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Flashback: Story of Faiq & Karin (10)

It is still very difficult for Faiq to willingly give up his hope and love for Sasa, but he is also aware of what is happening now can not be withdrawn anymore. He braced himself and tried his best to live out what was happening right now.

The two families had spoken out about Faiq's proposal, which Karin had received, and the conversation began to lead to marriage and all the things that had to be prepared. Of course this marriage will be a magnificent marriage, considering that the family that will be bound by marriage, is not from the ordinary people.

But the luxury party that was about to be held turned into a simpler party. Faiq requested that their party not be made massive and only wanted a simple party that only invited the closest people and not to bring the media crew to participate in the role of capturing their moments.

The classic reason Faiq said about the simple marriage he wanted was that he did not want their marriage to be a meeting place for elite people and big business people, he did not want that event that should have been enjoyed well, to be a place of transaction of certain people. In addition, Faiq also said, if security was number one, and obviously it would be a little difficult to control if they were to throw a massive party despite having taken some bodyguard guards.

A reason acceptable to the logic of the two families. Karin's father even praised Faiq for his distant and very detailed thoughts. Unfortunately, the praise directed at Faiq for his mature thinking, will not apply if you know the original intentions of Faiq.

It was not such a classic excuse that became the basis of Faiq's reason for having a simple party. He just didn't want the media to come in and preach his wedding. Deep in Faiq's heart, he still harbors hope for Sasa, so he does not want Sasa to find out about his marriage. Because obviously, if the media report their marriage, Sasa has a great chance to know that.

The wedding day that had been determined by the date was getting closer, but it was not a feeling of pleasure that approached Karin, moreover Faiq, Karin felt a change in Faiq. The man who proposed to her suddenly became more silent and did not even concentrate if the two were busy discussing their marriage matters. But the anxiety that was hitting Karin, trying to Karin brushed by back positive thinking. “Yes, maybe Faiq is feeling nervous or anxious because soon will marry”

Karin is still positive thinking even though actually being hit by her future husband is an endless concern. The closer the wedding date was, the stronger the sense of uneasiness embraced Faiq. Every day Faiq kept on thinking about Sasa, he never stopped thinking about the woman who lived in his past, and it made him not focus on what he is living in the moment. Faiq often ignored what Karin said, and only focused on his mind that could not let go of Sasa.

Unfortunately again, behind the anxiety that was enveloping him, Faiq could not do anything. He is not likely to cancel a sudden marriage that is getting closer to the day H, but he also can not brush off the shadow of his former lover.

A turbulent, unrelenting feeling in Faiq's heart with all the anxiety that began to suppress him.

Until the wedding day, Faiq was still silent and unfocused. He still showed his sweet smile to the family and some relatives who came at his party, but just a smile with a mind that floated somewhere. The wedding day that only relatives and families attended was still crowded and magnificent.

Seeing such a Faiq, made Karin nervous. The woman who now looks beautiful in her wedding dress is made to worry about her husband's behavior which is very different from the one she has known for some time. But he still tried to cover up his concerns so that guests and his family were not made to worry.

Although Karin felt a change in Faiq, but she never thought of a no-no to the man who had said Ijab kabul for her. Karin always thought that what made Faiq a different person than he knew before, was due to nervousness and exhaustion as he took care of their wedding and stayed busy at his office work.

The party that Faiq had originally asked for was simple, but it was true that they did not invite the origin of guests other than family and close relatives. One by one the guests congratulated them, and the two brides with friendly smiles thanked them. A friendly smile that harbors uneasiness for Faiq and confusion for those who do not understand Faiq's change.

Karin still feels happy, she even feels she is the luckiest woman because she has been chosen by Faiq, although the atmosphere is a little different because Faiq is often daydreaming lately and not focused, but he with a positive mind always thinks that Faiq is just tired and many thoughts about work and their marriage.

One by one the guests moved, until finally the party that was held majestically even though not so many guests were finished.

Karin had just finished cleaning up her makeup, although she felt uneasy considering this was the first night she slept with someone else, but happiness made her heartbeat better conditioned.

Uncompleted Karin finished up to tidy her hair, the door hinges twisted and the door pushed in. Karin turned her head for a moment to check who was coming towards her, and with a slight tilt of her head Karin could see Faiq stepping in with his worn face.

There were no words Faiq spoke, he just rushed towards the bathroom and changed clothes. Karin said nothing. She gave her husband time to clean his body after being tired of standing in the guarantee all day.

Karin's phone that she put on the table beside her bed shook. He rushes and checks his cell phone, some incoming messages, congratulations to Karin who has now decreed as a wife.

Karin smiled while replying one by one to the messages that entered her phone, until Faiq out Karin was still fun playing with her phone.

Faiq only glanced at Karin for a moment, then took a sitting position on the sofa, sitting as a corner stretched his muscles that seemed stiff due to standing too long today.

Karin realized the existence of Faiq who had finished changing clothes, she looked at her husband who was sitting next to her and closed her eyes. The line of his face is clearly visible that the man is tired and has a heavy mind load at this time.

The woman, who has now consecrated her wife, walked slowly to her husband who seemed to have no spirit tonight.

“Why you?” Karin asked opened a conversation between the two.

Slowly Faiq opened his eyes, and fixed his sitting position as he realized the whereabouts of the woman who had now become his wife.

“You're really okay, right? You're okay, right?” Karin asked to confirm the condition of her husband.

Faiq simply nodded with a smile, although it was obvious that the smile he had did not look good.

“If there's anything, say the same to me. Previously you also often the same stories I”

“Iya.”

The two fell silent again, Karin no longer knew what to discuss and asked what else to break the silence between them.

“Karin.”

“Iya.” Answer Karin quickly. She felt grateful, at least her husband began to speak up after a few days ago he was more silent.

“I want us to live in a different home than our parents. Can it be?”

“You mean, you want to have your own home?”

Faiq nodded in agreement to Karin's question. “I want us to have our own home”

“Yes if you want that, tomorrow we will find a home for us. Your company is engaged in property, right? Surely you know some good houses for us”

“Iya, I know some houses that are suitable for us. We can live there and live independently without the help of Parent”

Karin just nodded, agreeing with what her husband wanted.

Faiq again changed his sitting position, sat down and slowly closed his eyes.

“You sleepy?”

Faiq just nodded slowly confirming Karin's question.

“Terus why stay sitting there? Why not move to bed?”

Slowly Faiq opened his eyes, lifting his body lazily so that his sitting position was a little firm. Faiq glanced at the bed that was quite spacious in front of him.

“I'm sorry, today I'm really tired.”

“What's wrong.” Karin smiled understandingly.

Very limp, Faiq tried to stand walking towards that very close bed.

“You want me to help?” Tawar Karin when she saw Faiq who was walking so smoothly.

“It's okay, I can.”

Faiq laid himself on the bed, at the edge of the bed and slowly pulled the blanket over him.

Although a little bit of a bad feeling in Karin's heart that saw Faiq sleeping right on the edge of the bed, but Karin continued to try to think well of her husband. “Perhaps he no longer has the energy to position his body more in the middle of bed”.