sense of shame when I cross paths with Fauzi and he gives her a sweet smile. Until the photo session, Fauzi and I went back up to take pictures at the wedding with the two very happy brides tonight.

"Ck, who married us but who became the main star even these two people.." Farhan Gerrutu.

"Dear not, we are still the main star tonight, just to see Fauzi and Salwa who take pictures accompanying us feel like they are photos of couples with their brides.. Ahaha.." Nina Temptation.

"Ha ha yes yes, why didn't I think of that earlier.." Farhan laughed at what his wife said.

"Sstt. You two are laughing at the kayak now while Salwa and I are with you. Other guests may have misjudged.." Tegur Fauzi's.

They threw jokes back at each other and I just responded with a smile because I didn't know how to say and respond. They always talk as if Fauzi is a man who is still alone at this time, or do they not know about Fauzi's marriage. But why did Fauzi hide it even occasionally responded as if he was still alone. Then Annisa too, why often discuss the same thing when she is the one who composed the design of the invitation Fauzi. I am not understanding them any more.

"Ha ha this time I'm serious Lu quickly follow gih, Lu don't be too relaxed. Don't forget the same age, bro.."

"Elah Han, I've said that later his soul mate met yes I must marry.."

"That's Salwa nganggurr.." Farhan said while glancing at me.

"Ha ha if the person wants, tomorrow I apply.." Fauzi said lightly laughing.

"Ha ha ha.. Salwa get ready tomorrow will be lamar tuh.." Annisa Goda.

"You guys don't ngaco.. I it can't happen.." I replied a little stammering though I had tried to speak with mediocrity, but because my heartbeat was beating so hard it made me nervous.

Fauzi's expression instantly changed hearing my answer. Nina and Farhan looked at me at the same time and looked back at Fauzi and looked at each other. The atmosphere momentarily became awkward.

"What's? Why are they like this? Why did all their expressions change? Did I speak wrong? I just don't want this kind of thing to be made into a joke, Fauzi's lover can be hurt if he hears our discussion just now" I thought confused.

"Ha ha ha" Farhan laughed awkwardly trying to melt the atmosphere. "Why the hell did you two talk, the one who married me the same Nina.."

"I am yes.. Ha ha already let's continue the photos" added Nina then back holding my arm to take me photos together. I glanced at Fauzi, he just smiled with his unfounded expression.

Nina and Fauzi's wedding reception is finally over. Some guests have permission to go home to the bride and groom's relatives and family. Slowly the guests began to go home and the entire building that had been boisterous had slowly become quiet. There are only a few left who still take pictures with both the bride and her relatives. Me and Fauzi were finally ready to go home.

Fauzi came back to take me home, he was nothing like when we left. Now that he is more silent than before, I also do not understand the end also can only be silent. I always think and try to remember what words I have said until the atmosphere is like this now.

"Salwa, I want something but it's a little personal, is it okay?" Fauzi's question broke the silence between us.

"Can you ask what?"

"You got a fiancee?" Tanya Fauzi remained focused on driving.

"A what? Tu fiance?" Fauzi's question surprised me, why did he suddenly ask this.

"Yes.." He looked at me for a moment and then refocused on driving.

"Son, I don't have any.."

"If boyfriend??"

"No way.." My answer is still confusion. Why is he asking like this.

I saw Fauzi slightly smiling at my answer. Why smile? Is he mocking me now that he's single and he already has a girlfriend. Why does this make me a little upset to remember.

"Why?" I was confused and a little upset.

"Son, I just want to know.." His reply with his face still smiling, was vague but irritated me.

"More to mock me?" Just pissed.

"So, why am I mocking you.." Ask Fauzi back.

Ah I don't know what Fauzi's thinking right now, which is obvious I get annoyed at seeing him smile when he knows I'm still alone. Is he going to show me off now???