Dear, Soul!!

Answer to Salwa's misunderstanding..

I rushed into my room, closed the door and tried to understand what had just happened.

Blussshhhhhhhhhh... Why has Fauzi lately been acting this way that makes me feel wrong, ashamed and ah feelings that I cannot explain.

I sat on the bed, holding the suit that Fauzi had given me just to protect me from the cold, the scent of Fauzi's perfume was still very attached to his suit. "Why is she acting so warm like this just like me while she already has a woman... Wait, wait, Fauzi said that Afifah was just his cousin, so????" I started to think hard.

Because I was too carried away by Fauzi's treatment earlier I forgot about Fauzi's words where I had to find out for myself what I thought about him who already had another woman.

Pocketing Fauzi's suit neatly and then quickly grabbing my phone, I had to figure out the truth and the one who could answer all my questions was Annisa. I quickly called Annisa.

"Hello Nis.."

"Why Wa?" Answer Annisa.

"Aren't you busy?" Much

"No, just eat some more.."

"eat? Didn't you eat with satisfaction at Nina's party earlier??"

"Yes eat, just because now I'm staying up late reporting so yeah hungry again. You're home yet?" Ask Annisa.

"Yes, just got here?"

"Newly arrived? Ck ck why don't you guys nina nemenin until the first night?" Sindir Annisa while laughing.

"It's Nina's happy night, I want her to stay longer.."

"So you went back alone?"

"Send by Fauzi.."

"Hem.. Seriously I suspect the same relationship between the two of you, there is no way Nina as Farhan teases you with Fauzi constantly if you are just a sister and upperclassman" Annisa began to suspect.

"That's.. Yes actually I'm the same Fauzi not just a sister and upperclassman..." Well I guess how much I hid this from Annisa, sooner or later she'll know.

"Well, my suspicions are correct. What is your relationship?" Annisa asked who was starting to be curious.

"I'd like to have something with you before.."

"Don't avoid, don't divert the conversation.."

"No.. I'll tell you everything later but now I really need your answer.."

"What answer?"

"Nis, yesterday when you discussed the invitation with Fauzi, whose invitation was it?"

"Affifah's invitation, why?"

"Who's the guy?"

"Who is her husband, who else would she be?"

"His husband's name?"

"Raka? A rafa? The king? I forgot, why??"

"Mom not Fauzi??"

"Well, didn't Fauzi marry his cousin??"

The fact that it was like a time bomb to me that blew up all my misunderstandings all along. So all this time I've been wrong to guess, I misunderstood Fauzi's status and I'm the only one who thinks like this. It's fitting that Nina and Farhan continue to tease me with Fauzi and Fauzi who occasionally tease me directly. True what Fauzi said, I am still as I used to always decide conclusions in my own mind without first finding out the truth.

"Wa..?? Hello Salwa, are you horrifying me??"

"Eh I Yes Nis.." My mind had gone so far as to forget that I was talking to Annisa right now.

"i's.. I thought Afifah was Fauzi's future wife and she met you to discuss the design of her invitation.."

"Well, that day he came because his cousin did not come because he said his stomach acid rose, so Fauzi who waited he made to see me. Most of their prewedding photos are also Fauzi so all prewedding photo files that want to be included in the invitation are the same Fauzi.." Obviously Annisa.

Gleebb.. Means all this time it's true I myself concluded something and continued to misunderstand.

"Why is nanyain?" Ask Annisa.

"I've been avoiding Fauzi for a while, I didn't reply until I changed the number so Fauzi couldn't call me anymore.."

"Ah yes, Fauzi asked for your number from me, not long after you have changed Fauzi's number ask for your new number again.."

Apparently from Annisa she got my phone number.

"What the hell is Wa?" Annisa asked confusedly.

I finally told Annisa everything, from the beginning of my relationship with Fauzi that I started since I was in the first grade of High School, until we broke up and cause me to be one year late to continue my education. There was nothing I missed telling Annisa, only once again I kept it hidden about Farhan, I don't think I can tell you that Farhan is one of the actors in the love triangle that I once worked on.

"Ja so you're with Fauzi??"

"Yes, we had a relationship like that but I ruined it.."

"Well, how can Fauzi be that calm now after what all has happened.."

Beginipun Annisa has been astonished to be made by the power of Fauzi's feelings, then what if he knows that Fauzi's friend I mean is Farhan, and then what if he knows that Fauzi's friend, he would not be able to imagine how strong Fauzi felt seeing Farhan and Fauzi now like a pair of companions that had never happened before.

"Yes that's how Fauzi is.."

"From what I've seen now Fauzi still seems to like you, he always approaches you and every time Farhan and Nina teases you Fauzi always responds to him.."

"I think it's like that too, lately Fauzi has been treating me very well.."

"What are your own feelings?"

"From what I told you earlier what do you think I feel like now??" Asking back.

"You're still in love with Fauzi.."

"Yes.." I answered quickly firmly and without hesitation.

"If this is the opposite..."

"We'll see.. Hem yaudah I died on the phone, thanks Nis.."

"Okay, hope everything goes well later, remember if you want to message the same invitation I anyway"

"Ha ha basarrr.. Yaudah bye Nis.."

Phone's over.

I momentarily pondered over everything I had done as long as I misunderstood Fauzi. I didn't return the message and occasionally tried to avoid it. I really don't learn from experience and I always draw my own conclusions.

I remember how Fauzi felt when I said we were 'impossible' together. I understood the meaning of Farhan and Nina's gaze back then and I felt guilty for saying that. Fauzi must have been hurt to hear that.

Arghhh Salwa.. You're really stupid, rash and can't learn from previous experiences, how can I explain this to Fauzi? I glanced at the Fauzi suit I had neatly hung, shiettt my guilt grew even greater. Ah come on, I better clean up now and get ready to go to bed, tomorrow morning I have to go to work I could be late if I don't sleep now.

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I still have one more episode for tonight :)