Dear, Soul!!

Ignoring Facts..

The misunderstanding is getting more and more protracted and I still can't explain the truth. I was confused as to what I should be like right now.

I walked in the courtyard and..

"Little..."

"What are you doing here?"

I don't know since when Fauzi stood in front of my house, he looked very faint and tangled.

"Salwa. I can explain everything.." Said approaching me.

"Go..."

"Salwa listen.."

"I said go.. PERGGIII"

Fauzi stopped his steps.

"Salwa please listen to my explanation first.."

"explanation? Explanation or reason??"

"No..."

"I don't want to hear anything from you.."

"I'm not going to let you continue to misunderstand"

"Misunderstand what you said?? I'm obviously writhing everything Fauzi.. I saw it"

"What you see is not necessarily true Salwaa.."

"Then what is right?? Playing with my feelings??"

"Not Salwa, I can clear everything up.."

"I'm tired, I want to rest.."

"Salwa. wait, listen to me first.." Fauzi said he was holding me back.

"Take off..." I said rebel.

"You're going to constantly misunderstand me that I'm not clear on everything being the same as you.."

"I'd misunderstand you for explaining all your reasons.."

"Salvah.."

"Go. I want to rest.." I said step in.

"I won't leave until you've heard my explanation.."

"Whatever.." I said keep moving.

"Do I need to take that woman to explain everything to you???"

I'm stopping.

"Heehhhhhhhh.. How much love is she with you until you're ready to cover up your lies??"

"Salwa. I'm with him is not at all what you think"

"It's not what I think but what I see.."

"I've been hinting..."

"Fauzi.. At first I always thought, no woman can match my feelings towards you let alone to exceed my love for you, The love I have is not as big as the woman's love that would lie just for your sake.."

"Salwa.. What are you talking about??"

"Ah... am I from talking?? it's possible, then go... I'm not happy to see you here.." I said.

"I'll keep you here.."

"Do as you please, my mother's father didn't come home today so there's nothing stopping you from standing there.."

I stepped in leaving Fauzi alone outside.

I threw myself in bed, I cried again. Is this karma because I've been suspicious of Fauzi lately? Did God deliberately make my suspicions so real that I would not always be so bad? Or is this the way God separated me from Fauzi so that my love does not get bigger and protracted. I don't know, all these vague thoughts are getting into my mind.

"Ozi..why is this about me? how long have I been lying? how long have I been cheating on you? whatwouldmywrong?? hiksss.. hikss" I kept muttering indistinctly while crying.

My memories with Fauzi seemed to have deliberately stopped in my mind to make my heart ache, I vividly remember that day, the day that Fauzi first greeted me.

"Little virus?? is there a big virus??" Fauzi said at that time while holding the name tag that was hanging on my neck during the time of Ospek.

Fauzi is the head of the Osis one force above me. He is not included in the group so he occupies the first post to record the data of new students. Yes as Farhan said, the handsome, friendly Fauzi, with good posture really caught our attention New students, not least me. I also admired him at that time..

"Why is the virus small??" Ask.

"Because I'm small, and he says I can transmit laughter to others.." My answer.

"Oh yeah?? But I'm not laughing??"

I was silent, because as usual the big brother of the MOS committee will be more rambling to play us if served.

"Name??" Ask Fauzi while holding a paper containing a list of names of new students.

"Little virus.."

"Hem... The real name of the deck, do you want me to miss, wrote Little Virus??"

"Salvah.."

"Full name"

"Salwa Alfah"

"Master?"

"Five.."

"Oh. This is what he said was a prima donna in the Lima cluster. yes It is quite interesting.." He said while nodding.

I just fell silent. For a moment I thought, this is the first day of ospek after yesterday's pre ospek. Yesterday I heard friends whispering about how upset the Osis chairman who said he was friendly. Sometimes I glance at him who is busy talking with his friends and teachers maybe about ospek, yes it looks friendly and handsome. But after today I spoke directly with him, hufftt his friendly impression was instantly transformed into a upperclassman who likes to look for the front face of new students, making my admiration fade.

Yes, although I was no longer a class brother who admired Fauzi but in the end I was the one he chose from the many who admired him and I was really made to love him. Well, that time until a day ago I felt I was the lucky girl that Fauzi chose and Fauzi treated me the best, but that was just the past because the fact I found out right now is that I'm the woman Fauzi hurt. The truth is that I am a woman who cries to the point of being tired from Fauzi.

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Maybe because crying for too long makes my throat feel dry. I walked down to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

"What's wrong??" I'm confused. It sounds so crowded from outside.

I walked out.

"Why Bi?" Ask the next door neighbor who is standing near the house.

"That's the deck, he said there was a hit-and-run.."

"A hit-and-run? Who's Bi?"

"That's your friend who had been waiting for you at the door, if I deck Salwa again not at home so the cement waiting in front of the house"

"My victory??"

"Yes dek. who the hell is his name again.it's often chat with adek father on the terrace"

"Haa??"

"Say the aunt who was next door he wanted to cross just because he seemed less comfortable so do not pay attention to the road and. loh lohh dekk Salwa go where??"

Uncompleted Aunt next door explained I had run into the street approaching the crowd. I don't want to guess, but who else is meant if not Fauzi, only Fauzi who often play at home and chat with father in the room, and again this morning before I enter....

I couldn't think well, I ran as fast as I could to the street where people were already crowded. My tears slowly began to drip.

"No way.. Fauzii's"

I broke through the crowd of people looking for a gap to look directly at.

"Ozi......" I said he approached her.

"Heyy Ozi. wake up. What are you doing here.." I said while holding it.

"Sir. dek.. tenangg..." The people around.

"Ambulance, ambulance. Please call an ambulance...." Excruciate.

More people are hugging you. Heehh. what they are crowding here, instead of immediately contacting the ambulance from earlier they even so the audience asked each other and answered each other to satisfy his curiosity about what is happening now.

"Ozi. heyy.. OZIIII......"