Dear, Soul!!

The Review 30

Fauzi strengthened his heart after talking everything to his parents.

"Faiq, tomorrow move yo.."

"Replacement? Mean Lu??"

"She moved out of here??"

"Why?? Waitwait.. You mean, did Lu upset me??"

"Ck I said move, not Lu moved markonahh..."

"But where are you going??"

"Udah, that's me taking care of. Anyway, packing-packing just now.."

"But why would you want to move? What's up??" Ask Faiq confused.

"No papa, you move away.."

"Ngapain moved if only kepengen doang, here already deket from campus, comfortable anyway.."

Fauzi stood up and sat down beside Faiq.

"Gue doesn't want what happened yesterday to happen again.."

"Which incident??"

"The signal follows me.."

"Why?? Are you the same as Salwa??"

"Gue wants to break up with Salwa.." Fauzi said bowed

"What??? Why???"

Slowly Fauzi told me everything. At first Fauzi did not want this problem to be known by others, Fauzi thought enough of him, Salwa and his mother Salwa who knew, but in the end Fauzi also told Faiq everything. Toh Faiq was no longer anyone else to him, and again Faiq would constantly ask if he did not know the truth.

"Author's decision is round? You sure??" Ask Faiq.

Fauzi nodded. "Gue thinks this is the best path for me and Salwa.."

"Hmmm.." Faiq sighed then leaned on the back of the sofa. "Gue is not saying that Lu's decision is wrong, if I am in Lu's position maybe I will also take the same path. I'm just kasian aja ngebayangin how Salwa later, he could have come here for nyariin Lu again kayak first.."

"Yes, so I wanted to move, I didn't want Salwa to know about me anymore.."

"You are so cruel.."

"Yes I know, but in my mind it's just a way that I can control my anger.."

"I hope this is the best for you.."

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Fauzi continued to stare at the screen of his phone, he himself was confused as to what to say to Salwa. Several times he typed in a message, then deleted it and re-thought what kind of good words he sent. I don't know how many times Fauzi typed then deleted it and typed it again repeatedly until he finally sent it to Salwa.

"I've thought about it a few times and I decided to end our relationship.."

The message Fauzi sent to Salwa at three in the morning.

Slowly Fauzi's tears trickled down, he himself also felt very sick to have to take action like this, Fauzi also felt tormented but he had no choice and no other way.

Fauzi went and opened a book that he used to take his feelings, a book that eventually became a favorite book that he took everywhere, because in addition to telling Salwa, the book that he had, fauzi's way of making up for his longing was to re-read his handwriting on the book because by reading it Fauzi could recall the times he felt in love for the first time with Salwa.

"I'm sorry, I can't help it anymore. Sorry I couldn't make my feelings stronger, sorry because I couldn't pretend to be okay and sorry because I couldn't stay by your side Salwa, it's all my fault for making you love anyone but me. Excuse me from your life for a moment, I'll be back when the time comes.."

Fauzi wrote that with his flowing tears.

"Hikss... Sorry..." Fauzi could not control his feelings anymore.

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Fauzi left his house keys to the security guards' complex, well that's part of Fauzi's plan because if the estimate is correct, Salwa will come after him here and will ask security about him. Security will reveal the keys to his house that will make Salwa sure that Fauzi really does not live there anymore.

"Are you all right??" Ask Faiq while driving.

"Yes.." Answer Fauzi briefly.

"Related?" Tanya Faiq made sure. Fauzi's gloomy face, puffy eyes and expression that seemed to have no passion for life made Faiq worried to see him.

Fauzi tried to smile. "I'm fine.." Said.

Tinctong..

One notification of the incoming message on Fauzi's phone from Salwa, it seems Salwa has read the message Fauzi sent to her.

Fauzi receives a message of refusal from Salwa to end their relationship, but Fauzi also constantly replies to Salwa's message while asking for a strong end to their relationship. Slowly Fauzi's tears trickled down as she replied to Salwa's message, her heart and actions were at odds now. Her heart still desperately wants Salwa to remain her lover but all she does now is try hard to end their relationship. Ya Fauzi put aside her love for Salwa to avoid the seeds of hatred that would grow if Fauzi forced herself to endure her pain of Salwa's betrayal.

Faiq was silent to see Fauzi like that, Faiq knew very well how Fauzi loved Salwa, Faiq himself was shocked and confused when Fauzi told him his intention to end the relationship, but even so Faiq knew that the decision Fauzi took was the best for both because Faiq was aware that there was something Faiq did not know about the relationship. Faiq was eager to calm Fauzi down even though he could only be silent in the end because he did not know what to do.

Fauzi turned off his phone, placed it in a bag and then stared out with tears that kept dripping even though he had sex many times. Faiq silently looked at her, trying to give Fauzi time to calm her own feelings.

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Fauzi arrived at his new place and had finished tidying up his belongings.

"I'm here now.." Fauzi Mumbles.

Fauzi lay trying to come to terms with her feelings. Only four hours ago Fauzi blocked Salwa's phone number but now that she misses Salwa so much, she is eager to contact Salwa but keeps her as she can. He did not want all of his efforts to go to waste just because he could not help himself.

"Zi.. I'm going in.."

Faiq said from outside the room followed by his steps toward Fauzi while carrying a plate of food.

"Lu haven't eaten yet, have you??" Ask Faiq.

Fauzi just nodded.

"Lu eat first gih, had a feeling Lu could be better later.."

"Thank you Faiq.."

"Sip.. If you need anything, call me.."

"Yes.." Answer Fauzi.

Faiq stepped out and did not forget to close back the door of Fauzi's room.

Fauzi was just speechless staring at the food Faiq was bringing, his appetite completely gone.

Fauzi grabbed her phone and tried to contact Ms. Salwa, she really couldn't stand it anymore to want to know Salwa.

"Hello.." Salwa answered from across the phone.

"Hello ma'am, I'm sorry I bothered you.."

"What a son.."

"Mom, how's Salwa Ma'am? Is she okay??"

"Yes like most people who are in love, Salwa began to cry continuously and did not want to leave her room.."

Fauzi was silent, there was a painful feeling in his heart. He promised not to let Salwa cry, but today what makes Salwa cry is himself.

"I'm sorry Mom.." Fauzi said softly and his voice began to hoarse as it held back his cries.

"Don't apologize, I know what you're doing is best for you. Don't think about Salwa, I'll take care of her here, you take care of your health there, too.." Said Salwa's mother trying to understand Fauzi's feelings. Salwa's mother knew that Fauzi was also very injured at this time, heard from his hoarse voice.

"Thank You Mother..."

Phone's over.